- Xena, I need to talk
to you -Gabrielle says to a distracted Xena who looks at her with questioning
eyes. Both of them know things haven't been the same between them lately,
but none of them had decided to make the first move and confront things, though
they both feel they are getting apart more and more day after day. They really
loved each other, more than any other couple in the whole world, they had
go through a lot during their lifetime together, maybe too much. They had
laughed, but they had also cried and hurt each other. But their love was stronger
and it survived all the tests, one after one, they knew they belong each other,
they knew they would be together for eternity, 'cause not even death would
break their bond. But they wondered why, now that they knew all of this, they
felt like something got lost, like they're living their lives side by side,
but not together. Yes, they're certainly not the same persons they used to
be, their experiences have shaped their lives and souls into these new selves,
and though they should be closer than ever before they feel they're losing
each other, but they're afraid to talk What happened to us Gabrielle? Why
can't we talk? Xena thinks as she looks at her friend in front of her.
Gabrielle looks determined looking at her eyes, What does she want to talk
to me about? Please, don't say your leaving I couldn't resist that.
- Xena, did you hear me? are you
ok? "Gabrielle asks seeing she's not getting any answer.
- Yeah, I heard you. Sorry, I was
- Eh well, things but I want to
hear you first, ok? Let me give Eve to Aris.
Xena knows Eve will
be in good hands. Aris is a young amazon who has gotten really attached
with the little girl, and Eve seems to enjoy her company as well. Xena gets
ups and says to Gabrielle:
- Wait for me here, ok? I'll be
is she thinking? Could it be possible she is going to talk to me? I mean,
she's been so distant lately Hmm Oh I feel my stomach is feeling weird,
gee Gabrielle, just calm down, ok? It's Xena we're talking about; it's your
best friend, right? So, just relax and speak your mind this is gonna be
a hard one
- All right Gabrielle, let's go.
- Go? Where?
- Didn't you say you want to talk?
- Yeah, but-
- I thought it would be better to
leave the village for a while, I mean, so we can talk quietly and without
interruptions, what do you think?
- Well, ok just let me go for the
- Gabrielle "Xena says and holds
her hand shyly, very softly, but then she takes it away "I want you to
ride with me, on Argo
- Ok -she answers and Xena goes
to look for Argo. Gabrielle follows her and waits for her not far away.
What was that all about? She touched my hand Gods, I felt I was going
to fade It was so strange, now I know how much I've really missed that,
her hands, her touching it was only a hand and she left me almost shaking
- Gabrielle, let's
go "Xena says up there on Argo. Gabrielle looks at her and feels she has
been transported to her past, years ago, when she was just a village girl
looking for adventures and lessons to learn. Xena offers her hand and helps
her get on Argo, as she had done so many times in the past, when things
seemed less complex. Gabrielle is ready, and she places her arms around
Xena's waist, being careful not to press her that much. She barely touches
her. Just when Gabrielle puts her arms around Xena, the warrior feels her
pulse getting faster and faster. It was so long since the last time they
were like that, with Gabrielle behind her back, feeling her closeness, knowing
they were made for each other, knowing they were the happiest persons in
the world. Gabrielle, this is who you are. Why have we lost all this
time? I want you like this always, riding next to me but I'm afraid I've
done too much wrong to you, I'm afraid I've destroyed the most precious
part of your soul
It was late afternoon,
but the sun would be still their companion. They were riding with no direction.
Actually, Xena didn't know what they were going to, but she just needed
a little time to think about what she would say to Gabrielle. She said
she needs to talk, and the least I can do is talk to her too, open my heart
I guess it's time, I can't live like this anymore, I owe it to her. No matter
what she wants to say, I'm not gonna let her walk away without knowing how
I feel, what is it that torments me
- Xena, when will we stop? " Suddenly
Gabrielle takes Xena out of her thoughts.
- It would be soon now
- It's just that I don't want night
to fall on us "she says kind of worried.
- Don't worry about that, trust
Yeah, I trust
you Xena. It's just that this is getting too strange for me. It's already
late and we're going nowhere, or is it you're too afraid to talk to me that
you'll ride all night long?
- Ok. Guess this is fine "said the
warrior as she stops Argo.
Then she jumps to
the ground, and tries to help Gabrielle.
- That's all right
Xena. I can do it "Gabrielle says in an almost rude tone. I'm not a kid
anymore, you know?
Xena looks at her,
Sorry, she thinks, without stopping looking at her bard. The sight
is beautiful. Xena knew Gabrielle would enjoy it, you could see the greenest
hills shaping their way gracefully, the red-blue sky and a sun that was
starting to say good bye.
- It's beautiful, huh? "Xena asks.
- Yes, it is. But Xena, this is
not what I came here for, you know that, right?
- I know it. But Gabrielle, you
used to enjoy watching the sunsets, I didn't mean-
- Yes, I used to enjoy lots of things,
but now I have something more important to worry about. " She says in
an almost rude way.
Xena turns away her
face, looking at the view. Is this possible? Where is the Gabrielle I
knew? And why the heck I feel so hurt? Why am I such a softy? Damn
What did I do?
What is going on with me? Why did I answer like that?, I don't have any
tact. And Xena, she seems she's about to cry. Gee, I should have known,
she seems so sensitive lately, and I've gotten harder than ever.
- Xena, I'm sorry. I didn't mean
that. It's just that I can't sit to enjoy the view, when there are important
things I wanna say to you. " She says walking towards Xena.
- I know, I know. Guess I overreacted,
you know how wacky I've been these months. I don't know what's going on
Gabrielle, but I can't seem to be in control of myself, and I hate it.
- Xena, don't be so hard on you,
it was the pregnancy and everything
- Yeah, I know. But even now that
Eve is born I feel strange. I'm not the same person I used to be, and
I know I've made you go trough it as well
- Xena, none of us are the same
persons we used to be we've gone through too much to still be the same,
it would be silly to think we would be the same till the day we die. We
had to grow; we had to get up and rise above all, above all the hurt,
the pain, thinking that the future would bring us new chances, for both
- And it did. It brought us Eve,
and with her the chance to start all over again. Not only to redeem myself
for Solan, but also because of you and Hope
- Hope? "Gabrielle's eyes gloom,
sadness in them facing the memory of her child.
- Yes, Hope. Gabrielle, I know you
still think about her. You don't have to tell me, I'm a mother. And I
know you love Eve as much as I do, but the thing is sometimes I don't
know why I was given this opportunity, and not you, who really deserve
it. Why it wasn't you the one who carried this child inside you. Gabrielle
I can't tell you I would chose to reject Eve, but I can tell you, I would
chose for you to be her mother, for you to carry her in your womb.
- Xena, believe me. I couldn't love
Eve more if she were my own child. For me, there's no difference. And
I know there's a reason why it was you the chosen one to carry her, and
I accept that 'cause I love you more than myself.
- And Hope-
- Gabrielle, I'm sorry I didn't
give her a chance. Xena says with tears in her eyes. I know you just wanted
to do what any other mother would have done.
- Xena, I know I loved Hope with
all my heart, but I also know that wouldn't be enough to make her change.
And I don't think it's because evil was a stronger force, but because
it just wasn't meant to be. It hurts my soul, but it's the truth, I just
hope wherever she is, she has found peace. Hope hurt us both the same,
but you know what?, I think I've succeed, I've forgiven her and myself
for all the things that happened between us
- Gabrielle, come here "Xena says
while she reaches for Gabrielle's hands. She takes in her arms and holds
her there. "Gabrielle, I know I've made you go through so many things,
and I know now you've had to put up with enough
- Xena, what happened to us? Ok,
hang on "while she breaks the hug. "Listen, I think I heard you, now I
want to ask you something. Is this the reason why you've acted so strangely
with me all this months, or is it something else?
- Xena, if you just don't want me
to be near you just say it, ok? It's just that I can't live like this
anymore. Wondering what I have done wrong? wondering what else I have
to do to show you how much I love you and Eve. By the Gods Xena, can't
you see that? can't you see I'm dying every day a little more? I'm lost
without you. "and she can't help a tear to come out of her eyes.
- Gabrielle, I'm so sorry. But don't
you ever think I stopped loving you, you live inside my heart and you
always will. It's just that I couldn't help thinking I made you leave
your own way by letting you to stay here with Eve and me and help us against
humans and Gods. I know how you feel about killing, and I was so ashamed
to look at your eyes and not seeing the light I once knew, you seemed
you missed something, and I knew it was that, you couldn't stand killing.
- Yes, I couldn't stand killing,
and I never could. And yes, guess you're right and I've been acting strangely
lately with you. But you see? it wasn't because of the killing, I mean,
it wasn't the main reason, the main reason was you, who seemed to forget
about me Xena, I can't deny this is a great responsibility, and it hurts
me, but it was my choice, I couldn't let anything bad to happen to you
or Eve, and I would do anything, listen to me, anything to protect you.
- But destroying your soul in the
process? Gabrielle, I can't ask you that. That's too much
- Too much? who says what's too
much or too less Xena? "And she gently takes Xena's face in her hands.
"Look at me. Xena I love you, and because of that I'm willing to do that
sacrifice for you, you understand? I couldn't just stay there not helping
you the way you need me, and you don't have to feel any guilt about it,
The warrior can't
believe how lucky she is, having Gabrielle next to her. Gabrielle has given
herself completely for her. She had made so many mistakes in the past, but
she wasn't gonna let herself do anymore.
- Gabrielle I love you "and she
moves slowly towards the green eyes in front of her.
Soon her lips meet,
softly, gently, like discovering for the first time the taste of love. Two
souls who meet again under the red blue sky, knowing a new age has began,
and willing to face the future with hope in their hearts.
- Gabrielle, I don't know what I
did to get the biggest gift in the world, your love. But I promise you
something. I don't want you to feel I don't love you never again, for
the rest of your life. You know how I am, it's hard for me to say what
I feel, but I promise I'm gonna try to say it out loud, to say that you're
the most amazing person I've ever met, and that I love you as I never
loved someone before and as I never will. You are my life Gabrielle, now
- Xena, no matter what I have to
face in the future, what proofs I'll have to live, but I know if you're
next to me, I'll handle it.
- Gabrielle, I'm nothing without
you, you know that? don't you?
- I do
And they kiss again.
This time stronger and then they held into a warm hug. They stay like that
for a while, just holding each other, feeling each other. Now things could
be different, they knew that, they just had to give themselves a chance.
After a while
- Xena...sun is almost
gone -Gabrielle suddenly says.
- So? We have to go back if we don't
want to arrive at nighttime.
- Who said that? "Xena asks with
a grin in her face
- Xena, what do you have in mind?
- Hold on.
And she goes to Argo
and looks for something inside the saddlebag. She returns to Gabrielle with
a couple of blankets.
- We could spend the night out here.
We just need to find a place to camp. What do you think? I know Eve will
be in good hands.
- But they might think something
happened to us
- Don't worry about that. I told
Aris we would come back tomorrow. I figured we would need a time just
- So, you got it all planned out,
huh? What made you so sure? "she says with a serious face.
- I didn't know it, but I wanted
it to be like this
- Me too
- Ok, so let's find a place to camp.
- Fine, but first, let's watch the
sunset, shall we? "Gabrielle says.
- Of course
They stayed there
for a while, watching the sun disappeared. They were holding hands thinking
tomorrow would be a wonderful day, no matter what it brought, now they were
together again, and stronger than ever.
Later, they got on
Argo. This time Gabrielle gets closer to Xena, she put her arms around her
again, but this time without the fear she felt before. She places her face
on Xena's hair, breathing, inhaling. The scent that felt so familiar, but
so new at the same time.
Xena felt Gabrielle's
body and she knew that was the best sensation in the world. Knowing they
were still the best friends in the world and soulmates. She loved the bard
more than her own life, and nothing would ever change that.
- I think this is
a good place. "Xena says
- Yes, it is. Xena, why don't you
go to look for some wood while I set up the camp?
- All right. I'll be back soon,
ok? "and she gets closer to Gabrielle- wait for me.
And their lips find
each other again, the sweetest sensation filling every part of their bodies.
- Ok, I better go soon. It's getting
colder here. "Xena says.
- You think so? "Gabrielle asks
with a grin.
- Well ha, I mean outside here.
Just wait ok?
As soon as Xena leaves
Gabrielle goes to Argo's saddlebag. The thing is she managed to place her
scroll, the one she was writing before she decided to talk to Xena inside
Argo's saddlebag without Xena noticing it. She knows she doesn't have too
much time, so she quickly throws the blankets on the ground and sets a hole
to prepare the fire. Then she opens her scrolls and takes her quill, and
in a few moments she seems she's done. Then she hides it under one of the
blankets and waits for Xena.
- I'm back! "Xena says.
- Yeah, I can see.
- Sorry it took me longer than I
thought. It's just I had some troubles to find some dry wood.
- That's ok, actually I didn't notice
you took that long.
- Oh, thank you! "Xena says with
a ironic smile.
- Xena, that's not what I meant.
- I know. I'm just kidding, you
So quickly a fire
is ready. Both women sit next to it, warming their hands and thinking about
all they had lived.
- Xena, do you think we're safe
now? I mean, with the Gods and everything behind our back.
- We will never be safe again Gabrielle.
But we'll find a way to keep Eve far away from their claws.
- Yes, we will
- Xena, I want to show you something
- What is it?
- Just close your eyes, and promise
you won't open them till I tell you to, ok?
- Ok, promise.
with her hand behind the blanket, and finds the scroll she had hidden a
- Ok, ready "Gabrielle says. "See!
- Gabrielle, it's a scroll! Did
you finally write anything? but hey where did that come from?, I mean,
I didn't notice any scroll on your hands when we left.
- Ha, you're not the only one with
skills, you know?
- Yeah, I can see that. But when?
- Before I went to you to ask you
to talk. And now, I just wrote something that I want you to hear
- Go ahead, I'm getting impatient
- Ok, so, here it goes...
I know we both
come from different places
I know we're two
But time has taught
To trade places
to make us grow
In the beginning
we were teacher and student
Later we were
dark and light
Then you were
the light and I was the dark
But now, we're
just us Xena and Gabrielle
Warrior and Bard
- I love you Xena.
- Love you too Gabrielle.
And they kiss, with
passion, strength, but most of all with love. And they're lying on the blankets,
under the soft light, kissing, holding, breathing, and sighing, under the
stars. As they find each other again, they find their way, now they know
all along it was in front of them. They're their way each other for eternity