Bonding of Souls #5: After the Storm

by CN Winters

See part one for disclaimers. Write the bard at


Xena nearly sprang to her feet from a deep slumber upon hearing the bard cry out. She looked over to see the bard now sitting up, shaking and breathing hard. Third time this week Xena thought. Her heart arched for the bard. Every night she hoped the gentle distraction of her affections before bedtime would lead the bard to happy dreams but no such luck. Gabrielle continued to dream of the desert boy whose life she took accidentally.

"Hey," Xena said softly stroking her back. "It's okay Gabrielle. Settle down sweetheart." Xena gathered the sleeping furs around them, pulling them tighter.

Gabrielle ran her hands over her face, trying to calm her nerves. "I keep seeing him Xena," the bard whispered. "Every night he keeps coming back. Every night I kill him all over again . . . I don't think this will ever end."

Xena held back her frustrated sigh. "It will Gabrielle. Give it time. You've been through a lot lately."

"I've been through a lot lately? What about Korra's father? I took his only son from him," Gabrielle spat.

Xena chewed her bottom lip to keep herself from going off on the bard. Silence was safer.

"I'm sorry," Gabrielle apologized with regret. "I know you're trying to make me feel better. I do . . . It's just so difficult living with what I've done – how I've hurt that tribe; Korra's father. It feels like I have a huge boulder on my shoulders, crushing me, with no means of escape . . . Is that what it felt like – I mean when you came to Potiedaia? When you had given up?"

Xena gave a small nod but said nothing.

"When did it end? When did you feel 'normal'?" Gabrielle asked.

"I'm not sure I've ever felt 'normal'," Xena answered truthfully. "All I know is I saw you stand up to Draco's army. I watched you willing to sacrifice yourself for everyone else. A fire I thought had gone out rekindled. Not the inferno that sent me on a destructive path but a new one. One I hadn't felt since I was a young woman defending my town. I started out with the best of intentions but got lost along the way. That day when I saw you I found a new beginning. Perhaps that's why I was so adamant against you following me. I didn't want to go on and I didn't want to take you down with me."

"What changed it?" Gabrielle asked, cocking her head in curiosity.

"You wouldn't take no for an answer," Xena grinned. "Just like I'm not gonna take no. I'm gonna stand by you. I'm gonna defend you. And I'm gonna help you find your true purpose again . . .Just like you helped me."

Gabrielle grinned at Xena's words. She's not the most poetic of warriors but she knows what to say and when to say it, Gabrielle considered. I'm lucky to have her. If I didn't . . . Gabrielle couldn't finish the thought.

Xena saw Gabrielle's expression of happiness slip away again. "What's wrong?" she asked.

Gabrielle ran her hands through her hair. "Just thinking . . . I couldn't go on without," Gabrielle began to sob.

"C'mere," Xena said pulling Gabrielle to her and lying back on the ground.

She stroked the bard's hair as she cried on her shoulder. Gabrielle settled down a bit whipping her eye before hugging Xena around the waist.

"I'm not going anywhere," Xena told her.

"Even if I'm a terrible person?" Gabrielle answered. "A warrior who lacks judgement?"

"You're not a terrible person. You're one of the greatest to walk this earth. And I'll always sing your praises to anyone I met. You're a brave warrior, a wonderful bard, a fantastic lover and a best friend. I've been truly blessed Gabrielle. And I'll fight for you until the end. Lord knows I've fought bravely for much less."

"Even fanatics who talk to beings called the Jinn?" Gabrielle teased.

Xena was relieved to hear the bard's little attempt at humor. "Ooh especially . . . I might even give up a good chewing tooth now and then."

Gabrielle grinned and sat up on her elbow. "She could have never loved me like you . . . never," she whispered as she stroked the warrior's face. "You and I," Gabrielle added as her fingers traced Xena's lips. "We're endless."

Xena closed her eyes and kissed the finger that lingered. The grin that was beginning to grow on Xena's face came to an abrupt stop when she felt the bard's lips covering hers in a tender kiss. Xena's eyes remained close and her hand moved up to cup the back of the bard's head.

"Endless," Xena sighed as her lover pulled away and she opened her eyes. "Don't ever forget that," Xena pleaded. "You'll always mean the world to me."

Gabrielle settled back into Xena's shoulder and stroked the side of the warrior's face. "I love you Xena."

"I love you too Gabrielle."

At dawn, Xena and Gabrielle went down to the parcel building in the local village to see if they had any messages from the family. They weren't all that surprised when they saw a scroll from Virgil. Not waiting to get back to camp they opened it and read it.

Xena and Gabrielle:

Hope this scroll finds you both well rested after your vacation. I wanted you to meet someone I met while traveling back with Eve and Sarah (Both are doing fine by the way and send their love. Lila was completely over joined and sends her regards and deep gratitude as well).

Anyway, I think you'll like him. His name is Hordious and he enjoys writing tales much like yours Gabrielle. I'm not sure what father would say to this but I'm sure you two would understand. I wanted to make a trip to Athens to introduce him to mom. She always said, love is love no matter what. Time to find out if she really meant it.

We'll be traveling back to Africa shortly to visit some kin he has living there. I thought perhaps in two weeks we could meet on the river. There's a little town called Kaiai. Hordious says we could camp out under the stars, go fishing and so on at the south side of town. I'm rambling aren't I? Well I know you two don't have anything 'pressing' at the moment so I'll count on you being there unless I hear otherwise. I look forward to seeing you two again.

Take care

"What do you know? Virgil got a boy toy," Xena chuckled.

That earned her a playful swat from the bard. "I think it sounds very sweet and romantic," Gabrielle countered. "He sounds quite smitten in fact."

"Really? Did we read the same parchment? I saw he met a guy and they're going camping. No deep everlasting love going on in this letter," Xena answered gruffly.

"No dear it's subtext. Reading between the lines like star gazing and phrases like 'and so on'. Get it?" Gabrielle asked with raised eyebrows.

Xena paused a moment. "Nope. Looks like he got a boy toy to me."

"You're such a cynic," Gabrielle chuckled rolling up the parchment. "It's a wonder that we ever got together," Gabrielle grinned.

"That was easy. I just picked you up, put you on my shoulder and said 'Me warrior. You bard. Make zug zug'."

Gabrielle slapped the parchment against Xena's breastplate for her to hold, making the warrior yelp. "Yeah Xena - you really know how to sweep a gal off her feet you big softy you."

Xena chuckled and wrapped a tender arm around the bard. "Come on bard 'o mine. Let's say I buy you breakfast."

"The fastest way to a woman's heart, through her stomach," Gabrielle grinned. "I guess you do know how to treat a lady Xena."

Xena grinned. "I never had a doubt my dear."


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