Disclaimer: Xena and Gabrielle and any other character are the property of Universal/USA Studios. The story is mine.
My favorite character is Gabrielle. When I watch the show it is nice to see someone who is in turmoil (Xena) have a person in their life that gives them some hope. Everyone needs that kind of person and if you are lucky enough to have it you should not take it for granted. The story is after they were crucified and went into the heavens.
Violence/Spoiler Warning: Mild violence, and some of the events are from past shows. (Ides of March).
Credit to: Gloria Estefan from her Greatest Hits album and to Epic records.
and Gabrielle are in a place that is neither Elysian Field nor Tartarus, but a
realm of soft blue-white fog. A place of calm, a place to think about life, or
as Xena was twitching, a lack of life. As Callisto has discovered Hell, maybe
Gabrielle and Xena have discovered Heaven.
"Xena where are we? This place feels strange. Are we dead or not?"
"Gabrielle, you know just about as much as I do. I have a feeling well find
out sooner or later. Lets just try to stay calm."
"Thats just it,
Xena," looking at her partner with a very peaceful expression, "I dont
feel afraid, I feel like this is the right place, but I dont think were
stopped and looked around, amazed at what she was looking at. She had seen the
Elysian Fields before, and even Tartarus, but this was not either of them. The
color of the clouds and the blue sky were familiar, but where were the land,
trees, grass, and loved ones? Xena was starting to fear that the god Callisto
had found was responsible for this.
"It has to be Callisto. She still has a hold on us."
just looked at her, confused.
"What does Callisto have to do with any of this? You killed her a year ago
when I fell in the pit with Hope."
"When I tried to kill Caesar, she came to his defense and took my Chakram. I
was trying to get away from there and she appeared in front of me again. She
knew of Eli, India, and even my vision."
"How? You said you
killed her with the hinds blood. There is no coming back from that!"
could see the pain and anger in Gabrielles eyes.
"She went to a place worse than Tartarus, its called Hell. Her lord made a
deal with her. If she helped Caesar become emperor and kept me out of the way,
he would give her what she wanted. To cease to exist."
"We are never going
to be rid of her, are we? First I have to live with the fact that she killed my
husband, then helped my evil daughter kill Solan, now she has control of my
after life? By the gods, this IS Tartarus!" she said with such anguish, it
made Xenas eyes well up with tears.
was a long silence. Neither of them knew what to say. Then, all of a sudden,
Xena noticed a figure forming from a cloud. Xena quickly jumped in front of
Gabrielle to attack when they heard a familiar voice saying, "Relax, Xena. No
one here will hurt you."
"Iolaus?" she asked. There was shock, as well as relief to hear a familiar
voice. "What in Greece are you doing here? Do you know where we are? Are we
back in Illusia?"
"One question at a time, Xena. Hello Gabrielle," he said with a grin.
"This place is called the Land of Dreams. Its a place for good people who
were killed by evil forces in an unjust manner. This place gives everyone a
chance to make peace with ones self, and even gives one the choice of life or
"How did you get
here? Are you in our minds?"
"I was killed by Dahak. I was lucky enough to be sent here to make some plans
on what I wanted to do with my life. The goddess gave me a chance to make a
difference in other peoples lives. She made me the Guardian of Light. What do
"To be honest with
you, these clouds make me a little nervous."
"I agree, lets try something more comfortable." With that, the clouds
began to roll away and melt, leaving the trio standing on a hilltop overlooking
a forest valley. White stone columns quietly rose from the grass forming a stone
gazebo, complete with a marble fountain.
"Wow!" she said wide-eyed.
"Yeah, very nice. Now Iolaus, how about what were doing here?" Xena said,
"First things first," he said, turning to Gabrielle, "could you gather
some firewood for us?"
joking right?" She stood up, looking back and forth between the two, but
neither said anything in response. "Bad enough I did this all the time when I
was alive. I still cant get away from it in the afterlife," she grumbled as
she headed into the forest.
"Care to explain? Who is this so-called goddess that helped you? I never heard
of the Goddess of Light."
"Xena? Your path has been difficult but clear to you. Gabrielle has become
lost on her way. The obstacles she has had to overcome have haunted her and held
her back. Today shell be given the chance to face them and shell have to
do it alone. I cant tell you who the goddess is, but if you think really hard
it will come to mind." Xena looked at him rather puzzled for a moment then
"Youre not Iolaus, are you?" Xena turns to run down the hill after
Gabrielle only to find her way blocked by thorns and brambles. In her warrior
fury, she spun around and reached for her sword, only to find it absent. "So
help me, if any harm comes to her, you will pay!"
"Calm yourself, you
can see her here in this pool. Youll be able to watch her."
"I should be with
her. Shes my best friend and Ive always tried to be there to protect
"I understand your
desire to protect her. However, some dangers can only be faced alone. You of all
people should understand that."
"That doesnt mean I have to like it!" she hissed, walking over to the
viewing pool wearing a mask of pain.
"Walk in the Forest"
Gabrielle was collecting the firewood, wondering what was going on with Iolaus
and Xena, when she heard a voice. She turned around, and to her surprise
Callisto was standing there smiling at her with a tormenting grin.
"Well, well, look
who we have here. If it isnt Xena s little brat. How have you been since
you had your little fall with your daughter? That really gave me a good
"Id tell you to go to Tartarus, but I hear that you found a worse place.
Fitting for a person like you."
boring and they felt that I needed a new challenge. Its called Hell. Well,
enough about me, Im here to make you an offer."
"Bite me!" and she turned and walked away, just to see Callisto in front of
"Bite me, hmmm,
its a tempting offer, but I have other plans."
"Just tell me what you want and leave me alone. Im dead already, what more
do you want?"
"Dead? Not yet. Youre in a place between life and death. My lord has an
interest in you and he wants to make you an offer. Hell take away all your
pain if you give him your soul."
"Why would he want my soul?"
"You see, you and Xena foiled my plan once again, and my lord is giving me
another chance. I was supposed to make her stray from her path (way of the
warrior) and bring Xenas soul back to him. And instead of her doing it, you
go and stray from yours. By the way, nice little slicing and dicing in the
prison camp. I didnt know such a little wimp like you had it in her!"
turned her back to Callisto as shame filled tears formed in her eyes. Then she
started seeing flashes of herself killing those soldiers and could hear Callisto
in the background applauding. It felt like her heart was being ripped out of her
chest. All the pain she tried to fight against, even from a time she had put
behind her, came rushing forward in her mind. She saw a vision of Dahak, having
to kill her own daughter, her daughter killing her best friends child, and
Callisto killing her husband. The final scene, of seeing Flanigus, (A Good
Day), death overwhelmed her and brought her to her knees.
"You see, all this pain you have is keeping you from your path (way of love).
My lord can take it all away from you," she said sweetly. "All you have to
do is surrender yourself to him and your pain will be gone. He has even agreed
to give Xena her son back so she can go back to the life that you stole from
her. Whats it going to be? A peaceful afterlife or constant torment? Its
was still doubled over with the painful thoughts that were rushing forward in
her mind. She could give Xena her son back; all she had to do was surrender
herself to Callistos lord. After all she had done, wouldnt it be worth it
to be able to give her best friend her life back?
"How can I trust you? You want nothing more than to torment our lives, youd
do or say anything to get your way. Whats in it for you this time?"
"What Ive always
wanted ... to cease to exist. Its funny, Xena turns my whole family into
crispy critters, kills hundreds of people, and she winds up in paradise. Rather
ironic, dont you think?"
"Xena spent her life trying to do good and trying to make up for her past. All
youve done is continue to torture and hate. Xena deserves to be in
"Oh, spare me your preaching! I have to laugh, since the woman tried to kill
you once! Well, I was right the first time, you are a pathetic little eel. Tell
you what, Im going to leave you to your tormenting thoughts for a while. Call
me when youve made your decision. Make it quick, I do have better things to
do." Callisto disappears leaving Gabrielle on her knees, crying, pressing her
hands to her ears trying to drown out the painful sounds from within her.
"Dont listen to her, Gabrielle!" she screamed into the pool. She turned
quickly to face Iolaus and with clenched teeth said, "You have to let me help
her! Shed dying in there! You know damn well, if she goes with Callisto,
shell do nothing but torture her! I will not be able to live with that!"
"This is something she has to do on her own. She needs to find the strength
within herself. You being there would only distract her. If you interfere you
will be sentencing her to constant torment, and she will never find the peace
she so desperately needs to find."
"All the pain that
she is feeling is my doing, not hers. Why is she being tortured with this and
not me? She is the best thing in my life and all I ever do is hurt her. Even
when she is dead."
"Xena," he said,
trying to reassure her, "she just needs to finally come to terms with what has
happened and make a choice. She can either forgive herself and be free, or not
forgive herself, die, and be tormented for eternity. Your choice was to follow
your path, so you will return to your life. Gabrielle needs to decide whether to
put up or shut up. Shes been dealing with this for too long."
"I thought she put all this behind her when we were in Illusia. She even had a
chance when she was in the Temple of Mnemosyne. Why is this still bothering her?
I put any hurt feelings I had away a long time ago, why cant she?"
"Guilt is a very strong thing. All the feelings came flowing back into her
mind when you were on Mt. Amaro and she was killing those soldiers. You just
need to be patient and give her time. Youre going to have to learn to live
with the whatever decision she makes."
"Why is Callisto there? This is really going to help her? Having Callisto
torment her? Wow, youre right, I really shouldnt worry," This said with
daggers coming out of her icy blue eyes. "Will she ever know how much she
means to me? Did you ever think, Iolaus, that if anything happens to her, I
wont be able to go on?"
"I have faith in
her, thats why Im giving her this chance to make peace with herself.
Callisto is there because she is the figure of pain in her mind. Xena, please
try to find some faith, she could really use it. The best thing you can do to
help her is pray. Dont worry, I am sending someone there to help guide
her." They both gazed back down into the pool.Iolaus could sense the
overwhelming pain that Xena was feeling for her friend.
was still sitting in the forest. It was now dark and she was cradling herself,
thinking about Callistos offer.
had the chance to make her best friends life happy again, and relieve herself
of the pain and guilt that had been weighing on her soul. She was about ready to
scream out Callistos name when a bright ray of light appeared before her.
Gabrielle raised her hand to shield her eyes. The light dimmed and before her
stood a beautiful figure.
Her eyes cleared and she realized that it was Naiyima (Between
the Lines), who stood before her. "What are you doing here?" she asked,
surprised to see her.
"Gabrielle, do you
remember the menhdi? I am here to show you your truth. You have a big decision
to make and your pain has clouded your judgment. I am here to help you if
youll let me."
"How can you help me when I dont even know how to help myself?"
"The reason you
started feeling this pain again is because of what happened on Mt. Amaro. Do you
feel that by killing those soldiers, you betrayed your way of love? Would you
rather have sat back and watched your best friend die?"
"No, I would make
the same decision again to save Xena. But when I started killing those soldiers,
I wasnt myself. I became dark inside and wouldve killed anything that
tried to harm her. She was helpless, I had to do something. That brought such a
feeling of fear... because Xena has never been helpless before."
"What would you have done differently?"
"That first soldier that was going after her, I shouldve just stopped him
and tried to get Xena out before any more were killed."
see." She started moving her arms to start the menhdi and sent Gabrielle back
into that moment.
has just seen Xena fall. The soldier is approaching, ready to kill her.
Gabrielle picks up the spear and hits him, knocking him out of the way. She is
trying to drag Xena from the scene when a second soldier approaches, hits
Gabrielle across the face and plunges his sword into Xena, killing her
instantly. Gabrielle, eyes wide with disbelief, screams, "NO!!"
was again sitting in the forest with Naiyima, pounding the ground, screaming.
(Looks up at the woman)"What was I supposed to do? Killing isnt the way of
"Your love for Xena saved her. Is that not following the way of love? You have
been on your path the whole time, but there are times when defending yourself or
others may be necessary. How can you continue to spread love and follow your
path if youre dead? Who is going to hear you if you have no voice? Gabrielle,
remember the menhdi," she said as she faded away.
sat for a long time considering what Naiyima had told her. She folded her legs
and closed her eyes, trying to find that moment she had found with Eli, when
they were imprisoned and they did... nothing. As she was meditating, she felt a
cool breeze and a sense of peace. She opened her eyes and saw brightly colored
lights floating around her. She had found her answer and her peace. She reached
towards the lights and saw old visions of herself. She heard music in the
distance and started singing to the image of her old self,
been alone inside myself for far too long...
wanted it that way but I let it happen...
I could do it all again my
life would be...
better than before I wouldnt waste a moment
Make time for laughing with my friends...
love, make music, make amends...
to make a difference try to love, try to understand...
of just giving up Id use the power at my command...
Cause theres always tomorrow to start over again...
will never stay the same the only one sure thing is change...
why theres always tomorrow...
guess it took a little time, for me to see...
reason I was born into this world and what Id have to go through...
Ive finally realized that I could be...
better than before definitely stronger...
face whatever comes my way...
every moment of the day...
as many people as I can along the way...
someone whos giving up if its just to raise my eyes and pray...
Cause theres always tomorrow to start over again...
will never stay the same the only one sure thing is change...
why theres always tomorrow...
Before your last setting sun...
everything your heart has longed for...
yet to be (one)...
theres always tomorrow though people come and they go...
if you brought some love to their lives...
youve got something to show...
Theres always, always, always tomorrow to start over again...
will never stay the same...
only one sure thing is change...
why there always, always, always...
ends. Gabrielle was finally at peace.
(Looking at a teary-eyed
Xena) "See, I told you to just have a little bit of faith. Have a wonderful
life," and he faded away.
thing Xena knew, shes back down in Greece, holding Argos reins, and
looking around for Gabrielle.
stood up, wiped the tears from her eyes, but there
"Well, have you considered my offer? Time is dinars."
(Calmly walks over to her) "Thanks. But no thanks,"
and decked her, then walked out of the forest smiling. As soon as she
exited the woods she was back in Greece. She
saw Xena and Argo standing there smiling at her. They embraced each
"You are the most
important person in my life. I felt so helpless watching you down there but
Iolaus kept telling me you had to do it on your own. Can we please put this
behind us now?"
(Looks up at Xena, smiling) "Sure, where are we headed off to now?"
"I thought we could
visit our families and then move on to Thessaly."
"Sounds like a plan, but DONT expect me to get any darn firewood!"
they both turn and head off to their planned destinations and a new future.
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