See Part 1 for disclaimers.
Randy pulled back slowly from the intense kiss and softly caressed a still red cheek, "Are you sure about this?"
The blonde nodded.
"I'll tell you what we'll go really slowly and we'll just go with the flow. If you feel at all uncomfortable you tell me, ok?" She asked the woman cradled in her arms gently.
Again her companion nodded.
"Hey," Randy gently tapped her on the chin, "I'd really like to hear your voice,"She said gently with a big smile at the blushing young woman.
Choked with emotion Brittany replied very quietly, "Ok...What do I have to do?"
Randy chuckled, "You don't have to do anything, Little one. I'll do it if you want. I'll lead and as long as you're enjoying it I'll just keep going. If you get scared or uncomfortable just open those pretty lips and say something, is that a deal?"
Brittany nodded and then stiffened up as if readying herself for a blow.
Randy shook her head and said quietly, "Relax, Little one. I want to bring you pleasure not hurt you. Let start nice and slow, we'll just neck for a while, Ok? Then if you get really into that we'll go from there," She gently brought Brittany even closer to her.
Brittany loved the closeness, She didn't fear Randy at all. It was the unknown she feared. She did trust Randy so she snuggled into the taller woman's neck and said a barely audible, "Ok."
Randy smiled and tilted the little chin so she could reach those luscious red lips. She gently kissed Brittany then deepened the kiss as she felt the other woman timidly explore her mouth. She allowed herself the pleasure of enjoying their connection. As she felt her love becoming excited she slowly lowered her hands to the lovely breasts she was dying to touch. She gently caressed the breast when she felt no resistance she opened the blouse and caressed the breast through Brittany's lacy bra. When she heard a moan she parted their lips and slowly kissed her way to a lovely neck sucking gently and her love's jugular.Her hands then went behind her loves back to undo her bra and then stroked a heaving breast under the lacy cup. She felt Brittany become more and more excited as her hands tangled in Randy's long hair. Randy pulled back slightly to look at Brittany's face.
Brittany's eyes were closed and her face was flushed in excitement as Randy started to slowly caress the other breast she saw that the smaller woman was becoming inflamed with passion. She brought her mouth to a small ear and licked along the rim then she whispered, "Are you all right?"
Brittany could barely respond she never in her life felt anything this intense she said a breathy barely audible, "Yes."
Randy's smile broadened as she sucked gently on the small tasty earlobe. Her hands busily removing the shirt, releasing the bra and going for full access to the lovely breasts. Then slowly she kissed her way down to the aching breast as the little one squirmed in pleasure, Randy licked a nipple and blew on it till it was perfect for her next step sucking on the lovely piece of the anatomy. Over whelmed by the pleasure this brought out in her Brittany went over the edge...
...Two shocked green eyes slowly fluttered open and looked into a pair of utterly pleased blue ones. "Did I just...."
"But you didn't even get to..."
"Nope, not yet it wasn't necessary. One step at a time, Little one." Randy was very pleased she knew if the first step went well the next would go even smoother. Brittany was very scared and now that she saw that she could enjoy this she would relax more when they got to the intense feelings of what's to come.
"But...I...Um you didn't...."Brittany was confused, happy, excited, pleased, She was so many things she couldn't even construct a simple sentence.
"Don't worry about me, Love. To tell you a little secret I got off on watching you go over. I feel great!"
It was the truth she had an orgasm just watching Brittany enjoy her first. It was a high knowing that she brought the love of her life to her very first climax. She was more then pleased she was elated. She bent down and softly kissed the waiting lips of her little love. Then she cradled her close and pulled the blanket over them and said as she enfolded the smaller woman in a warm embrace, "Nap time. We can get a little sleep then eat dinner and do some more exploring later."
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Three hours later Brittany woke all alone in her bed. She looked but saw no sign of Randy. Fear gripped her heart till she heard singing coming from the next room. She knew it wasn't the radio, The cool clear beautiful voice delighted her. She realized with utter relief and joy that she wasn't alone.
Brittany got up and saw the beautiful brunette in the kitchen busy making sandwiches and singing an old song from a Rogers and Hamerstien musical. She was singing with her whole heart though her concentration seemed to be on the sandwiches. It sounded professional and beautiful.
"Hi," Said Brittany quietly.
Randy stopped singing and smiled brightly as she turned to the disheveled looking blonde. "Well hi yourself, Beautiful. I thought I'd make myself useful and make us some lunch. We have a selection of peanut butter and jelly or ham and cheese. It's all I could find, I hope it's ok?"
"Its great! Wow, you sing beautifully. Did you ever do it professionally?"
Randy actually felt herself blush, "Thanks and no I did sing at some parties when I was in the service. I never did it for a living though. I just enjoy it, I'm glad you think its good too."
"I loved it, It was wonderful to wake up to something so beautiful."
"Yea it was, Come here you..."She said putting her arms out for a hug. Brittany immediately filled those arms and they kissed deeply. She was dressed just in her T-shirt and panties and Brittany pulled on an oversized Jersey so they're bodies connected against the thin fabric of their clothes. Randy took a deep breath and thought, First things first, as she pulled back and mussed Brittany's already mussed hair, "Are you hungry. Little one?"
"Good, Let's eat up then....We have a lot more exploring to do..."
Randy and Brittany decided to talk after lunch and really get to know each other. They figured that would lead to more "exploring". They both realized that they had the rest of their lives so they wanted to learn every nook and cranny of the others mind, heart and soul. They were both relishing every detail they had learned about each other so far.
"Can I ask you a question?"
"Of course," Replied Randy with a sweet smile, " You can ask me anything." She loved just talking with this woman, hearing her voice, it was so different from every other woman she had been with, and She just felt joy in being with the holder of her heart. Randy was amazed at that realization. She never in her whole life thought she'd ever feel so connected to another human being, especially not so quickly.
"Um....You said in the army you ...well that you hurt....I mean..." She didn't know how to put the questions plaguing her mind.
For the first time since Randy rescued her from the lout in the bar her expression became grim. Randy swallowed and thought, Here goes. Damn. I hope I don't lose her. I want and need her to know the whole truth. She has to know who she's in love with...She took a deep breath and walked to the window, and said very quietly, "I had to kill for the Uncle Sam, I'm not proud of it but it was part of my job and unfortunately I was very good at it. ..I'm very sorry" She felt her tear ducts fill up as she turned fully to the window. She was sure of the rejection that was going to come from the sweet and sensitive woman she was already in love with.
Brittany's eyes filled with tears just seeing the tears begin to form as Randy turned away, "Why are you crying? Did I hurt your feelings?"
"No!" Yelled Randy turning back and rushing to Brittany on the sofa, She went down on her knees in front of the other woman and said, "I'm sorry, You did nothing wrong. I'm crying because...I...I better go..."
"No, please..." Said Brittany reaching out with both arms to hold the woman's arms and keep her by her. Randy was already half way across the room so Brittany had to get up and reach around the taller woman's waist to stop her, "Please don't leave me."
Randy relished the words and the embrace which followed and she returned it with equal passion."You don't hate me?"
"Hate you? Why would I hate you?"
"Because now you know I am a killer."
"You were a killer. You did what you were ordered to do. Now your not...."
"Its not that simple. The problem is Brittany I liked it at the time. I did burn out when I realized how wrong it was but I was really messed up back then. I was wild and I enjoyed all the excitement and the strategy....till....till I ....till I was ordered to kill a whole village of innocents for nothing but strategy. I mean men, woman and children even their animals were to be destroyed. This sick general wanted the village taken as a buffer between us and the enemy and they were pawns in his ultimate goal. I was too.I was his deadly pawn...I...broke down. I couldn't do it, Brit....I fell apart. I almost killed my commanding officer that gave me the orders and he was just the middleman. I was lucky though, he saw what was happening to me and stopped me. He got me out of the unit to a good hospital. Once I was treated I was given an honorable discharge.
The two women had now sunk to the floor still attached to each other as if giving each other a lifeline. Randy was crying full force now and so was Brittany. Brittany was soothing her with kind words whispered in her ear and Randy was breathing heavily trying to get control so she could continue. She needed to keep talking, She needed her love to know what she was and did. Randy also needed to get it all out for the first time to someone she trusted.
"Once out I was staying at the VA hospital and I was what could only be called a functioning vegetable. I didn't know how to live outside of the damn army. I started to fix motorcycles and since it seemed to relax me and my shrink thought it was good therapy. I did it as a kid with my brother before he was killed in a car accident and it was really my only way of functioning. One of my doctors at the VA got me a job at a local garage. During my breaks I would sketch. Anything that caught my fancy. It was another thing from my childhood that relaxed me and kept me sane. The editor from our publishing company came to pick up her car and saw me sitting by it sketching away completely lost in my work. She loved it and hired me on the spot. We had a brief affair but once I got out of army life...well I really lived again and I realized she was a good friend but not some one I wanted in that way. I began to live a real life, a quiet life. I had a few affairs, I worked on my art and still worked at the garage once a week. Until recently I really felt I was meant to be alone, that there would never be someone special to settle down with..."
Randy smiled slightly and rubbed noses with the love of her life and said quietly, "Very recently. I love you, Brittany...I know I'm not worthy...."
Little fingers covered her mouth, "Shhh, I love you too. That's all that matters, Randy. That's all that matters....
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