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Zero Ward
by
Kim Pritekel
Part 9
Chapter 23
San Diego, CA
1945
Kate sat in the formal living room of
her parents' house, feeling as though she were sitting in front of
a firing squad. In fact, she'd rather be sitting in front
of a firing squad instead of her parents.
"We've called you here today,
Katherine because I'm unhappy," Beth Adams said, arms crossed over
her lap and lips tight. "And so is your father."
Kate looked back and forth between the
two. "Why are you unhappy?"
"Because it would seem you have no
interest in your future," Percy explained, lighting his pipe,
fragrant smoke swirling around him. "You've finished two years of
schooling, yet have not brought home a single young man for us to
meet."
"I haven't met any, Dad. I'm trying
to concentrate on my studies." Again, she looked between the two
of them. "I thought you'd be happy about how well I'm doing. I
don't understand."
"What's to understand?" Beth asked,
getting angry. "We sent you to school to find a future for
yourself."
"That's what I'm doing, Mom. With a
degree, I can take care of-"
"A husband will take care of you!"
Percy roared. "I will not be humiliated by a daughter who
works like some common girl with no better sense!"
Kate was floored and devastated.
"What do you want me to do?" she asked, resigned.
"You have until the end of this year
to be engaged, or I will pull the plug on your schooling.
If after you marry you wish to finish your degree for the sake of
finishing, fine, as long as your husband permits it. But, beyond
that Kate, your future is to be a wife and mother, and to make your
mother and I proud."
Kate nodded, trying to keep her tears
in. "Yes, Father," she whispered, feeling as though her world had
just fallen out from underneath her. She wanted her career so bad,
and she was fighting hard for it. As it was, being the only girl
in most of her classes, and certainly in her major in history, was
extremely challenging. She knew there was far more pressure on her
from her professors, as many of them didn't want her there. And
now this.
Not wanting her parents to see her
cry, Kate pushed up from her chair and left the room. As she drove
home, the tears began to flow. She swiped angrily at them, but
they kept coming. A bitter laugh escaped as she wondered what her
parents would say if they knew she was already
married.
*****
Helen refilled their cups with coffee
before sitting down next to Kate on Kate's bed again. She studied
Kate's profile, her friend staring blankly out the window into the
darkness beyond. "What are you going to do, sweetie?" she asked
softly.
"I don't know," Kate admitted,
wrapping her hands around the mug.
"How can you marry again when you're
already married to Danni?"
Kate was silent for a long time, as
she had been wondering the same thing all afternoon. She then
realized that their marriage wasn't legal, anyway because not only
was Danni a woman, but Daniel Felts, who signed the marriage
license, doesn't even exist. She couldn't tell Helen that, though.
Nobody knew the truth about Danni, and she just didn't know who
she could trust.
"Maybe I can divorce him on grounds of
desertion." She looked at her friend to get her thoughts. "What
do you think? I mean, I don't even know where he is to even ask
for a divorce."
"Wow," Helen blew out, sipping from
her coffee. "What a mess." She was quiet for a long moment before
she turned to her friend again. "What about George?"
Kate's eyes slid closed, dread
gripping her heart. "I don't love him, Helen."
"But he's awfully fond of you.
Besides, anyone you marry right now is going to be someone that you
aren't necessarily in love with, Kate." She waited until Kate met
her gaze. "At least you know him and you know that he'd marry you
in a heartbeat."
"That's so unfair to do to him,
though."
Helen shrugged. "It's going to be
unfair no matter who you do it to, because in the end, you
will be essentially using the guy."
"I guess I could divorce him once I
finish with school," she reasoned. "God!" she cried out, raising
her face to the heavens. "Why do they have to be this way, Helen?
All I want to do is finish school and move on with my life. I'd
really rather be doing that with Danni, but I guess it just showed
me what kind of person he really is." She let out a heavy sigh.
"I guess I did only know him for a little while."
"I've heard of this kind of thing
happening a lot, Kate. These boys were so desperate for that
connection while they were away from home, and then when they came
back…" she cut her finger across her throat, accompanied by a
sound effect to emphasize her meaning.
Kate picked at the comforter beneath
her. "I thought it was so much more than that, Helen. I really
did." She set her coffee mug aside on the bedside table and
plopped back onto the pillow. "I thought Danni was different, you
know?" She looked at her friend, seeing the sympathy reflected in
her eyes. "I thought he loved me."
"I'm sure he did, Kate." Helen set
her own drink aside then lay beside Kate, on her side with her head
cradled in an upturned palm. "Maybe something happened, I don't
know. I hope someday he'll find the courage to contact you again
and you can find out. But for now, if you want to finish school, I
really think George is your best bet."
Kate squeezed her eyes shut and
nodded. "I think so, too," she whispered.
*****
San Jose, CA 1968
Kate sat on her bed, legs crossed and
the cardboard box in front of her. She'd been sitting there
staring at it for ten minutes, trying to decide what to do. Like a
wad of cash, the box and its contents had burned a hole in her
pocket since the night Danni had given it to her. Even so, she
knew that likely to read all those letters Danni had written her
that she'd never received would be bitter/sweet at best. In all
reality, it no longer mattered what was in those letters: it was
done. As Danni had said, that ship has sailed.
Kate reached out and ran a finger over
the smooth cardboard flap at the top of the box, wondering if Danni
had touched it in the same place. She wondered why Danni had never
contacted her to let her know. Why? Why had she let Kate go on,
thinking that Danni had abandoned her, when in fact, Danni had been
as heartbroken as she was?
Anger filled Kate as she slammed a
fist into the bed. "Dammit!" she yelled, the echo bouncing around
the walls of the small bedroom. "Dammit, dammit, dammit!"
She sent a foot out, sending the box
of letters flying across the room and hitting the wall. The
letters spilled out across the floor, a fan of memories. She began
to pace back and forth next to the bed, her gaze straying to the
letters often.
"My life could have been so
different," she muttered. "So fucking different!" Angry
tears spilled down her cheeks. "Why, George?" she demanded,
staring up to the heavens. "Why? Why couldn't you just leave well
enough alone? We were happy, goddamn you. Happy!"
Kate threw herself down on the bed,
her body trembling with the sobs that tore through her. She'd
never known such acute devastation, realizing that her life was a
lie. It had been altered out of pure malice and jealousy, and now
she'd never know what it could have been. What would it have been
like to share a lifetime with the one person who always truly
understood her? The one person who was the absolute love of her
life and the one person who she craved like a drowning man craves a
life jacket.
*****
Burbank, CA 1968
Carol sat with Frank, watching the
evening news when the phone rang. "I'll get it," she announced,
pushing up from the couch and heading into the kitchen to grab the
connected attached to the wall. "Hello?"
"That bastard did this!" Kate cried on
the other end. "He knew, Carol. He fucking knew!"
*****
San Jose, CA 1968
Carol rang Kate's doorbell, and within
seconds the door was yanked open, startling her with the ferocity
of the action as well as the look in Kate's eyes. "He knew all
along," she growled, storming away from the door and leaving it
open for Carol to follow, which she did.
Carol had no idea what had happened,
as before Kate called her with those few words at her house, she
hadn't spoken to her since that first night in Maine. They ended
up in the kitchen, where Carol spotted an open bottle of wine and a
half-empty glass. "What's going on here, Kate?"
Kate was quiet for a moment. She
reached for her wine glass and took a sip. With a sigh, she got
herself under control and turned to Carol. "George did this on
purpose, Carol," she said, her voice low and dead. "He
orchestrated everything in my life, like a puppeteer and me on his
string." She drained her glass and refilled it, raising the bottle
in offer to Carol.
"No, thank you." Carol plopped down
in one of the chairs at the kitchen table. "But I'd really it if
you'd sit down and talk to me."
Kate did just that, setting her glass
down in front of her and running a hand through her hair. "Seven
years ago a box of letters were mailed to Danni with a letter from
the Navy explaining that they'd been found in a storage room.
Carol, they were all the letters that Danni and I had sent, but
neither of us received: nearly a year's worth."
Carol could only stare for a long
moment, stunned. "And, you think George arranged this?"
"Yes. Well, Danni does. She believes
he used his rank to make it happen. It makes perfect sense, Carol:
about a month after I got my first letter from George, all letters
stopped from Danni. Danni told me about a time in the post office
there on base where George saw the letter Danni was sending to me.
I don't believe in coincidence."
"Wow." Carol pushed away from the
table and grabbed the wine bottle, uncorking it and pouring herself
a glass. Sitting down across from Kate again, she sipped. "This
is terrible, Kate. Absolutely terrible." She met her friend's
tormented and angry gaze. "All this aside, how did it go?"
Kate smiled, despite her pain. "She's
amazing, Carol. Just like I always knew she was. She's
unbelievably beautiful."
"I know. To see her last year, an
actual woman, wow. Very beautiful indeed. Did you two
get along?"
"Yes," Kate said quickly, but then put
some thought into it. "Yes, but it was strained at times, to be
sure. I mean, it's been almost twenty years since the last time we
saw each other, and you know that story." She studied her
friend for a long moment, trying to decide how much to disclose to
her. Finally, she decided she needed, really needed to be
able to tell someone the entire truth. "It's over, Carol."
Carol could hear the profound sadness
in Kate's voice. "Why? What happened? And, did it ever even
start again?"
"I wanted it to. I think." Kate
sighed, sipping more wine, fully feeling it go to her head and fuzz
her judgment. "I kissed her. I didn't mean to, it just sort of
happened." She looked down into the golden depths of her glass and
said again, "I kissed her."
"It didn't go well? What, is she not
a good kisser anymore? I certainly remember enough stories about
Danni from you back when."
Kate gave a weak smile at Carol's
attempt at humor. "No, she simply backed away and told me that our
time was past and it would be no more." She downed the rest of her
wine, slamming the glass to the table top. "'That ship has
sailed', she said," Kate recited bitterly.
"Ouch," Carol muttered, sipping her
wine. She studied her friend. "Maybe it's for the best, Kate.
Maybe it's just time to move on. You're a free woman now that
George is gone. You've got a home, a career that you love and are
free. Hell, sometimes I wish I was in your shoes." She
smirked. "But, let me ask you this: now, with all this crazy stuff
these kids are doing, and 'free love' and all that b.s., where do
you stand? You were with George for over twenty years. You know
damn well that Danni is a woman, and now she even looks
like a woman, yet you still have a thing. So… ? Where does
that leave you?"
Kate grinned, quite tipsy. "Are you
asking me if I'm a lesbian, Carol?"
"Is that what they're calling Danni's
type these days?"
"Yep. Work in a university and you
hear it all. And, in response to your question: hell if I know.
Want some more wine?"
"No, I can't stay, Kate."
Kate nodded, understanding. "I'm
sorry to drag you out so late."
"Don't be." Carol got to her feet and
took her friend in a tight hug. "It's going to be okay," she said
into it. "Truly, it'll all work itself out."
Kate returned the hug, grateful Carol
was back in her life. "Thanks."
Kate walked Carol to the door,
accepting one more hug before turning back to her glass of wine,
downing it and glancing at the bottle. After only a slight pause,
she poured herself another glass and grabbed it and the bottle and
padded to the living room. Setting them down on the coffee table,
she made her slightly-staggering way upstairs to her bedroom and
gathered the letters that had fallen on the floor, putting them
back in the box and carrying it downstairs.
Making herself comfortable on the
floor next to the coffee table - and her wine - Kate once again
found herself staring at the box, looking at it as though it would
bit her. Chewing on her lower lip, she contemplated the contents,
and tried to decide if she should even delve into it or just let it
go. She absently reached for her wine glass, taking a sip before
setting it back down again and taking a deep breath.
Kate gathered the thick stack of
letters in her hands and began to sort them out by postmarked date:
one pile for Danni's letters and one pile for her own. Her own
letters and cards that she'd sent to Danni had all been opened, and
Kate assumed, read. All of Danni's letters, however, sat sealed,
unread for nearly twenty-five years. She took the top letter,
which had the oldest date, and stared at Danni's handwriting: bold,
simple lettering, very straightforward, just like her.
Suddenly, Kate set the letter down and
pushed to her feet, nearly going ass over appetite in her haste to
get to the stairs and her bedroom. She pulled the wooden box from
the closet and set it on the bed, opening it and looking down at
the unopened letter.
*****
San Jose, CA 1954
"Come on, Megan," Kate called out to
her 7 year old, who was taking her sweet time climbing out of the
car, her favorite stuffed dog tugged by the ear behind her.
"Can I get the mail, Mamma?" the girl
begged.
"Sure, honey."
Kate was actually glad for the help,
as she was juggling two bags of groceries, her books from school
and Megan's jacket. Kate got the door unlocked and dropped some of
her load on the couch that immediately inside the front door, then
headed into the kitchen to put groceries away and start dinner.
"Mamma!" Megan called out, little feet
thudding on the floor as she ran into the house and into the
kitchen. She presented her mother with six pieces of mail, proud
of her achievement.
"Thank you, sweetie." Kate gave her a
daughter a kiss on the cheek and took the mail. "Go change out of
your school clothes, honey."
"Okay!"
Kate heard the girl storm up the
stairs as she sifted through the mail she'd been given. The letter
on the bottom of the small stack made her breath catch. She stared
down at Danni's name and Wayne, Nebraska address, unable to move.
She was startled by the sound of the front door opening.
"Hey, honey," George called out.
"What's for dinner? I'm starving."
Panicked, Kate shoved the letter into
the pocket in her dress, knowing that George would have a fit if he
caught her with it. "Hi," she said, shaky as she quickly pulled
out pans and random items, her brain too stunned to even think
clearly about what she was doing. She accepted George's kiss,
though her mind was fully on the letter that seemed to almost burn
her skin through the material of her dress.
Later that night, Kate lay in bed next
to a snoring George. She glanced over at him, making sure he was
sound asleep. He was, so she carefully pushed out of bed and
pulled on a robe. She grabbed the letter out of her dress pocket
and snuck out of the room, heading into the guest bedroom, where
she closed the door with a soft click before heading over to the
closet. Inside on the top shelf was the wooden box Danni had made
for her graduation present. She brought it down and set it on the
bed, opening it. Her heart was pounding at both the thought of
seeing Danni's things again, as well as the fear of getting caught
with them: George had no idea she had it.
She picked up Danni's shirt that she'd
snagged from the motel room five years before. Bringing it to her
face, she closed her eyes and inhaled, just barely able to still
detect the slightest bit of Danni left on the material.
"Oh, Danni," she breathed.
She re-folded the shirt and placed it
back in the box, but not before placing the letter under it. She
decided it was best to leave it in Danni's box for now, and would
go back and read it when she more time alone.
"Kate?" George called out from their
bedroom.
Panicked, Kate shoved the lid onto the
box and slide the box under the bed, hurrying to the bedroom door
before George went looking for her. She scurried back to the
bedroom she shared with him. He sat up in bed and looked at her
through sleepy eyes.
"Sorry, honey," she whispered, "Megan
had a bad dream." She hated lying to him, but knew she had no
other way.
"Oh. Okay." George reached for Kate
and pulled her to him, holding her against him as he fell back
asleep.
Pinned by a strong arm, Kate lay awake
for a long time, thinking about the box and the newly-arrived
letter. She knew George watched her like a hawk under normal
circumstances, but after Danni had arrived on their doorstep five
years ago, he'd watched her even closer. Kate decided that it was
for the best to just keep the letter buried where it was, under
Danni's shirt and under Danni's memories.
The next day she hid the wooden box in
the trunk in the attic, and intended to never dig it out again.
*****
San Jose, CA
1968
Kate stared down at the letter that
she held in her hands, her chest heavy as a sense of dread overcame
her. Her eyes fell closed and she swallowed her emotions down, the
numbing effects of the wine temporarily lifting. Blowing out a
breath, she opened her eyes and headed back downstairs, sliding the
letter underneath the pile, saving it to read for last.
With a long swig of wine for courage,
Kate took the first letter in hand again and tore it open. As she
read through the words, a soft smile spread across her lips,
memories of another time flooding her. Danni's mention of music
and events of '43 and '44 made her think back to her own days in
undergraduate school: the people she knew, that crazy house she
lived in for three years.
Wine forgotten, hour after hour passed
as Kate read, her eyes burning as sleep demanded her attention, but
she pushed it away. As she lay on her stomach amidst a pile pages
and envelopes, her eyes feasted on all that Danni had to say to
her, tears coming sporadically at the confusion she could see in
Danni's world.
... Where have you gone? ...
… What have I done? Did I
do something wrong? I don't understand! ...
… Why don't you write
anymore? …
… Do you not love me
anymore? …
Kate set the letter down, Danni's
final words in it cutting her to the core. It was the second to
last letter in the stack, and Kate could feel Danni's anguish and
rising anger. She buried her face in her hands, tears streaming
between her fingers to dampen the carpet below. All of Danni's
emotions and hurt had so very mirrored her own. She thought all
the same things, as well as the fact that she was being fed lies by
George that entire time.
"Dammit!" she exclaimed, pounding her
fist into the floor beside her head, ignoring the jarring pain that
spread throughout her hand. "Why did this have to happen?" she
whispered.
Pushing to a sitting position, she
grabbed the last of the war years letters, leaving only the one
mailed to Kate's house. Grabbing yet another tissue from the box,
Kate wiped at her eyes and face, which felt tight from the stream
of salty tears. Looking at the date, she knew this one was written
after the attack on their base, and after Mike had died.
February,
1945
Dear Kate.
I can see that you no longer wish
to hear from me, so I'm sorry to bother you with this letter now.
I so desperately need a friend to talk to, and right now, you're
the only person I can really write this to who can understand. I
hope.
Mike's dead. God, it
hurts so bad to even write those words. Were attacked just before
Christmas, and it was a doozy. I won't go into the bloody details
or bore you with military talk, but just know that it was bad. A
lot of good men lost their lives that day. They say the war is
almost over, but I guess not soon enough for Mike. When they
brought us into the hospital together, I heard a doctor declare
Mike be taken to the Zero Ward: that's where all the bodies go that
are gone and soon will be gone. I tell you, I wish I could have
gone there right along with him. I don't feel like I have much to
live for anymore, so they really might as well just toss me in.
I did find one act of
kindness from a doctor here, real good fella. He found out about
me while picking out all the shrapnel that was lodged in my back.
When I asked him why he hadn't turned me in, he smiled and said:
"You're a brave soldier and I'm not going to let anyone take that
from you." I was real surprised and touched by that.
Ah hell, Kate: what
was all this for? So many people are dead or dying. You and
me… well, I'm still not sure what happened there, but I guess
what's done is done. Maybe I'll see you when we come home. I
don't know if you've heard, but we're scheduled to leave here in
about six months. Will you be there? I really would like to see
you, even if it's just so we can say goodbye.
Take care of yourself,
Kate, and I hope your studies are going good.
Danni
Kate wiped at the silent tears that
had fallen during the entire read of the letter, her vision
blurring sometimes to the point where she could no longer see the
inked words. She set the letter down and ran her hands through her
hair. With loving fingers, she refolded the page and slipped it
back into its envelope then set it aside. With a deep, sad breath,
she grabbed the final letter, her heart pounding as she opened it.
September, 1954
Kate,
Hello. I'm sure
you're pretty shocked to hear from me, and I would be, too if I
were in your shoes right now. I again want to apologize for my
actions the last time we saw each other. No matter what I was
feeling or how angry I was, I had no right to attack you like that,
and it's always weighed heavily on me.
I'm not really sure
how to say this, so I'm just going to say it: I love you. More
than anything I want us to have a chance together. I know so much
has happened and there is a whole lot of water under that bridge,
but I can't stop thinking about you. I want us to be together,
Kate. You, me and Megan. Allison Hughes (remember her?) and I
have begun a business together that I think will do really well. I
can take care of you. The only hitch is, you'd have to leave
California.
Oh, Kate, can't you
see it? The three of us together? We could get that house we
always talked about, and even a dog! I've always had my eye on
huskies, personally, so I'm sure one day I'll have one. I'd really
like that someday to be with you, though. Please give this some
thought. I know it's sudden and certainly out of the blue, but we
loved each other enough once to get married, and I have to believe
in my heart we can love each other that much again.
Please think about it
and let me know. My phone number is below. I'll wait to hear from
you, either way. No matter what happens, know that I love you with
all my heart and always will.
Danni
Chapter 24
Megan pulled her yellow Volkswagen bug
into the driveway of her childhood home. Cutting the engine, she
hurried up the walkway to the front door, anxious to see her mother
after her week-long trip. They'd never been separated for that
long before, and she had missed her mother dearly.
"Mom?" she called out, letting herself
in. The house was quiet, which was unusual, considering it was
already after ten in the morning, and her mother was
always up by a most un-groovy time. "Hello? Are you
home?" She looked in the kitchen, seeing an empty wine glass on
the table as well as an empty wine bottle on the counter. "Whoa,"
she muttered, concern gnawing at her gut now. Her mother was
not a drinker.
Megan made her way into the living
room, surprised to see her mother lying on the floor with a pillow
from the couch under her head. She was surrounded by what looked
to be letters and their envelopes. Another empty wine glass and
bottle sat on the coffee table.
"Mom?" she hurried over to the prone
woman and knelt down beside her. She was relieved when she found
her arm warm. "Hey? Mom?"
Kate started, pulled from a very deep
sleep. Immediately a pounding headache joined the morning sun.
"Oh, god," she groaned, squeezing her eyes tightly shut and
bringing a hand up to her forehead.
"What happened?" Megan asked, brushing
some hair back from her mother's tear-stained face. "God, you look
awful! What happened?" She looked at all the letters. "What is
all this?"
Kate sat up with the help of her
daughter, immediately regretting the action as her head began to
pound even harder. "Ugh."
Quirking a small smile, Megan jumped
up and ran from the room, returning with two Aspirin and a glass of
water. "Take these. It'll help."
"How would you know that?" Kate
grumbled, irritated by her daughter's most amused grin. "God.
Help me up, honey."
Megan got her mother to her feet then
pulled her into a hug. "I really missed you. I'm sorry I didn't
get here last night, which was the plan." She pulled out of the
hug, studying her mother's red-rimmed eyes. "The concert went
late."
"It's okay, sweetie. I missed you,
too." Kate made her slow way towards the kitchen. "Want some
breakfast?"
"Yeah, but let me make it. You, Mommy
dear, take a load off."
Kate did as she was asked, watching as
her daughter flew around the kitchen, whipping up some breakfast
for them. "Did you have fun?"
"Oh my god, yes! Janis Joplin is like
the best singer ever!"
Kate was happy for her daughter's
excitement, even if it did hurt her head. "Well, somehow I doubt
that, Megan."
"Here, drink this." Megan slid a mug
of strong coffee in front of her mother. "And, she may not be
Billie Holiday or those other old people you listen to, but she's
the grooviest thing I've ever seen." Megan sat across from her
mother with her own cup of coffee, keeping an eye on the sizzling
sausage. "So, you have a lot to answer for, missy. Where did you
go, who did you see, and what's up with all the letters? And, why
on earth were you crying? Were you thinking about dad, or
something?"
Kate cringed at the very mention of
George. "I went to see a friend in Maine, and the letters are from
her-" she cut herself off, letting out a heavy sigh. She studied
her daughter, with her big, open and trusting eyes. She saw so
much of herself as a young girl in her daughter, and it made her
wistful for a time that could never come again. She felt like she
owed it to Megan to be honest with her. Besides, maybe she could
offer up some advice. "Do you remember that box you found that day
in the attic, when we were looking for Grandma's dress?"
"Yeah, that Danni Felts guy." Megan
popped up and turned the sausage, cursing softly when she was
popped by the grease.
"Yes, Danni Felts." Kate was silent
for a long moment, sipping her coffee and brain spinning. "Honey,"
she began, once her daughter had taken her seat again. "I loved
Danni very much, as you saw in that picture."
Megan's eyes burned with curiosity.
"You went and found Danni!" she crowed.
Kate stared at her for a long moment,
then finally nodded.
"Whoa! Far out! Is he married and
shit?"
"No, but does have a girlfriend. And,
I have to tell you something about Danni." Ignoring her headache,
Kate got to her feet, needing to busy herself with the normalcy of
life as she dished up food for both of them. "Danni is a woman,
Megan."
Megan was silent for so long that her
mother actually turned to look at her. "You found that out when
you went to Maine?" she breathed, utterly intrigued. "Does the
girlfriend know?"
Kate set their plates down and sat
across from Megan. She stared at her food then met her daughter's
unwavering gaze. "I knew it back when we were together," she said,
her voice soft.
Megan was stunned, and could see her
mother was terrified of her response and reaction. She carefully
wiped any expression off her face. Of course she had friends that
dabbled in digging the same sex: heck, it had even been rumored
that Janis was into women sometimes. "So," she began, her voice
calm and conversational. "When you and Danni were all lovey dovey
back a million years ago, you knew he was actually a she?"
Kate nodded. "Yes. I didn't at
first, but I found out."
"Is that what broke you two up?" Megan
asked, beginning to prepare her breakfast.
Kate shook her head, also preparing
her breakfast, though she didn't have much of an appetite. "No.
That's a very long, complicated story that I'm just now beginning
to find answers to."
"Whoa," Megan said again, sitting back
in her chair. "So, does she still look like a guy now?"
Kate shook her head, an involuntary
smile curling her lips at the mental image of Danni that she saw
before her mind's eye. "No, she's a very beautiful woman, Megan.
She only did what she did so she could fight in battle. They would
never let a woman do that."
"Of course not," Megan muttered. "The
Man would never let that happen. Probably never will."
Kate knew better than to let this
become a debate on modern culture, as she wasn't a huge fan of a
lot of what was happening nowadays. "Either way, she did what she
did and it happened the way it did."
Megan studied her mother for a long
moment, Kate's eyes fixed on her plate though Megan suspected two
sausage links wasn't what had her so enthralled. "You still love
her. Don't you?" she asked softly.
Kate blew out a breath, not sure how
to answer that question for her daughter. She didn't want Megan to
know just how much her father had done to hurt Kate and Danni, and
didn't feel she should ever know. Why muddle the image of
a man who may have been a real bastard in a lot of ways, but was
truly a good and loving father?
"Our time is long gone, Megan," she
said carefully. "I made my choices."
"Did dad know about Danni?"
"The ironic thing was, your father was
Danni's direct officer. So yes, he knew her."
"Did he knew about you two? And, did
he know about Danni?"
Kate nodded. "He knew Danni and I
were in love, yes. And, no. He never knew about Danni's true
identity."
"So, Danni was in the Navy too, then,
right?" Megan asked. At her mother's nod, she grinned. "Well,
then I guess my old man has two legacies to live up to."
Kate looked at her daughter with
adoring eyes. "None of this bothers you?"
Megan shrugged. "I'm not real sure
how I feel about it, to be honest. Am I gonna flail you and call
you names? No way. But, it's not every day you find out your mom
has banged another woman."
"Megan!"