Solitary Love

By: Lady D

© 2010

Disclaimers: All of the characters in this story are fictional. Two of the characters just happen to resemble the physical features of Xena and Gabrielle.

Love/Sex: NC-17- Depicts a sexual relationship between two women.

Yes, but I think you can handle it.

Notes: This is a story I just had to get out of my system. I kept getting ideas and just had to share them with my fellow readers. I hope you like it.

Please let me know what you thought of my new characters and their story!


High gusts of wind blow clouds of dust through the courtyard of Wensha County Prison. The sun beats down waves of heat upon the hundreds of orange uniforms worn by the prisoners. Calloused hands grip the wired fence blocking off dozens of women fixing their gaze on the dirt road miles away; hunger and anticipation burn in their eyes.

Prison guard, Angela Cougar, knew that look all too well. Working at the facility for over five years now, she knew that fresh meat was arriving. The bus carrying new prisoners was scheduled to arrive soon.

A bead of sweat began to run down Cougar's temple. The tall prison guard removed her black cap, wiped the sweat off with her forearm and placed the cap back on her head. Her long dark hair was up in a ponytail and she wore dark reflective shades that hid intimidating blue eyes. The 32-year old guard hated the outside shifts in the peak of July heat. She was thankful that the light blue top of her required uniform was short sleeved and she didn't mind the black slacks either. The high temperatures were too much to bear sometimes, but she had a job to do and she made sure to do it well.

Something caught her eye in the distance on the dirt road. The grungy white prison bus was finally making an appearance. The women behind the barbed wire fence were practically climbing on top of each other waiting for the bus to arrive.

Cougar shifted her gaze from the approaching vehicle to Wallace Turner, another prison guard, who was coming her way. He was a tall muscular man that was rough around the edges. He had a permanent scar on his face that ran from his upper lip to the bottom on the right side. Turner received the injury during a prison incident four years earlier. An inmate had made a knife-like weapon attempting to escape and Turner got caught in the mess of things. The middle aged man nodded to Cougar as he came and stood beside her.

“How many are coming in today?” he asked, his voice strident and deep.

“Five,” Cougar replied.

The large white bus pulled in through the main gate and came to a stop right beside Cougar and Turner. The women behind the wired fence began to hoot and holler loud obscenities as the bus door swung open. An officer stepped off the bus first and was soon followed by the new fab five.

Cougar watched from a few feet away as the women filed out of the bus. They stood in a line side by side, each with another prisoner handcuffed to their wrist.

Turner paced down the line in front of the new arrivals and began to bark his usual welcoming to the women's prison. Well, not exactly a welcoming, more like rules of do's and don'ts.

The brunette began to scan the face of each woman, going down the row one by one with her eyes. All of them had the same look. Expressions of uncertainty, regret or how the hell did I wind up here? Except for one. The last one down the row. She was the shortest one of them all, standing no taller than 5ft 4in. The length of her blonde hair stopped just past her earlobes and she had a cute face. Judging by the muscles in her arms, exposed by her gray tank top, the girl definitely worked out. Cougar assumed that her legs were just as defined but she couldn't tell with baggy cargo pants.

The blonde glanced at the loud prison guard with a bored expression and then lightly kicked the dirt below her booted feet. Cougar tore her eyes away and walked over to the entryway of where the new arrivals would be headed.

“Okay, ladies! Let's move! Follow me!” Turner began to lead the five prisoners past the fence that restrained the rowdy women of Wensha Prison. The fence shook and rattled as the prisoners banged trying to get the newbies' attention.

Cougar stood tall by the entryway into the building as the women filed past her. Handcuffed chains lightly clinked together as they went by. The blonde was the last. Her eyes flickered up to meet Cougar's concealing shades.

Those were the most gorgeous green eyes the brunette had ever seen. As the smaller woman passed, Cougar noticed the sexy crooked smile that curved the prisoner's lips. Her stomach actually got butterflies. It was the first time a prisoner's unabashed look had an effect on her. She shook it off quickly and proceeded to follow the line, guarding the rear. And what a nice rear it was. Cougar couldn't help but let her eyes drop to the blonde's ass every once and a while. Those cargo pants fit her well.

They walked down a darkened narrow hallway made of solid brick, colored an odd gray pigment. The tiled floor covered in black scuff marks squeaked beneath rubber soles. Turner led the women into a large room, which was just as cold feeling as the hallway. Cougar remained by the doorway.

Bertha, a fellow officer and friend, sat at a long table in the center of the room. She was in charge of fingerprinting. “Alright, ladies step right up, don't be shy,” the heavyset woman smirked.

All five prisoners had their fingers dabbed in black ink and were soon moved into a room further back. Turner stayed near the door and closed it after the blonde went in last. The prisoners would soon be greeted by three female officers who would be performing the infamous cavity search.

An hour later, the new prisoners were sent to the showers, handed their very own orange getup, and then led to their cells. Cougar unlocked the steel bar jail cell and slid the door open for her last prisoner. The blonde stepped past Cougar, not acknowledging her at all. The earlier look of interest had faded. The brunette closed the cell door as the prisoner hopped onto the top bunk of her new bed. The blonde was in the small quarters alone…for now. She would have a cellmate soon enough. Cougar gave the blonde one last glance before locking the door and walking away.


* * *

The next morning, Cougar was on post in the large courtyard watching the inmates as they enjoyed their outside time. Some played basketball, others lounged on tables and benches, and a few just walked around. The brunette scanned the scenery and soon her eyes caught a glimpse of light blonde hair across the courtyard. The small woman was lounging on a bench, watching the various activities around her. Cougar made sure to keep an eye on the blonde because she was the perfect prey for some of the horny women in this facility. The brunette was not sure why, but a part of her felt a bit protective of this woman.

As if on cue, three large women approached the blonde and stood around her, blocking any chance for an escape. The three women were Dee Dee, Jackson, and the one in the middle was T, the leader of the small gang. Everyone on the prison grounds was afraid of them and made sure to give them whatever they wanted, when they wanted it. As soon as T laid eyes on the small blonde, she knew she had to have her.

Cougar immediately reached for her radio and headed in their direction. “This Cougar. I'm going to need assistance at the southeast end of the courtyard.”

“Hi, cutie. What's yur name?” T reached over and began to softly brush back the blonde's hair.

The smaller woman forcefully whacked the woman's hand away. “Don't,” the blonde warned, staring down the leader of the gang.

Cougar saw the blonde's mouth moving from a distance, but couldn't make out what she was saying. Dee Dee yanked the blonde off the bench and threw her to the ground. Upon seeing this, Cougar quickly turned her walk into a run.

“Yo! There's a fight!” an inmate yelled over the courtyard.

Floods of women were now rushing to the scene. An officer blew his whistle and the entire courtyard was chaos.

The blonde quickly got to her feet and brushed the dirt from her orange pants. She was soon surrounded again. All three women began to shove her back and forth between them.

“I can't wait for you to eat my pussy you little blonde whore,” T threatened.

Just as Cougar was a few yards away, she watched in surprise as the blonde grabbed Jackson's hand and twisted it. The woman squealed in pain before she was slugged in the face with a left hook. Cougar stopped in her tracks, eyes widening in surprise.

The blonde ducked a punch headed her way and quickly landed a blow to Dee Dee's gut and then kneed her in the face. Blood squirted from the woman's nose as she fell to the ground. The blonde whirled on T, rage burning in those green eyes. The crowd of women whooped and hollered in excitement.

Finally, pushing past the herds of women circling the fight, Cougar moved in grabbing the blonde around the waist, pulling her away, but not before the blonde delivered a heavy punch to T's left eye. Five other officers scrambled to the area to break up the gathering.

“Back! Everyone back!”

“To your cells ladies!” Another officer yelled, baton in hand.

Cougar had the feisty blonde pinned to the ground and handcuffed.

“This isn't over, blondie!” T yelled as she was hauled in the opposite direction.

With the excitement over, the crowd slowly began to disburse. Cougar lifted the woman off the ground and onto her feet. The blonde was breathing heavily as adrenaline still pumped through her veins.

“Let's go,” the brunette ordered, pushing the blonde towards the building.

Cougar led the small blonde to the warden's office. It was a stingy room with wooden furniture and a large window that overlooked the entire courtyard. Warden Harrison Brightman sat in his large leather padded chair and turned towards the two women at the door. He was a heavyset man. His overly large belly hidden behind his desk. He wore a gray suit with a matching tie, and a white undershirt.

“Bring her in,” the slightly balding man ordered, not even looking up from the documents he was shuffling.

Cougar nudged the blonde into the room and the prisoner stood in front of the warden's desk.

Brightman looked over the file in front of him. “Let's see…Devyn Anders is it?”

The blonde rolled her eyes and shifted her weight slightly. She found the wooden floorboards more interesting than the man before her.

The warden raised his head. His eyes peering over his black framed reading glasses. He noticed the prisoner was looking back at him with a jaded expression. “I asked you a question. Is your name Anders or not?” His voice rising.

“Isn't that what the paper says?” Devyn shot back.

Cougar slightly raised an eyebrow at the smaller woman's attitude. She's a little spitfire.

Brightman removed his glasses and leaned back in his chair. “You better watch your tone Ms. Anders. You're in enough trouble as it is.”

Devyn was not affected whatsoever by the warden's comment nor his beady little eyes that were staring daggers at her.

He read over the document in his hand. “It says you're in for theft and you were transferred from another penitentiary for continuous misconduct and violence with other prisoners. Is history repeating itself?”

“I don't see why it would. I think those bitches got the message,” Devyn replied with a crooked grin.

Cougar felt like smiling at the blonde's words but her lips refused to crack a smile in the warden's presence. Her eyes travelled down the blonde's back and that's when she noticed the prisoner's knuckles. A trickle of blood was oozing from Devyn's left hand.

“Cougar,” the warden boomed.

The brunette tore her eyes from the injury and stepped further into the office, looking at her superior.

“Take Ms . Anders to solitary confinement. Give her some time to cool off.”

With a nod, Cougar placed a hand on Devyn's handcuffed wrists and turned her around to walk out of the room.

They proceeded down a tiled corridor in silence. Devyn was being led in front with Cougar keeping a hold on her arm.

“You've got a mouth on you. You shouldn't talk to the warden that way.”

“What is he gonna do? Put me in prison? Oh, wait…I'm already in prison .”

Cougar shook her head at the blonde's smart-ass comment.

They soon arrived at two-double doors that read infirmary on the outside. Cougar pushed one of the doors open and guided the blonde to go ahead of her. The large white tiled room was pretty much empty, except for a few patients wandering in wheelchairs and T's gang. The three women were further back in the room in beds, obviously on sedatives.

Upon seeing the prison guard enter the infirmary, Maureen, one of the nurses headed their way. “Cougar, what seems to be the problem?”

“Hey, Maureen,” the brunette replied, un-cuffing Devyn's wrists. “Can you take a look at her hand?”


As soon as Maureen reached out, the blonde took a step back. “I'm fine,” Devyn snapped.

Cougar rolled her eyes at the blonde's stubbornness. “You're bleeding. Just let the nurse take a look. You need a bandage.”

Feeling the stinging sensation in her knuckles, Devyn knew the brunette was right. She reluctantly held out her left hand. It was definitely swollen and was bleeding slightly. Maureen looked at it more closely. “This looks pretty bad, but it's not broken. Come with me.”

Cougar watched from a distance as Maureen tended to the blonde's hand. Would she have done this for any other prisoner? The brunette would like to think so, but it probably was not true. Bloody knuckles was not a severe enough injury, but yet here she was, making sure Devyn's hand was bandaged.

Moments later, Maureen returned with her patient. “Good as new.”

“Thanks, Maureen.”

“Next time give me something more challenging. At least a busted nose,” the nurse joked.

Cougar smiled lightly. “I'll see what I can do.”

As the nurse walked away, the brunette gently handcuffed Devyn's wrists. This time in front so the blonde she would be a bit comfortable. Devyn was a bit confused by this entire thing. Why was this prison guard being so kind?

When they made it to the solitary holding cell, Cougar unlocked the door and ushered the blonde inside. They stood in the center of the small room. The guard stepped in front of the Devyn to unlock the handcuffs.

Devyn stared at the brunette as the cuffs were taken off her wrist. She studied the guard's chiseled features and instantly thought the taller woman was cuter than she remembered. When the brunette looked at her, it was the first time she finally got a good look at Cougar's eyes. A lopsided smile graced the blonde's lips.

“Blue eyes…” Devyn chimed in a teasing, yet flirty tone.

Cougar quickly stepped around the blonde, leaving the room. She heard a soft chuckle sound behind her as she closed the door with a heavy thud.


* * *

Later that evening, Cougar sat at her kitchen table leisurely smoking a cigarette. She opened the manila folder that was in front of her and began to shift through the papers. She had pulled Devyn's file from the prison's records earlier that morning. The mysterious blonde woman peaked curiosity.

She raised an amused eyebrow at the photo before her. Devyn looked at the camera with a menacing glare that said… I don't give a fuck .

Devyn Nicole Anders

Age: 28

Born: Los Angeles, CA

As Cougar read on, she learned that the feisty blonde started her career as a trouble maker at the ripe age of 15 for pick pocketing. There were five other offenses during her life and all of them involved theft or robbery. She was currently serving two years for a heist gone wrong. Before being transferred to Wensha, Devyn had already served six months of her two year sentence at her previous location.

Interesting . Cougar looked at Devyn's picture once more. A small smile touched her lips and she shook her head. “Where did you go wrong, kid?” she softly spoke.

Looking into those green eyes of the photograph, she was immediately taken back to her encounter with the prisoner. There was something about Devyn that she could not place her finger on. She quickly closed the file and took one last drag of her cigarette before sticking it in the ashtray. Cougar stood from the table and stretched her tired long body. She headed to the back of her two bedroom home and climbed into bed.

It had been three years since the prison guard had been in a steady relationship and she hated being alone. She was the monogamous type and walking in on her girlfriend with another woman broke her heart.

Ever since then, she made sure to keep her mind on her work. This meant taking double shifts and completely throwing away any chance of a social life. But lately she had been longing for a companion. Cougar pulled the blankets up to her chin and closed her eyes.



Chapter 2

Over the next few months, Cougar did not see much of the small blonde. Occasionally, she would spot her in the cafeteria, in the workout area lifting weights, or playing cards with a few of the other women in the courtyard.

Devyn was holding her own in the prison. From day one, after witnessing ‘the fight,' every woman in the facility knew not to fuck with her. However, she would often catch the tall prison guard with the striking blue eyes watching her every now and then.

From a distance, Cougar studied the small blonde. Devyn's hair was longer now; reaching just past her shoulders and was a darker shade of blonde. The brunette had noticed the dark roots emerging as the months went by. In the brunette's opinion, she liked the natural color better.

As Devyn began to deal cards to the small group of women sitting at her table, she felt those eyes on her again. When she glanced across the courtyard, sure enough, blue eyes were looking straight into hers. Devyn couldn't help but raise a playful brow, causing Cougar to quickly turn away. The blonde smiled to herself and continued her game.

Cougar scolded herself for being caught, again. She did not know why the small blonde interested her so. She was just another prisoner...another prisoner with beautiful green eyes and a body she often dreamt of at night.

The next evening, Cougar had the graveyard shift. It was about 2 am as she walked the line down the row of caged rooms, glancing into each one. Most of the women were sleeping and the usually loud cellblock in the daytime was eerily quiet. As she neared the cell where Devyn was being held, she heard hushed whispers and moans. When she finally looked inside the small cell her eyes widened. Devyn was sitting on the lower bunk with her back against the brick wall. Legs open, head back in ecstasy as her cellmate's worked their tongue inside of her.

Cougar licked her dry lips as she helplessly stared at the sight before her. She couldn't move, she couldn't breathe, she could only stare. Suddenly, green eyes locked on her and Cougar was startled. A mischievous gleam came across the blonde's eyes and she pushed the back of the other woman's head deeper between her legs. The brunette swallowed nervously as Devyn began to pump her hips and moan in pleasure.

The brunette could not tear her eyes away and her womanhood throbbed in sympathy. Devyn was looking right at her. Pleasure was building…and building in those green eyes.

The blonde suddenly shut her eyes tightly, threw her head back and let out a massive moan as her body began to shake uncontrollably. Cougar watched in fascination. It was hot, it was nasty, it was….beautiful. The tall guard shook her head and quickly shuffled away from the cell.

Coming back down to earth, Devyn opened her eyes once more and looked towards the cell bars. She was disappointed to see that Cougar was no longer there.

The woman between her legs lifted her head and closely leaned in towards her face. An overwhelming feeling of disgust washed over Devyn. “You liked that, baby?”

Devyn scowled and roughly placed a hand onto the woman's chest, pushing her back. “No. I didn't.” The blonde replied flatly. She drew her legs up on her bunk and began to slide on her rumpled orange pants.

Her cellmate stood to her feet, anger blazing in her eyes. “Well, fuck you, bitch.” The woman fumed, before climbing to the top bunk.

Devyn finished tying the string that held her pants up and laid back onto her pillow with a sigh. I just wanted to get off. I can't stop thinking about… Her eyes wandered over to where Cougar had been standing. Her. Since day one, the tall prison guard had interested Devyn. She did not know what it was, but she was definitely attracted.

She turned onto her side and looked at the small calendar hanging on the wall. Only fifteen months to go. The blonde curled herself up and tried to get some sleep.


* * *

The next afternoon, Cougar stood her post by the steel door that led outside to the courtyard. A single-file line of prisoners began to trudge past her for their so called, “recess” of the day.

The brunette kept watch of each woman as they passed her. Suddenly, her heart fluttered. A few prisoners back, the short blonde was heading her way. Cougar swallowed the nervous lump in her throat as she remembered the blonde's sexual position last night. She straightened her stance and was glad she had on her dark shades to conceal her wandering eyes.

When she noticed the sexy curl of a smile on the blonde lips, Cougar knew Devyn had spotted her.

“You enjoy the show last night, blue eyes?” Devyn purred as she walked by the tall guard.

Cougar was taken aback by the flirtatious comment and felt a blush begin to swell up her cheeks. Sure other prisoners have spoken worse things, but she had never had this sort of reaction. She watched the blonde confidently strut to the exercise equipment and pick a set of dumbbells that suited her.

Devyn's long hair was up in a ponytail today. The brunette had noticed months ago how cute the blonde's features were. Those cute ears, button nose, and how appealing she looked with her bare midriff showing. Just after a week in the prison, the blonde had tied her overly large orange shirt to exposure her perfectly toned abs. Cougar was so engrossed in watching the smaller woman, she did not even hear Turner calling to her.

“Cougar!” Turner yelled.

“Huh?” Cougar whipped around and saw Turner motioning for her to come over near the track and field.

The brunette shook her head slightly to clear her thoughts and walked towards the other prison guard. She stood next to the man, crossed her arms, and looked over the courtyard. “What's up?”

“I think I should be asking you that question,” Turner replied.

Cougar frowned at the tone in the older man's voice and turned towards him. “Meaning?”

Turner nodded his head towards the exercise area. “That.”

Blue eyes wandered over to where Turner was referring and her gaze landed directly on Devyn. The smaller woman's face was in concentration as she worked on her biceps.


“Cougar, I see how you look at her. Just be careful, okay.”

Before the brunette could reply, Turner was already walking away from her. Cougar tsked between her teeth. Nothing was going to happen between her and the blonde. That was ridiculous.


* * *

One late afternoon, Cougar was lounging in the prison break room with three other guards. The brunette took a drag of her cigarette and blew out a satisfied puff. Miguel, a Hispanic man in his late thirties, raised an eyebrow at her.

“I thought you were quitting.”

“I am quitting…just not today.”

Cougar considered Miguel a good friend. They went through training together and hit it off right away.

“I know you, Cougar. You only smoke if something is eating at you.”

“There's nothing eating at me.”

“Sure there isn't…” Miguel leaned back in his seat. “Who is she?”

The brunette furrowed her brows. “Miguel…there's no one.”

Cougar report to the kitchens.” A voice announced over her walkie talkie.

“The kitchens?” the brunette questioned in curiosity. She brought the device to her lips. “This is Cougar. I'll be right there.”

The brunette stood from her seat and Miguel looked at her with a hint of a smile. “I'll find out eventually, Angela.”

“I hate when you call me that. And there's nothing to find out,” the brunette replied, before stubbing her cigarette in the ashtray on the table. “I don't know about you, but I have work to do.”

“Yeah, yeah.” Miguel sighed, waving her off.

As Cougar made her way down the corridor to the double doors of the kitchen, she saw Bertha standing there waiting for her.

“What's going on?”

“One of these crazy gals started a food fight in the cafeteria. Food was every fucking where. The warden put her on pots and pans duty. She's in there now.”

“And I'm here because?”

“You've been assigned to keep an eye on her in case the little bitch tries to pull something.”

Cougar gave a tight lipped smile and peeked through the small window in the kitchen door. To her utter shock, she spotted Devyn, sitting on the kitchen counter. She was leaning back on her hands, leisurely kicking her feet against the counter under her heels.

The brunette's heart rate sped up and she cleared her throat, looking away from the door. “Um, I… I don't want to waste my time with this. Isn't there anywhere else I can be assigned?”

“Why? Is there a problem, Cougar? You can't handle a little blonde?”

Cougar frowned, slightly pissed by the remark. Bertha always loved to get a rise out of her. Refusing to let the comment bother her, the brunette held her head high. “Fine, I'll watch her.” Without another word she pushed through the swinging double doors.

Devyn raised her and Cougar was instantly pinned by those beautiful green eyes. As soon as the brunette made eye contact, all of her confidence shattered to pieces. A smile instantly spread over the blonde's face.

“Blue eyes…” Devyn spoke, allowing the words to roll off her tongue. “Were you sent to keep an eye on me?”

Cougar swallowed and folded her hands behind her back. She took a strong stance and refused to allow her eyes to make contact with the blonde's.

“You're ignoring me now?” The blonde gave an amused chuckle and hopped off the counter. Cougar noticed the ripple of muscles in Devyn's abs as she made the fluid motion. She tore her eyes away quickly and felt the heat rising in her cheeks.

Devyn leaned a hip against the counter and smiled at the brunette. “That's good. I like the quiet ones. You may put off that you're all big and tough, but I can tell you're a softy.”

Cougar stood still, not responding to the woman's comment. When the blonde turned away from her she finally had a chance to release the breath she had been holding.

Devyn reached her hands into the warm dishwater and grasped a large black pot. Despite the fact that she was enjoying the presence of the tall and dark prison guard, she was pissed off. She did not even start the fight. It began when one of T's gang members tripped her in the lunchroom. The last thing she remembered was diving across the table and tackling her culprit to the ground. The rest of her actions were lost in a rage of fury. When she was finally being pulled off her bloody opponent, food was all over the cafeteria. Her fellow inmates had decided to throw their food around the lunchroom to add to the chaos. Now, here she was, scrubbing a filthy pot with the hot ass guard keeping her watch.

Cougar used all her will power not to check out the woman just twenty feet away from her, but she was quickly losing the battle. Her eyes raked over the blonde's behind, then up the small of her back, then to her beautiful strands of blonde hair which was down today.

“Ow! Fuck!”

The spell was broken when Cougar heard Devyn's voice shatter the silence. She rushed over to the blonde's side. “What happened?”

Devyn was tightly covering her one of her hands. “I cut myself,” The blonde explained, turning to the brunette.

Cougar took Devyn's hands in hers, examining the woman's hand closely. No blood. Just wet fingers.

“I don't see anything…you're not hurt,” the prison guard said in realization. Cougar slowly raised her eyes to meet mischievous sea green ones.

Devyn smiled softly and her eyes lingered over the brunette's face. “Do you wanna hurt me?”

If you want me to. Cougar shook away her thoughts and took a step back. The blonde was only playing with her. It was a ploy to bring her closer.

“You're so jumpy around me, blue eyes.” Devyn took a step closer. “If I didn't know any better. I'd say you had a crush on me.”

Cougar backed up further and her butt connected against the counter behind her. She couldn't stop herself from blushing and she knew Devyn could tell.

The blonde was close now. So close Cougar could feel her body heat. Devyn slowly placed a hand on either side of Cougar's body and leaned in close. “You're very cute,” the blonde husked.

Cougar could hear heart beating in her ears and her breathing became ragged. She swallowed nervously and looked into the green eyes boring into her soul.

“I saw you watching me the other night…when I came…” the blonde whispered.

The brunette felt as though she would pass out when she felt a hint of Devyn's breath brush against her lips.

“I wanted it to be you….your fingers… your tongue…deep inside me…” Devyn pushed her body into Cougar's causing the taller woman to shiver.

The brunette searched Devyn's eyes and all she saw was pure lust. Why was she letting this woman get so close? Why wasn't she pushing her away? Cougar didn't have an answer for any of these questions. All she knew was, this woman felt good. That perfect body she had been drooling over for months was now rubbing against her.

“That's what you want...I can tell…” Devyn breathed, inches from Cougar's lips. “You want me…”

Cougar roughly pulled the younger woman to her and their lips met in a lustful kiss. Both women hummed in pleasure at the contact. They wrapped their arms around each other and pulled each other close. Both women maneuvered their heads left and right, deepening the kiss further. Cougar felt the blonde's tongue begging for entrance and she opened her mouth in acceptance. She moaned as her tongue wrestled seductively with Devyn's. Her hands moved down and cupped the blonde's ass, causing the smaller woman to growl with excitement.

Cougar's body was literally on fire. She wanted to devour this woman. She wanted to fuck her. Kissing the blonde with undying fervor, Cougar quickly maneuvered their bodies around and lifted Devyn onto the counter.

Devyn pulled the prison guard closer and wrapped her legs around the brunette's body. She broke the heated kiss and began to trail anxious kisses down Cougar's neck. The prison guard gasped as the blonde sucked on her pulse point and shoved a hand down the front of her pants.


Both women quickly pulled apart as a voice boomed over the brunette's walkie talkie. Cougar's hands fumbled to grasp the radio because they were shaking so badly. “This is Cougar, go ahead.”

She looked at Devyn who was breathing just as heavily as her. Green eyes connected with hers and a smile spread across the blonde's face. She was so hypnotized by the blonde's heated stare, she missed the message she was given over the walkie talkie.

“Um, I'm sorry. Could you repeat that?” Cougar asked into the radio.

Devyn chuckled lightly at the guard's behavior.

I said…take the prisoner to solitary confinement when she's done in the kitchen.

“Ten-four.” Cougar latched her radio back to her belt and looked at Devyn. “Um…”

Yet again, she was at a loss for words when the blonde smiled at her. “Oh, God...” the brunette groaned, pinching the bridge of her nose. Does she have any idea what she's doing to me? By the look on her face…I think she does.

“Should I get back to work?” Devyn grinned.

Cougar cleared her throat. “Yes, I think that would…yeah…” the brunette sputtered.

Devyn chuckled and turned back to the sink.

“I'm just going to wait by the door until you're finished.” That would be safer.

An hour or so later, Cougar was unlocking the door to one of the solitary cells. She guided the handcuffed blonde into the room. Standing behind the prisoner, she unlocked the cuffs, freeing Devyn's hands. Before the blonde could turn around, Cougar was already outside the room, closing the door. She knew if she caught one glimpse of those green eyes she would be lost. So, she did what was logical…run.


* * *

Hours later, in the late evening, Cougar stood in one of the high towers keeping watch over the expansion of the prison. It was a cool night and Cougar often enjoyed the solitude of this high space, but not tonight. As hard as she tried to concentrate, only one thing was on her mind and it had blonde hair. She could still feel Devyn's lips against hers. Those soft pink lips. That firm body.

In less than ten minutes…as if in a hazy dreamscape, Cougar found herself leaving her post and winding up in solitary. The brunette stood in front of the room where the small blonde was being held. She heard the bolts of the locks clanking open and she felt herself stepping into the room and closing the door behind her. Cougar let out a breath and slowly turned around meeting curious green eyes. Devyn was leaning her back against the gray wall. One leg bent up to her chest and the other dangling off the bed.

The brunette stared at the prisoner and stood frozen in place. “I don't know what I'm doing here,” Cougar spoke helplessly.

Keeping her eyes locked with vulnerable blue, Devyn slowly stood from the bed. Cougar's palms were sweating as the blonde stared her down. The smaller woman slowly crossed the room and stood toe to toe with the brunette.

“I think I know,” Devyn whispered softly. She reached towards the prison guard's waist and began to unbuckle her black work belt. Cougar did nothing to stop her. She only watched as the blonde stripped away her belt and tossed it to the ground with a thud.

Green eyes lifted and met her gaze. The brunette could not get over how beautiful this woman was. Devyn gently grasped Cougar's hand and the brunette's heart leapt as she was led to the small bed. When they finally reach it, Devyn pushed her to sit down and Cougar did so. The blonde now stood before her.

Keeping her gaze on beautiful blue eyes, Devyn reached for the hem of her top and quickly yanked it off her body. Cougar grunted as the blonde suddenly hopped onto her lap, straddling her hips. Before she could react, her lips were covered by Devyn's in a deep kiss. They both groaned at the contact of their bodies touching.

The guard's hands stroked up and down the plains of the blonde's back as she pulled her closer. Devyn dug her hands in Cougar's dark hair and buried her tongue further into the brunette's mouth. She groaned and pushed forward, making Cougar fall back onto the bed.

The guard moaned in pleasure as the blonde's firm body rubbed against her seductively. It was better than she had imagined. Devyn's hips ground against her pelvis rhythmically and she grabbed the blonde's ass, guiding the smaller woman harder against her.

A pleasurable moan escaped the blonde's lips making Cougar smile. Devyn broke the heated kiss and quickly latched her mouth on Cougar's neck. The brunette closed her eyes as Devyn's hot mouth sucked on her pulsing spot. Her hands buried into the blonde's hair, massaging Devyn's scalp.

Devyn suddenly sat up and began to unbutton Cougar's shirt. “I know what you want,” the blonde husked.

The brunette's chest heaved up and down as she looked into the blonde's eyes. Those green eyes were animalistic…dangerous…and Cougar loved it. The blonde pushed open the guard's shirt and immediately began to kiss and suck the brunette's breasts. Cougar gasped as Devyn roughly pushed her bra upward, exposing her rock hard nipples.

“Oh, fuck…” Cougar moaned as a moist mouth encircled her nipple.

Devyn mumbled her enjoyment and gave both breasts equal attention. She moved her kisses down the brunette's abdomen. Cougar involuntarily shivered as the blonde began to unbuckle her pants. Devyn came back up her body and kissed her passionately. The brunette felt Devyn work her hand between their bodies and down the front of her pants.

“Ah!” Cougar grunted as the blonde cupped her crotch.

“You like that baby?” Devyn breathed. She positioned Cougar's muscular thigh between her legs.


The brunette's breath quickened as Devyn stroked her clit faster and harder. Devyn grinded herself into the brunette's thigh and she buried her face against Cougar's neck. The prison guard lifted her hips, wanting Devyn's fingers inside her. The blonde got the hint and slipped two fingers into Cougar's need. The prison guard jerked forward, moaning loudly.

In unison they worked their hips faster and faster until they both got what they wanted. Their bodies shivering against each other as they came.

Devyn slowly pulled out of Cougar and rolled off the prison guard, lying beside her. Their heavy breathing filled the room. After a moment, the brunette finally found the strength to move.

“I uh… I better get going,” she breathed, sitting up.

Devyn put her hands behind her head and looked at the guard with a smirk. “Well, I certainly can't go anywhere blue eyes.”

Cougar looked down at the blonde and gave an amused smile. “I guess not.”

They looked each other for a moment but Devyn broke the gaze, chuckling lightly. “Are you still on duty?”

The brunette eased off the small bed and stood up. “Yeah, for another hour.” She began to buckle up her pants. “I have to get back to my post.”

Devyn watched the prison guard as she crossed the room and picked up her utility belt. “It's been fun.”

Cougar turned to her and smiled. “Yeah…it was.”

They both grinned. Cougar ducked her head and then looked into the blonde's eyes once more. “Thanks for ah…”

“Anytime….blue eyes.”

“You can call me Cougar.”

The blonde only smirked in response. Cougar took that as her cue to leave and slipped out of the solitary cell. After locking it behind her, she looked down the corridor left and right, but did not see anyone. The guard let out a heavy breath and began to briskly walk down the hall. Did that really just happen? Cougar couldn't stop the smile that spread across her face as she headed back to her post. Yes, it did. That was just what she needed.

That can't happen again.


Chapter 3

“Ahhh! Oh, yes…”

Devyn's head violently jerked backward as she came harder than ever before. Standing up against the wall, she had one leg hooked over Cougar's shoulder as the brunette had her head buried between her legs. The blonde shivered as Cougar's tongue continued to plunge in and out of her slowly.

“Stop…stop…” she panted.

Blue eyes opened and looked up at her. Cougar grinned as she backed away and slowly lowered the blonde's leg to the ground. She wiped off her mouth with her forearm and stood to her feet. Both women smiled lazily, bringing their foreheads together. Devyn leaned in and captured Cougar's lips in a deep, lustful kiss.

The brunette had sworn to herself that this would never happen again, but she couldn't resist. Next thing she knew she was pulling the blonde into the storage room making out. This was now their fifth or sixth time being together over the past two weeks.

They broke the kiss, remaining face to face. “Mmm…you sure do live up to your name,” Devyn grinned.

Cougar ran her hands up and down the sides of the blonde's waist. “My name?”

“Cougar…” she breathed heavily. “You really are an animal.” Devyn nipped at the brunette's bottom lip.

The brunette chuckled lightly. “I think you bring it out of me.”

Devyn raised an eyebrow. “I like it.”

Cougar studied the blonde for a moment. “I like you .” The brunette whispered, before she could stop herself.

A look of surprise passed over Devyn's features and she slipped from the guard's embrace. Cougar immediately regretted what just came from her mouth. “I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that.”

The blonde began to slip on her panties. “No, it's nothing.”

“You're obviously uncomfortable. Is it a bad thing that I like you?”

Pants pulled up, Devyn began to tie the string around her pants. She looked at Cougar. “It could be.” The blonde nodded towards the door. “Is it clear for me to sneak out?”

Cougar shook out of her stupor and walked over to the closed door. Opening it slowly, she poked her head out and saw that the coast was clear. She turned back to the blonde. “You're clear. Just head straight out to the courtyard.”

Devyn walked over and stood in front of the tall brunette. “Until next time…”

The brunette smiled slightly, trying to be cheerful. “Sure.”

The smaller woman studied Cougar for a moment. She could tell by the guard's expression that she had created a pretty awkward situation. She stepped forward and lifted Cougar's chin.

They stared into each other's eyes. Cougar saw a softness in those green eyes she had never seen before and she was instantly lost. She accepted the incredibly tender kiss that Devyn had ever given her. It was slow, gentle, and… caring ? Cougar instantly closed her eyes and reciprocated the kiss. She was about to pull the blonde closer but Devyn slowly broke the kiss and stepped back. Cougar slowly opened her eyes and was greeted by a pair of smiling green. She couldn't help but smile back and then the blonde was gone.

Cougar blew out a breath. “I may be in trouble here,” the flustered brunette whispered to herself.

This was fun and all, but Cougar was beginning to realize she was becoming too attached to this woman.


* * *

Cougar and Devyn carried on with their secret “sex” affair for another two months. The brunette was addicted to Devyn. No matter how hard she tried to resist, the blonde would always provoke her in some way or another. Whether it be a wink, a smile, or a look of lust, Cougar did not stand a chance.

The only danger of this situation was not the possibility of being caught, but more about the uncontrollable feelings that was developing between them. Devyn ran so hot and cold, Cougar did not know what to feel or expect from the blonde.

One afternoon, the brunette was heading towards Devyn's cell, to pay her a little visit during her lunch break. When she arrived however, something was different. The room was empty. No Devyn.

Cougar's mind immediately began to wander and stab of fear came over her. Was she transferred? The thought actually hurt to think about. The brunette began to search the premises. She checked the recreation room, the library, the showers, the courtyard, but no luck. She wasn't about to ask any of her co-workers where a specific prisoner was located. It would look too suspicious.

The brunette had one more place to check and if Devyn was not there, then she knew the blonde must have been transferred. Cougar took a deep breath before opening the door to the infirmary.

The prison guard walked down the row of beds filled with sick or injured inmates. It smelled like a hospital and Cougar hated hospitals. It's an eerie smell…medicine and rubber gloves. The brunette neared the end of the row and her eyes widened as she finally found Devyn.

The blonde was lying in a bed with her eyes closed. Cougar cringed inside as she saw Devyn's injures. Her left eye was swollen and puffy, her upper right lip was cut and her right hand was casted.

The prison guard flinched internally. “Oh, Devyn…” She stepped closer to the bed.


The brunette turned around to see Maureen standing not too far from her. “What brings you down here?”

“Um, well. I heard our little troublemaker received quite the beating. I just wanted to see it for myself,” the brunette quickly covered.

Maureen glanced at the unconscious blonde. “Yeah, T and her gang finally got her this time.”

Anger boiled in the pit of Cougar's stomach. “T's gang did this?”

Maureen nodded. Cougar felt like charging towards T's cell and beating the shit out of her. Damn her career, damn what everybody would think…but she knew she couldn't do that. Devyn was hurt and it was killing her inside. The brunette took a breath and shook off her rage. “When will she wake up?”

“I'd say a few hours.”

The brunette nodded and Maureen walked away. Cougar looked at the blonde once more. Devyn seemed so helpless, lying in bed, beaten and broken. She wanted so badly to stay by her side and be there when she woke up, but realistically she could not do that.

“I'll see you soon,” the guard whispered. She turned and headed out of the infirmary.


* * *

As Cougar looked over the large cafeteria full of rowdy inmates, she began to think of the last time she had seen the blonde unharmed. Those green eyes were sparkling. That smile was angelic and she was in high spirits. Now, she was lying in a bed unconscious.

The brunette snapped out of her thoughts as Turner came and stood next to her.

“You seem a bit distracted,” the man said.

“I'm fine,” the brunette replied shortly.

“I hear Anders got her ass handed to her last night.”

Cougar's jaw muscles tightened. “Yep.”

“I also heard you were down in the infirmary this morning.”

The brunette finally turned to the older guard and gave him a cold look. “What if I was? It's not your business.”

“Should it be? What do you care about another prisoner being beaten down? It happens all the time.”

The problem was she did care. She cared too much. The brunette turned away from her co-worker. “Just drop it,” Cougar spoke defensively.

“Oh, shit, I knew it. You do have a soft spot for her."

The brunette said nothing.

“Geez, Cougar. Lord knows I've had my fair share of tail around here, but for Christ's sake…don't make it personal.”

He walked away from the ill-tempered guard, allowing her to stew in her own thoughts.


* * *

When Cougar's shift was over, she headed down to the infirmary. As she approached Devyn's bed, the blonde raised her head and their eyes met. The prisoner looked surprised to see the tall brunette standing there. Cougar came next to the bed and smiled softly.


“Hey,” Devyn replied, her voice weaker than usual.

“How are you feeling?”

The blonde shifted her body slightly and winced. “Like I got my ass kicked.” She cleared her throat and looked into sincere blue eyes. “Oh, don't give me that pity look.”

“Sorry,” the brunette replied ducking her head.

Devyn sighed. “Look. I've put members of T's gang down here over three times. This was bound to happen to me sooner or later.”

Cougar looked into the blonde's eyes once more. She noticed some of the swelling had gone down around her eye. “How did it happen? You usually kick their asses.”

“Recruits. There were more of them this time.”

Cougar frowned and shook her head. “I wish I had been here to stop them.”

“Aw, you really do care about me.” The blonde teased.

Cougar smirked. She fought back the urge to gently brush back the blonde's hair. “Did the doctor tell you about your injuries?”

“Broken cheekbone, two fractured ribs, a broken thumb, and a split lip.”

The brunette's eyes rose, not realizing the extent of Devyn's injuries. “Are you in any pain?”

“Not really. This prison has top of the line drugs.”

The brunette chuckled lightly then there was silence. Their eyes met.

“I don't look too hot, huh?” the blonde spoke softly.

“You're beautiful.”

Devyn felt her insides turn to mush at the endearment, but she tried to ignore it. “You're a good liar. Can you hand me a mirror?”

“Uh, sure.” The brunette looked around and found a small handheld mirror on a tray. She picked it up and handed it to the blonde.

Devyn laid the mirror on her chest face down and blew out a breath. “Okay, let's see the damage.” She slowly lifted the mirror and looked at herself.

Cougar could have sworn she heard a gasp escape the blonde's lips. The prisoner remained silent as she stared at the mirror. Her expression unreadable.

“Devyn?” Cougar questioned.

After a moment, the blonde finally spoke. “How can you say I look beautiful?” Devyn spoke without looking up.

The brunette furrowed her brows. “Because you are--”

“Stop…just stop.”

Cougar felt like swallowing her tongue. It seemed like she could never say the right thing around this woman.

“You shouldn't be down here. It looks bad.”

“I don't care.”

Devyn shook her head and lowered the mirror. “Can you please just leave?”


“You heard me, Cougar.”

Cold green eyes lifted and met the brunette's gaze. The prison guard's heart stung upon hearing Devyn say her name in a scornful manner. “I don't want to see you.”

Cougar felt like she had been slapped in the face. “What did I do?”

“Please, just don't come back here.”

The brunette studied Devyn for a moment. The small woman would not even look at her. Again…there was that hot and cold demeanor. Feeling the strong vibes that her presence was no longer wanted, Cougar slowly backed away from the bed.

“If that's what you want.”

The prison guard turned around, walked down the aisle, and exited the infirmary. Devyn leaned her head back on her pillow and closed her eyes. Silent tears streamed down her face. When she looked at herself in the mirror, she was horrified. She was anything but beautiful. Devyn knew Cougar was only trying to be sweet, but the blonde's automatic defense mode kicked in and she just lashed out. As she usually did. Devyn was not used to this unconditional warmth. She was not used to anyone caring about her…ever. All her life she has never known a person worthy of her trust…until perhaps now.



Chapter 4

“I'll have another.”

“Coming right up, ma'am,” the bartender in the colorful shirt responded with a smile.

Cougar found it extremely hard to stay away from the infirmary, so she decided it was time for a much needed vacation. The brunette had been in Cancun , Mexico for the past week, trying to drown her sorrows in alcohol and much needed fun. All of these distractions seemed to help during the day, but by night she found herself thinking of Devyn. The woman who told her to leave.

The prison guard now sat at an outside bar, dressed in a tank top, dark blue beach shorts, and sandals, downing another drink. It was a nice night. The breeze from the salty water wafted through the air and caressed her dark strands of hair. Couples in casual wear walked by hand in hand and tropical music could be heard in the distance.

The bartender, a young man with tanned skin and defined muscles, placed another drink in front of the brunette.

“I didn't order another one.”

“Compliments from the lady at the end of the bar,” he smiled before walking away.

Curious, Cougar turned and looked at the end of the bar. There was indeed a woman there. A soft smile played across the red head's ruby lips when the prison guard looked her way. Eye shadow and dark eyeliner seemed to enhance the sexy gleam of her light gray eyes.

Cougar nodded politely and lifted her drink in gratitude. As she brought the glass to her lips the mysterious woman made her way over to her. A waft of exotic perfume hit Cougar's senses as the redhead took the stool next to her.

“Hi. I'm April,” the sultry voice stated.

The brunette glanced at her new companion and glumly smiled before looking back down.

“This is usually the part when you say your name,” the woman continued.

Cougar picked up a toothpick and began to poke the olive in her drink, not really taking any interest in the woman next to her. The redhead began to feel uncomfortable.

“And I've just made a complete fool out of myself. I'm sorry for bothering you.” The woman began to leave.

“Wait,” the brunette said, finally looking into the woman's eyes. “I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be rude.”

The woman ducked her eyes and sat back down in her seat. She looked into the brunette's friendly blue eyes.

“My name is Cougar.” The brunette held out her hand.

April smiled and gently shook the guard's hand. “Cougar…” she repeated. “Nice to meet you.”

“Thanks, for the drink.”

“My pleasure. April studied the brunette for a moment. “So, what's your story, Cougar?”

The brunette shrugged her shoulders. “Don't really have one.”

The redhead nodded. “You just look like you need some cheering up.”

Cougar looked down at her empty glass and chuckled lightly, barely cracking a smile. “Do I look that depressed?”

“Yes. But you're also very beautiful.”

The brunette turned to the woman and blushed as she caught the sexy smile April was sporting her. Cougar smiled in return. The drinks were finally taking affect and she felt a bit loose.

“What's your story, April?”

“I asked you first…”

Cougar stared into the depths of those gray eyes and knew this woman wanted more than a life story. The brunette's eyes travelled down April's form. She was wearing a revealing bikini and silk see-through flowered wrap around her waist.

April's body was on fire as those blue eyes slowly wondered her body and finally met her eyes again.

The brunette licked her bottom lip and smiled. “Do you want to go for a walk with me?”

The redhead smiled warmly. “I'd like that.”

The two were slowly walking side by side down the pretty much deserted beach. It was only the ocean, cool sand and them. They barely spoke three sentences between each other before April made her first move. Within minutes they were on the beach making out.

April was straddling Cougar's lap, holding mounds of black hair in her fists. They kissed passionately and with a hunger that burned from the pit of their stomachs.

Cougar broke the wild kiss. “Wait…wait,” the brunette panted against the redhead's lips.


“I'm…sort of involved with…it's complicated.”

April brushed back Cougar's hair from her face. “Me too. No one has to know about this. It's just you and me.”

Cougar closed her eyes as the redhead gingerly brushed her lips against hers. April reached behind her back and pulled the string of her bikini top. The cups slipped from her torso and the brunette eyed the milky globes of flesh before her.

“Please. I really want you…just for tonight.”

The brunette looked into April's eyes and saw a sorrow that mirrored her own feelings. It was loneliness. Cougar cupped the redhead's cheek and slowly leaned in, tenderly kissing April's lips. As they lost themselves in their slow exploration, both women thought of the person they wished they were really with. This wasn't about sex or lust. It was about the comfort of another human being.

After four more days of Mexico sun, Cougar finally returned home. She plopped her exhausted body on her bed. Jet lag always got the best of her. Now, that she was back, her troubling thoughts returned. Will Devyn want to see her?


* * *

“Nice to see you back, chica,” Miguel smiled, as Cougar stepped into the break room.

“Good to be back. Have you been holding down the fort?”

“Yes, ma'am.”

“Really. I'm surprised there haven't been any escapees.”

Miguel blew out a chuckle between his lips. “Please, you know I got this.”

“Sure you do,” the brunette replied, grabbing a chair.

“How was your vacation?”

Cougar gave a nod. “It was…good.”

Miguel raised a brow. “Good, huh?”


He looked his friend up and down. “Or she was good. Am I right?” Miguel teased.

“Miguel…” the brunette sighed.

“What? I've known you long enough to know when you've been laid.”

Cougar shook her head with a smile.

“I knew it. Give me the details, Se ñ ora.”

“I'd rather not.”

“Come on, Cougar. I'm married with two niños. You are my only connection to the memories of the single life.” Miguel looked at the ceiling, pretending to daydream. “Ah, the single life.”

The brunette smacked him on the shoulder. “Being single isn't always fun. You're lucky, Miguel. You married the love of your life.”

Later that afternoon, Cougar stood outside watching over the large courtyard filled with women. It did not take her long to find Devyn among the crowd. The small blonde was sitting on top of a table surface chatting with a couple of inmates. Cougar could see that most of Devyn's injuries had healed. In fact, she looked better than ever. Her hair was cut short, just as it was when she first saw her. The blonde was definitely a sight for sore eyes. All the guard could think about while she was away was to seeing Devyn again.

As the blonde listened to her fellow inmate speak, she felt that overwhelming stare from across the courtyard. Unable to resist, she looked up and sure enough, Cougar was looking her way. This did not surprise her.

Cougar's chest puffed up as she caught the blonde's gaze, but Devyn's expression remained neutral. The blonde shifted her eyes away and continued to speak with the other inmate. The brunette instantly deflated. Devyn seemed to look right through her, as if she were a ghost. She shook it off, thinking the blonde just didn't see her. She hoped that was the case.

That was not the case. Over the next couple of weeks, it seemed as though Devyn was doing everything she could to avoid looking or even acknowledging Cougar. This was bothering the hell out of the brunette and she had just about enough.

Finally, during one of her late shifts, she mustered up the courage to confront Devyn. She was tired of this push and pull relationship. Was it even a relationship? Cougar had to know. She unlocked the heavy door to the blonde's room and stepped inside. Devyn looked up and her eyes widened when she saw who was there.

Cougar closed the heavy door behind her and looked into surprised green eyes. “We need to talk.”

Devyn's heart leapt upon seeing the brunette. She was actually happy to see her but she did not want to give Cougar that satisfaction. She rolled her eyes. “What for?” the blonde replied, in an annoyed tone.

“Devyn, what's going on here? You won't even look at me.”

“Oh, is that hurting your feelings?” the blonde teased.

Cougar tsked between her teeth and shifted her weight. She took a moment to regroup and shook off the snobby comment uttered from the blonde. “I just wanted to see you. I'm glad you're better,” the brunette sincerely spoke. “You look good.”

Devyn was touched by the comment and bit her lip softly. She looked anywhere but at Cougar. “Is that all?”

The prison guard cleared her throat lightly. “No, I also wanted to tell you—“

“How was your vacation?” The blonde cut her off.

Cougar was taken aback by the sudden question. “It…it was fine.”

“Fine? Meet anyone interesting?” Devyn asked, picking at the sheets of her bed.

The brunette paused before answering. “No.”

The blonde raised her head and looked at Cougar. Her eyes were cold.

As odd as it may seem, Devyn was actually making her feel guilty over what happened in Mexico . But hell, why should she feel guilty over what she did? Devyn is the one who keeps pushing her away. “No one special.”

Devyn chuckled sarcastically. “No one special…did you fuck her?”

Cougar took in a settle breath and slowly released it. “Yes, I did.” The brunette did not know what compelled her to tell the truth but she did. Maybe she wanted to hurt Devyn like she had been hurting her.

The blonde's face suddenly fell and she looked at Cougar in disbelief. “How could y…” Devyn stopped herself. “Never mind…”

Cougar studied the blonde with curiosity. “No, go on. How could I what? Sleep with someone else? We're not together, Devyn. You made that pretty clear before I left.”

The blonde quickly stood from the bed and stepped towards the guard. “I told you to go away. Not go out and fuck anything that moves.”

Cougar folded her arms. “Does that hurt your feelings?” Cougar shot back. “You actually sound jealous.”

The blonde scowled at the statement. “You're the one who started this shit. You came to me, remember?! I didn't have much choice!”

“Bullshit. You could have said no. You're not exactly defenseless, Devyn.”

“God, you're an asshole!” the blonde raised her hands and began to pace the room. She was surprised at herself for actually being jealous of Cougar's escapade. This feeling was new and confusing to her. After a moment she stopped and looked at the brunette. “Why are you even here?” she sighed.

“I'm leaving.”

The blonde frowned. “What do you mean?”

“I gave the warden my resignation papers this morning. This is too hard…you and me. I can't work with you around.” Cougar took a step forward. “I feel something for you, Devyn… but you obviously don't feel that way about me…and I can't do this anymore.” The brunette ducked her eyes.

Devyn was stunned by Cougar's words and was not sure what to say in return. “So, you're running away from me.”

“I'm not running away. I'm making a decision that I feel is right.”

“Right for who? You?”

“Me…both of us. I feel like I'm suffocating. I'm tired of having you and not… having all of you.”

Devyn chuckled sarcastically and slowly turned her back to the brunette. “Then you should go.”

Cougar looked at the blonde and sighed. “Devyn--”

“Go!” the blonde yelled.

That was the last straw. Cougar charged up behind the blonde and forcefully turned her around. “You're not going to tell me to go this time!”

The blonde pushed the guard's hands away. “What do you want from me?! A farewell fuck?” Devyn began to undo her pants. “Well let's go.”


The blonde continued to undress and started to pull off her top.

“Devyn! Stop!” the brunette cried, halting the smaller woman's actions.

The blonde kept still and slowly met Cougar's eyes. The brunette's expression softened as a tear trickled down the blonde's cheek.

“Devyn?”Cougar loosened her grip on the blonde's arms.

They looked into each other's eyes for a moment. Devyn's look was raw, intense, and for once, vulnerable. Cougar smiled sadly. “What is it?” the brunette asked softly.

Devyn continued to look deeply into Cougar's eyes and felt herself becoming lost. Without a word, the blonde reached up and slowly removed the guard's hat from her head. Cougar slightly raised her eyebrows and looked upward. The blonde let the cap linger on her fingertips before dropping it to the floor.

Cougar searched Devyn's sad green eyes, wondering what the blonde was thinking. Devyn reached for the front of Cougar's collar and began to undo the brunette's shirt.

Cougar swallowed nervously. “What are you doing…?”

Devyn remained silent as she continued to unbutton the guard's shirt all the way to the end. She reached inside the opening of the shirt and pushed it off of Cougar's shoulders. Her hands trailed down the brunette's arms as the clothing was removed. Cougar shivered at the touch and allowed the blonde to proceed. The upper part of her body was covered by only her white undershirt. Devyn then unbuckled the guard's belt and gun holster, dropping it to the floor. The blonde looked into Cougar's eyes and grasped the front of the brunette shirt, leading her to the bed.

The blonde sat down and Cougar allowed herself to be guided on top of the blonde. Their lips were inches apart.

“Just touch me…” the blonde finally whispered.

Cougar stared into the blonde's green eyes and saw a look she had never seen before. Very tenderly, she brushed her lips against Devyn's. The smaller woman gasped. Cougar leaned in once more and led the dance of a seductive lingering kiss.

Devyn moaned as the brunette's tongue entered her mouth and caressed against hers. She wrapped her legs around Cougar's waist as she felt the guard's strong body push into her. The blonde's hands slid under Cougar's shirt and stroked the hot skin she discovered.

Cougar trailed her kisses across Devyn's cheek and then put the lobe of a sensitive ear between her lips. The blonde shivered as Cougar sucked and teased her ear. The brunette's hand found its way under the front of the blonde's shirt and began to knead her left breast. Devyn closed her eyes in ecstasy. The brunette lifted her mouth slightly and whispered in the blonde's ear.

“Devyn…I need to taste you…”

The blonde shivered once again as Cougar's breath blew lightly in ear. She could not understand why she was shivering so much. It was not like they had never touched before. Trying to ignore these feelings, she began to slide off her pants and Cougar helped her.

When Devyn's panties were removed, Cougar leaned down and kissed the blonde tenderly on the lips before moving down between Devyn's legs. The brunette noticed the prisoner's body seemed to be trembling at her every touch. This was new. Slowly she took the blonde in her mouth and began to drink her sweet nectar.

Devyn's hands clutched the sheets as the brunette's tongue plunged inside her. She felt strong hands grip the sides of her thighs pulling her closer. She moaned multiple times as Cougar knew exactly where to touch her inside. The blonde's heart was racing and sweat began to bead on her forehead. Just as she felt herself about to release, Cougar's talented mouth was gone.

“Wha…” the blonde began to protest.

“Shhh…” Cougar came back up the blonde's body. “I know… Just wait…”

The brunette climbed off Devyn and quickly removed her pants and practically soaked underwear. Within seconds, she was back on her awaiting lover and kissed the blonde senseless. She gently spread Devyn's legs and pushed her lower body into the blonde.

Both women groaned as their wet sexes made contact. Their hips began at a slow pace but soon the hunger for going over the edge was too great. Cougar placed her hands on either side of Devyn's head and sensually rotated her hips deeper into the blonde. Their eyes connected. Desire burned in the depths of their souls.

“Ahhhhhhhhhh!” Devyn and Cougar released guttural moans as the blindness of overpowering passion took over their bodies. Both women trembled in each other's arms, breathing heavily.

Devyn's heart was beating a million miles per hour and she could feel that Cougar's was doing the same. She had never felt this kind of intimate closeness before.

Finding the strength, the brunette raised her head. She placed a tender kiss on the blonde's lips and hovered over her. Cougar looked into beautiful green eyes and smiled lightly. She softly brushed the smaller woman's bangs from her face and let strands of blonde hair slip between her finger tips.

Devyn was breathing heavily as she stared back at the brunette. That look from Cougar was endearing, sweet, and unnerving. It was like she was staring right into her soul. She was falling into those blue depths and it was scaring her.

“Why are you looking at me like that?” the blonde asked, voice shaky.

Cougar lightly licked her lips and smiled softly. “Like what?”

They continued to search each other's eyes for a moment.

“Devyn, I- -”

“I can't…” the blonde whispered.

A pang of fear struck Cougar's heart. “Can't what?”

Devyn shook her head and began to slide her body from underneath Cougar's. “Please just…”

The brunette removed her weight from on top of the blonde. They both sat up and put their legs over the side of the bed. Devyn buried her face in her hands and blew out a shaky breath.

The guard looked at the blonde, concerned. “Devyn, what's wrong?”

“Cougar, this can never work.”

The brunette's heart sank upon hearing those words and she swallowed the lump in her throat. “Why?”

The blonde wrapped some of the sheets around her lower body. “You don't want to get mixed up with me.” The blonde raised her head and looked straight ahead.

“But what if I do?”

Cougar stared at the blonde with an intensity so strong, Devyn was too afraid to make eye contact. “What if you do…” the blonde repeated to herself in a hushed whisper.

“Devyn, what we…what we just shared…I've never felt that way in my entire life. This …this time was different. I know you felt it too.”

The blonde put her head down and closed her eyes tightly. Tears threatened to escape. They sat there another moment in silence and Devyn refused to look at her lover. Realizing the blonde was not going to respond, Cougar abruptly stood from the small bed and began to dress.

“I don't know why I let you do this to me,” the brunette spoke harshly.

Devyn abruptly snapped her head up, starring daggers at the brunette. Anger boiled in the pit of her stomach. One the things she hated most was being accused of something. “I don't do anything to you,” the blonde sneered between her teeth. “You like to fuck me! I like to fuck you! That's all that we do for each other!”

Cougar rapidly turned on the blonde and pinned her with a glare. “That's all?” Tears were on the brim of the taller woman's eyes. “Is that all this is to you? Fucking?”

Devyn momentarily looked into hurt blue eyes before looking down. She knew what they had been doing these past few months went beyond sex, but it scared her.

A tear trickled down the brunette's cheek and she angrily wiped it away. “Fuck this…” she barely got out. With her pants already fastened, she quickly threw on her shirt. “You're gonna end up a pathetic lonely person. I've been wasting my time with you.”

“Not anymore, right?!” the blonde shouted. You're leaving! So just get out! Get out of my life!” Devyn pounded her fist against the tired mattress beneath her.

“Wish granted.” Cougar fastened her belt around her waist and without giving the blonde another look, she headed for the door. Devyn watched her leaving and couldn't help but say one last thing.

“You got everything you wanted from me…” the blonde sneered with a scowl.

Cougar suddenly stopped with her hand on the door. She slowly turned her head, allowing Devyn to only see her profile. “No…” the brunette began quietly. “Not everything…”

She left the room.

Devyn's heart physically heart upon hearing those final words. Out of nowhere an on pour of emotion hit her and she began to cry. Curling herself up in a fetal position in the bed, she began to mentally beat herself up. Why did she end it like this? She had never in her life felt what she was feeling for Cougar. It was always unattached sex with no expectations from the other person. The way the brunette would look at her and touch her was to her undoing. What she saw in Cougar's eyes went from lust to… Did she really love me? Of course she did you idiot. And you let her go. “I let her go…”



Chapter 5

One year and 2 months later…

With a pack of cigarettes and $75 bucks in her pocket, Devyn walked out of Wensha prison a free woman. She had no idea where to go and it wasn't like she had family to run home to. She took a taxi into the city and found a small motel to stay in for the night. The following morning, while wandering the city for job, she found herself in front of a joint called the Hot Box.

Over the next six months, the small blonde managed to settle in an apartment of her own and make a fine living. Okay… working in a strip joint was not the most glamorous job, but it was good money. It took her a while to get the swing of things, but Devyn was never the shy type. Being topless was the least of her worries.

This particular Saturday night, the place was packed with tons men and a few women. Music was thumping loudly and men were hooting and hollering as women performed their set on stage.

Devyn stood at the bar, looking alluring as usual, just as she was hired to do. She wore a revealing violet top that accentuated her cleavage, a short black skirt, and high heel boots that matched her outfit. Her hair was longer now, reaching well past her shoulders. In prison she made sure to keep it short. The blonde rolled her eyes as she spotted her boss heading towards her.

“Bambi, you have one more customer for the night.”

Bambi was her stripper name. This was not a name she was particularly happy with, but she soon let it become her alter-ego.

“Private dance? With or without the works?” Devyn asked her egocentric boss.

“The works doll-face. It's the bachelorette special and her friends paid top dollar.”

Devyn took the money from her boss' hand and stuffed it in her bra.

“Give her a good show huh?” He smiled wickedly, before walking away.

“Sure…” the blonde stated lamely. She was actually relieved to hear it was a woman. She hated rubbing against some man's erect member, pretending she was enjoying it. She has danced for a few women also. Most of them were shy and others were bold, either way she had her most fun with them.

Pushing up her “girls” she headed to the back room to greet her new customer. Devyn stepped into the erotically lit room and closed the curtain behind her. In the middle of the room sat her client on a comfy couch.

How did I let this happen ? Cougar fidgeted nervously on the couch as she heard someone enter the room. What made her even more uncomfortable was the silk covering that was placed over her entire head. She couldn't see a thing. The whole thing was kind of eerie, but she was told it was all part of the fantasy. Her hands were gently tied by silky material and her arms were outstretched on either side, resting on the couch. She was completely helpless.

She heard the sound of high heels slowly clicking closer and she felt her palms begin to sweat. Cougar began to feel even more nervous. She had never done this sort of thing before. In fact, her friends dragged her here for a night of fun.

“How are you doing tonight?” the blonde asked in her best Austrian accent. She liked to pretend Bambi was from another country.

Cougar's left foot began to bounce nervously. “Oh…fine.”

“My name is Bambi.” The blonde came closer and sat on Cougar's lap across her thighs, sideways. The brunette could smell the woman's intoxicating perfume.

“Have you ever done this before?” Bambi asked, fondling with the collar of the brunette's shirt.

Cougar cleared her throat. “Never.”

A hand slowly trailed down between the brunette's breasts and down her abdomen. Cougar shivered when an odd sensation of familiarity hit her. Why am I thinking of… no…don't think of her.

Her thoughts were broken by the woman's heavy accent. “What can I do for you tonight?” she husked.

“I…I'm not sure,” the brunette stuttered.

Bambi chuckled before standing from Cougar's lap. Her high heels clicked on the hard floor as she walked over to the stereo on the side of the room. Within seconds, soothing saxophone music began to play. Cougar swallowed nervously as she waited for the woman to return. Suddenly, she felt two hands grip both of her biceps and the woman hovered over her.

Bambi seductively ran her hands over the brunette's arms. “Lean your head back for me.”

Cougar gave into temptation and leaned her head back on the couch. The blonde leaned her lips centimeters from her customer's ear. “I can make you feel good,” she whispered in her phony accent.

Cougar felt her thighs being pushed apart by the woman's knee. Then hands slid from her biceps, over her breasts, down her abdomen and stopped on top of her thighs. Fingers seductively began to rub up and down her upper legs. Cougar's breathing became ragged and she whimpered as the hands worked their way closer between her legs.

Normally, Cougar would not go for this sort of thing, but it felt too good…too much like… God this feels like Devyn. And I don't want it to stop.

The brunette squirmed a bit in her seat as both of the stranger's hands grazed between her legs. Soon she felt a firm ass press against her crotch. Cougar groaned lightly at the contact.

Bambi began a slow circular movement against the brunette, knowing exactly how to drive her customer crazy. Cougar's hands tugged against her restraints on impulse. She wanted to feel this woman with her hands. The dancer pushed harder and deeper into the brunette's crotch causing Cougar to begin to move with her. The blonde moaned softly and Cougar's ears perked up at the sound. Devyn moaned like that. Stop it! Don't think of her.

The grinding continued and she felt the woman lean back against her chest. Cougar was breathing heavily and inhaled this woman's intoxicating scent. The blonde continued to move against her and Cougar pushed hips upward to meet every movement. The brunette was on fire and her core was soaking from the stimulation of this woman's touch.

Bambi felt herself slipping away as she leaned her body into the muscular one behind her. To her surprise, she beginning to enjoy this customer more than any other she's had before.

“Mmm…do you want to touch me?” the blonde husked.

Cougar nodded. “I do...” she whispered back.

The brunette did not understand why she was allowing herself to be led into this seductive game by a complete stranger. A stranger that actually did not feel too strange at all. She felt an undeniable connection with this woman and did not understand why.

“The cover stays on your head. Can you handle that?” the blonde instructed in her heavy accent.


Bambi shifted her body and straddled her customer's hips. She undid the ties from the brunette's wrists and expected to be grabbed, but her customer just sat there, unsure.

Though Cougar's anticipation to touch this woman was overwhelming, she was still hesitant.

“Don't be shy,” the blonde teased. Bambi gently grasped each of the taller woman's hands and guided them under the front of her top.

As Cougar's hands slowly ran up the blonde's hot body, she gasped nervously. Soon she was holding two soft breasts in her hands.

Bambi groaned softly at the contact as Cougar squeezed her breasts gently. The blonde's body trembled and she closed her eyes. Feeling a bit bold, Cougar gently pinched the erect nipples between her fingers.

Bambi ground her behind harder into the front of the brunette's pants. She then pulled her customer's head forward and placed it between her inviting breasts. Bambi ran her fingers through Cougar's hair as the brunette wrapped her arms around her firm body. Cougar ran her hands up and down the plains of the blonde's back and eventually they ended up holding each other close.

Holding this woman and caressing her, the brunette was instantly lost and transported into the past. “Oh, Devyn…” she whispered.

The blonde's heart skipped a beat upon hearing her real name. She leaned back, pushing the brunette away from her. “What did you say?” the blonde asked, her fake accent slipping away.

Knowing she may have insulted the woman sitting on her lap, Cougar shook her head. “I'm sorry. I didn't mean… you just remind me of someone,” she sadly confessed.

Devyn snatched the covering from her customer's head and she gasped in surprise. Equally shocked blue eyes stared right back at her. Silence. The woman Devyn had been longing to see again, dreaming about almost every night, was sitting right under her.

“Oh, my God…” the blonde uttered.

“Oh, my God…” Cougar repeated, equally stunned.

“Oh, my God!” the blonde shrieked in a panic, quickly climbing off the brunette's lap.

“Devyn?” the brunette questioned, trying to get a good look at the woman in the dimly lit room.

Feeling utterly humiliated and embarrassed, the blonde hurriedly straightened her skirt and quickly began to flee the small room.

“Wait!” Cougar jumped to her feet and rushed after the woman. When she opened the curtain she was suddenly surrounded by a bunch of her friends. This included Miguel and a few other friends. Cougar glanced over the shoulder of one of her rowdy buddies to see the blonde disappear behind a door in the back.

As Devyn escaped to the dressing room, her mind was in a tailspin. It freaked her out that Cougar was her customer. That entire time she was bumping and grinding against… Oh my God! No wonder her body was tingling during the dance and it still was now. It was Cougar.

Devyn blew out a huge breath and stared at herself in the mirror. She placed a hand over her chest, trying to ease her rapidly beating heart. When she saw that her customer was Cougar, she nearly fainted. She was terrified. While doing that dance, she had not felt that alive when she was touching anyone. Only Cougar could do that to her. The same feelings from years ago came rushing back to her. When she allowed Cougar to touch her, she was instantly aroused.

Then it dawned on her. She was performing the bachelorette dance. Cougar was getting married. Her heart sank instantly. She did not know whether to be relieved or jealous. Hell, she was the one who told Cougar to get out of her life.

Devyn made sure to stay in the back until the bouncers ushered the last drunken fool out of the joint. The last thing Devyn wanted to do was run into Cougar again. Many of her co-workers had already left for the night and they found it unusual that she was staying in the backroom for so long.

After the long wait, she dressed in her regular clothing, jeans and a simple t-shirt, picked up her bag and exited the dressing room. Devyn waved goodbye to a few waiters and began her long walk home.

As she turned the corner away from The Hot Box, she heard a car pulling up not too far behind her on the street. Devyn decided to ignore it at first, but when it was with her an entire block, she was beginning to get annoyed. She quickly turned around to face her stalker.

“Listen, buddy you better fuck off or I'll--!” the blonde's words stopped short when she realized who was behind the wheel.

Surprised, yet amused blue eyes stared back at her. Seeing who it was, Devyn instantly felt the fight or flight response whisk through her body. Not wanting to face this ghost from her past, she turned and quickened her pace down the sidewalk.

“Devyn, wait!” Cougar shifted her vehicle into park and quickly hopped out of the car. She caught up with the smaller woman and blocked her path. “Devyn, please.”

“What?” The blonde whined, looking up.

Cougar looked down at her in amazement and nostalgia. “Geez, it really is you.”

The blonde huffed in annoyance. “Yes, it's me. ” she spoke harshly, throwing up her hands. “Are you happy? You found me out. I'm busted. Now, what do you want?”

Cougar looked at the flustered blonde for a moment and smiled softly. “Hi.”

Devyn's face twisted in slight confusion before she let out a small laugh. The brunette smiled in return. “Damn it, Cougar…” the blonde sighed with a small smile. The last thing she wanted to do was laugh but she could not help it. A simple “hi” was not the response she was expecting.

The brunette ducked her head and then looked at Devyn once more.

The blonde ran a hand through her hair and looked up at Cougar. “I didn't want you to see me.”

“I figured that. I waited a long time for you to come out.”

Devyn glanced at the brunette's car. “Where are your friends?”

“Oh, I convinced them to end the crazy night out. Most of them were shit-faced anyway.”

The blonde gave a nod and adjusted the strap of her bag on her shoulder. Cougar shifted her weight slightly. “I figured you'd be out of Wensha by now.”

“Yeah, um. I've been out for a while.”

Cougar nodded. An awkward silence fell between them.

“Well, I have to go,” the blonde turned and began to walk away.

“Can I give you a lift?”

Devyn turned around. “No, I better not.”

“I insist. This isn't a safe area.”

“I can take care of myself, Cougar.”

The brunette nodded. “Believe me, I know. Just humor me?”

Devyn glanced over at the brunette's car and then back at Cougar. She didn't think being in a car alone with her ex-lover was the best of ideas, but it was a long walk home and her feet were killing her. “Okay,” she relented.

Most of the conversation during the drive was Devyn giving the brunette directions and hearing each other breath. Neither one of them knew what to say.

Cougar lightly tapped her hands on the stirring wheel. “So…” the brunette began. “How long have you been working at the, uh…”

“Strip club?” The blonde finished, smiling at Cougar's modesty. “It's okay you can say it. It's not a dirty word.”

“Yes, the strip club.”

“It's been almost seven months. I tried for other employment opportunities, but not many businesses want to hire an ex-con.”

Cougar nodded. “I guess not...”

“Besides, I'm good at it. Didn't you think so?” The blonde teased.

The car suddenly swerved to the right and an oncoming car honked. Cougar quickly gripped the wheel, studying their course. “Sorry.” The brunette apologized.

Devyn giggled lightly. “It's okay. Make a left here.”

The brunette cleared her throat and followed Devyn's directions. She still knows how to make me nervous.

Devyn studied Cougar for a moment. “How did you know it was me?”


“In the VIP room. You couldn't see me, so how did you know?”

Cougar raised an eyebrow. “Do you really want me to answer that question?”

The blonde sighed heavily. “Given the circumstances... I guess not.”


“Cougar, I gave you the bachelorette dance.”

Cougar's mind wandered back to that erotic lap dance and she felt her cheeks grow hot. “Right. I know that must have been really awkward. Hell, it was awkward.”

“You're telling me,” the blonde replied, looking out the window.

“So…um, are you seeing anyone?” Cougar asked.

Devyn shrugged her shoulders. “I've dated here and there, but no. I'm not seeing anybody.”

Cougar nodded and kept her eyes on the road.

“What about you? Who's the lucky lady?” the blonde asked, keeping her eyes fixed to the passenger window.

“Lucky lady ?”

The blonde raised her eyebrows and looked at Cougar as if she was from another planet. “Who are you marrying?”

Cougar was puzzled for a moment and then realized the mix up. “Oh, no… I'm not getting married,” the brunette laughed. “My friends just set me up with the bachelorette dance because they said it was the best. I'm not really…”

“Oh,” the blonde ran a hand through her hair. “Oh, I just thought--”

“I was taken?”

The blonde shrugged nonchalantly, trying to conceal her happiness. If she were by herself in that moment she would be pumping her fists in the air.

“Well, I'm not.”

Devyn simply nodded and realized they near her home. “This is me.”

The brunette pulled up to the shady looking apartment complex and turned off the engine. They sat there for a moment in silence.

“Thanks for the ride.” Devyn went for the door, but was stopped by a gentle hand on her arm. The blonde involuntarily closed her eyes at the contact.

“Devyn, can we talk?” Cougar whispered.

The blonde let out a breath and slowly took her hand off the car handle. She slowly faced Cougar, trying her best to shield her feelings. Even a small touch from the brunette made her tingle all over.

They looked at each other for a moment and Cougar broke their gaze, looking down at the steering wheel. “I wanted to talk about…that last night in Wensha.”

“Cougar, I really don't want to talk about that,” the blonde sighed, dropping her head. There has not been a day passed that she did not think of that night.

“Well, then just listen,” Cougar softly spoke.

Devyn sat back in the seat and waited for the brunette to speak.

“I just want to say that you were right.”

The blonde raised her head and looked at the woman next to her.

“Back then, when you said I was running away from you. I was. And I had no right to say those awful things to you before I left… I didn't mean it. Not a word. I just want to say that I'm really sorry.”

The blonde took a moment to take in Cougar's sympathetic words. That meant a lot to her, but she knew she was at fault as well. She shook her head sadly. “No you're not.”

“Excuse me?”

Devyn felt the pain in her heart swell and she closed her eyes as she remembered that night. “How can you be sorry when I'm the one who pushed you away?”

“Devyn it's alright. I was asking too much of you and...”

“No, that's not it…”

“I couldn't force you to feel what I felt…”

“You don't understand…” the blonde softly spoke.

“I do.”


“I came on way to strong--”

“I loved you!” The blonde spat out.

The brunette's breath caught in her throat. She carefully studied Devyn, not sure if she heard what she thought she just heard. “What?”

The blonde looked down at the lap. “You have no idea how much I loved you. And I knew you loved me. I could tell by the way you'd look at me and touch me.” Devyn looked into the brunette's eyes. “But I was afraid. And now you come back into my life and it's not helping, because I obviously still feel something for you. I was fine until you came back. I was…” the blonde suddenly felt sick to her stomach. She totally just admitted all of her inner feelings in less than twenty seconds. “Oh, my God. I can't believe I just said all that,” she chastised herself. “It means nothing now.” Devyn quickly scrambled out of the vehicle, slamming the door behind her. She sprinted towards the apartment complex.

Cougar just sat there, still stunned by the blonde's words. She couldn't move…couldn't breathe. She looked after Devyn as the blonde disappeared inside her apartment.

Devyn leaned her head against the door behind her and closed her eyes tightly, willing herself not to cry. “Shit, shit, shit!” The blonde threw down her bag and buried her face in her hands. Tears began to stream down her face like a rushing river and there was no stopping them. She was fine before Cougar came back into her life. There were no worries, no guilt, no butterflies in the stomach. Then after nearly two years, the tall brunette was back.

A gentle knock sounded at the door. “Devyn?”

The blonde removed her hands from her face and turned around, facing the door.

“Devyn, please open the door.”

“Go away!” the blonde announced.

“I'm not leaving until you open the door.”

Frustrated, the blonde quickly wiped at her tears and tried to shake off her emotions before opening the door.

Cougar stood there with a concerned look on her face. “Can I come in?” the brunette softly requested.

Barely able to make eye contact with the taller woman, Devyn stepped away from the door. Cougar entered the one bedroom apartment and closed the door. Devyn had her back to the brunette and could hear Cougar's heavy breathing behind her. Just being in a space alone with Cougar was making her body shiver.

“Devyn…will you look at me?” the brunette asked.

The blonde took a moment, trying to calm herself down, before slowly turning around.

Cougar's heart practically leapt from its chest seeing Devyn's red eyes and puffiness. Devyn could hear her heart pounding through her ears and the hairs on the back of her neck tingled as the brunette took a step closer. The look in those blue eyes was vulnerable and understanding. The blonde remembered how Cougar's eyes always spoke volumes of sincerity…this was one of those moments.

“I'm still in love with you too,” the brunette whispered.

The blonde took a shaky breath as Cougar stepped closer and stood in her personal space. The brunette slowly placed her hands on the blonde's waste and drew her closer.

“Cougar, I…I don't do this…” the blonde whispered.


The blonde raised her green eyes and looked into caring baby blues. “Fall in love.”

Cougar smiled sweetly in response.

“What if I end up pushing you away again?”

The brunette shook her head. “I won't let you.”

Devyn sighed helplessly and ducked her eyes and swallowed the lump in her throat. “I'm scared…and nothing scares me. But you do. You always have.”

Cougar slowly raised one of her hands and gently tucked a piece of hair behind the blonde's ear. She then caressed her cheek with her thumb. “I'm terrified. But I'm here…”

Devyn had never felt this way in her life. No one had ever been this sweet…this caring. She wrapped her arms around Cougar's neck and fell into the brunette's embrace. Cougar held the blonde close and vowed to herself that she would never let her go.

“Cougar…will you lay with me? Just until I fall asleep…” the blonde whispered.

The brunette's heart melted upon hearing Devyn's request. “Sure…”

Devyn slipped her hands from around the brunette's neck and took one of Cougar's hands in her own. She led the brunette into her bedroom and sat on her full-sized bed. “I'm so tired. All this talk about love is exhausting.”

Cougar chuckled softly. “Yeah…”

She helped the blonde dress into a nightshirt and they both cuddled on the bed. In no time, Devyn soundly fell asleep on Cougar's shoulder. The brunette looked down at the woman she loved and smiled softly. “I love you, Devyn,” she whispered.


* * *

Devyn shifted her head slightly on her pillow before slowly opening her eyes. She was greeted by a pair of adoring baby blues.

“Mmm…you're still here…” the blonde mumbled happily.

“I have nowhere else I'd rather be.”

“You didn't have to stay.”

“Well…” the brunette leaned up on her elbow and looked down at the blonde. “I couldn't stop staring at you all night and I guess I fell asleep.”

The blonde giggled lightly. “Boy, are you a sweet talker.”

Cougar smiled softly and her eyes lingered loving into Devyn's green ones. The blonde felt a warmth spread through her body as Cougar looked at her. She quickly sat up and climbed off the bed. “Um…can I get you some coffee or something?

“You don't have to--”

“I'll make us some coffee.” Devyn nervously spat out.

Before the brunette could respond, Devyn had already slid on some pajama bottoms and was out of the room.

When Devyn was in the solitude of her small kitchen, she placed her hands on the counter and tried to study her breathing. Cougar always knew just what to say to make her mind turn to mush, but she had always fought against it. Now that she was slowly allowing her emotional barricade to come down, she was still trying to deal with these new feelings. The blonde took one more settling breath before turning around. Cougar was standing just a few feet away. Devyn quivered a bit on the inside. “I didn't know you were standing there,” the blonde nervously stated.

Without a word, Cougar took a step forward and captured the blonde's lips in a soft, lingering kiss. Instantly feeling lightheaded and intoxicated by Cougar's lips, Devyn closed he eyes and reciprocated. After a moment, the brunette slowly pulled back.

“I'm sorry,” the brunette breathed. “I just couldn't go another second without kissing you.”

Devyn released a shaky breath and wrapped her arms around the brunette's neck. She stared into Cougar's sky blue eyes and saw pure love. Her eyes then lowered to the brunette's inviting lips. Cougar noticed this and held the blonde closer around the waist. This time, both of them leaned in for another kiss. As soon as their lips met again, both women moaned softly. Neither one of them thought this moment would happen.

Devyn pulled the brunette's head closer and teased Cougar's lips with her tongue. The guard's hands trailed down the blonde's back and softly squeezed her firm ass. Devyn whimpered softly and slid her tongue into the brunette's inviting mouth. Cougar moaned and readily sucked the blonde's hot tongue. As the kiss deepened, both of them soon became deeply aroused. Their need to have each other was too hard to deny. Devyn dug her fingers in the brunette's dark hair and pushed her body into Cougar's. Her hand travelled to the front of the brunette's pants and she began to rub her gently. She could feel Cougar's heat emanating through her pants.

The brunette was trembling so badly with need she could barely stand. “Can we take this somewhere else?” Cougar husked deeply.

A wicked smile spread across Devyn's face and grasped the hem of Cougar's shirt, giving it a tug. They fumbled into the blonde's bedroom, kissing against the dresser, the closet, until finally their bodies fell onto the bed. Cougar straddled the blonde's hips, looking down at her. They were both breathing heavily and staring into each other's eyes.

“Do you want to take this slow or… Mmmm…” the brunette's words were cut off by Devyn pulling her down into a hungry kiss.

Devyn used all of her strength to flip them over so she was on top. The blonde sat up and tore off her shirt and bra. Cougar smiled upon seeing those beautiful breasts once more and reached for them. Devyn grabbed her wrists, stopping her.

“Uh-huh, I want yours off too…” the blonde smiled.

Cougar grinned and sat up, removing her shirt in one smooth movement. Devyn's gaze lingered on the beautiful breasts for a moment before cupping the brunette's face and kissing her deeply. They fell back onto the bed and Cougar ran her hands over the blonde's bare back. She could feel their nipples growing hard as they brushed against each other.

Devyn broke the kiss and slowly trailed her wet tongue down between Cougar's breasts. The brunette shivered at the sensation and whimpered when the blonde's mouth latched to her right nipple.

“Oh, yes…” She held onto Devyn's head, enjoying the blonde's talented tongue tease her dark bud.

Devyn hummed in delight as she feasted on the brunette. Her hands moved between their bodies and began to undo Cougar's jeans. The brunette caught on and helped Devyn remove her pants. The blonde cupped Cougar's crotch and stroked her clit in a circular motion through her panties. The brunette groaned in pleasure and began to move her hips to the blonde's rhythm. She reached up and brought the blonde down for a deep kiss. Both of them quickly discarded of the guard's underwear and soon Cougar felt the blonde fingers fill her completely.

“Oh, fuck…” Cougar moaned, arching her back.

Hearing the brunette's pleasurable moan, Devyn plunged her fingers deeper, in and out of her lover, at a steady pace. She watched Cougar's face as the brunette concentrated on the movement of her fingers. Cougar felt the pit of her stomach ignite into a fire. She was so close. It did not take long for the brunette to tighten around the blonde's fingers and call out Devyn's name.

As Cougar trembled in ecstasy, Devyn kissed ever part of the brunette's flesh she could get to. Cougar pulled the blonde up to her and captured her lips, kissing her deeply.

“You're amazing…” the brunette breathed against Devyn's lips. The blonde gave Cougar another quick kiss and smiled.

“Now, what do I get?” Devyn teased.

“Climb on…” the brunette suggested.

Devyn raised an eyebrow, making sure it was okay.

“Believe me, I want you to.”

Hearing the brunette's eagerness to taste her made Devyn even more excited. She climbed up and positioned her sex over Cougar's mouth. Shivering with anticipation, she slowly lowered herself. Her body quivered with pleasure as she felt the brunette's tongue slid inside of her.

Cougar hummed her enjoyment as she feasted on the blonde's sex. Devyn began to move her hips in a steady rhythm and let out a gratifying moan. Just knowing it was Cougar eating her out, drove her closer to the edge.

“Oh, Cougar…yeah, baby. Just like that...”

The brunette worked her tongue faster, Devyn rode her harder, and soon an overpowering orgasm shook the blonde's body. Cougar continued to lick the blonde's center and Not wanting to squish her lover, Devyn moved herself off her lover and laid her exhausted head on the brunette's shoulder.

“Oh, my God…that was amazing…” the blonde husked in an erotic tone.

Cougar wiped her mouth with the back of her hand and smiled triumphantly. She wrapped the blonde in her arms and held her close. “I like how you taste...” the brunette whispered, kissing Devyn on the head.

After taking a short break, they were soon in the throes of passion once again. They made love throughout the day and well into the night before falling asleep in each other's arms.


* * *

In the early morning hours, the blonde released a content hum before opening her eyes. She stretched her hand out beside her and expected to feel a warm body. All she felt was cold sheets. Devyn sat up with a start when she realized no one was in the bed with her. It was empty. The blonde rubbed her eyes and looked around the room. She was alone. A pang of fear struck her.

“Cougar!” the blonde called in a panic. “Cougar!”

The brunette rushed to the doorway, nearly falling in the process. “What is it? What's wrong, baby?” Cougar asked coming into the room. She had on a bra and her black jeans.

“Oh...” The blonde buried her face in her hands and shook her head. “I just thought…” Devyn looked at the brunette as she sat on the bed beside her. “I don't know.”

Cougar smiled softly and placed an arm around the blonde's body. “I'm not the type to leave without saying goodbye.”

The blonde chuckled lightly, feeling silly for freaking out. “I know. I'm sorry. That's what usually happens to me though. I'd sleep with a woman one night and in the morning… I'd wake up alone. For a second I thought I had dreamed all this.”

Cougar raised her other hand and softly stroked the side of the blonde's face. “It was all real.” She kissed Devyn softly on the lips and they both smiled. “I was just calling in sick for work today.”

“Good…” Devyn climbed on top of the brunette and straddled her hips. She then wrapped her arms around Cougar's neck, holding her close.

“Hey…” the brunette cooed, returning the embrace. She held the blonde to her.

“I hate to sound clingy…but don't leave me alone like that. I don't like it.”

The brunette smiled. “Okay. I promise.”

Devyn leaned back and looked down between their bodies. “What are you doing with clothes on?” the blonde questioned with a grin.

“I wanted to have something on when I called work. It's…I don't know. I just feel uncomfortable talking to a co-worker naked.”

“But you're on the phone.”

“I need clothes on.”

“It doesn't matter.”

“It does to me.”

“You're funny.” Devyn kissed Cougar on the cheek and then playfully ran her fingers through Cougar's hair, making it messier.

The brunette made a face and looked up at her lover. “Having fun?”

“I am.”

“Oh, yeah?” Cougar suddenly tackled the blonde onto her back, and they both giggled. The brunette looked down into Devyn's green eyes and smiled.

The blonde smiled back. “Will you tell me now? How you knew it was me yesterday night.”

Cougar leaned her body down so it was fully lying on top of the blonde's. “I remembered how you feel.”

“Really…you mean…just by me touching you, you knew it was me?”

“Part of me knew. That's why your name slipped out.”

Devyn smiled. “Even with my phony accent?”

“Yeah, the accent was throwing me off a bit. But I knew your touch. It's still the same. I'm glad it really was you because I was beginning to miss you again.”

“Even during a lap dance?”

The brunette grinned. “Yes…even during a lap dance. I missed you all the time.”

Devyn lightly ran her fingertips over the brunette's lips. “I missed you too.”

Cougar bent down and placed sweet kisses and Devyn's neck, making the blonde laugh. She lifted her head and looked down into the blonde's eyes again. “I really love you.”

Devyn smiled glumly and cupped the guard's cheek. “I love you too. I'm sorry I didn't say it sooner. It was just so hard for me to say it long ago. You made me feel things that were so… out of my league I just freaked out.”

Cougar chuckled lightly. “It's okay.”

“No, it isn't.” The blonde looked seriously into Cougar's eyes. “I really hurt you. Didn't I?”

The brunette lowered her gaze, clearly remembering the hurt Devyn had caused her. But no matter what the consequence, she could not resist the fiery blonde. That is why she left. She thought Devyn would never love her in return.

Cougar raised her eyes and smiled lightly. “Yes…”

The blonde gave her lover a sympathetic look, feeling terrible by the way she acted years ago.

“But I still loved you. I couldn't help it,” the brunette confessed in a soft whisper.

Devyn leaned in and brushed her lips against Cougar's in a gentle kiss. “I'm sorry I hurt you, baby. I'm really sorry. Is there any way I can make it up to you?”

“Well…” the brunette drawled out. “The lap dance and sex was a good start.”

“The lap dance was work.”

“Really?” Cougar shifted off the blonde and laid next to her. She leaned on her elbow. “Do you allow all of your customers to feel you up and pinch your nipples?” Cougar secretly prayed that was not the case.

Devyn rolled her eyes slightly. “Okay, no. You were a special customer,” the blonde smiled.

“Good to know.”

They kissed once more…then again, and soon they were sharing a deep passionate liplock. Devyn broke the kiss suddenly. “Cougar?”


“Don't judge me for asking this but…what's your first name?”

Cougar looked at the blonde for a moment and then suddenly both of them burst out into a fit of laughter. All this time, sleeping together and the brunette's name never came up. Devyn was laughing so hard she had to hold her stomach and Cougar was having trouble breathing. They finally pulled themselves together after a minute or two.

“Oh…” the brunette sighed, catching her breath. “It's Angela.”

The blonde took a moment to process the name. “Hmm , Angela .” She stroked the side of the brunette's face. “I like it…but I think I like Cougar better.”

“So do I.”

“I'll just call you Angela if I get really mad at you. How about that?”

Smiling, Cougar rolled onto her back and pulled the blonde on top of her. “Fair enough. Now kiss me.”


The End

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