Time And Time Again
By Dimples
Disclaimers:
The many characters in this story are all mine, though the main ones may resemble the X:WP characters, which are not mine....unfortunately. The song in the story is all mine as well.
Love/Sex/Language:
Yes to all of the above. This story depicts an explicit loving relationship between adult women. There is a scene that might seem like voyeurism but it's not....exactly...There is also a scene of self-gratification. The language gets a little rough from time to time but so does the sex...so if you're ok with that.... So if you're under-aged or live in a place that this isn't allowed or this isn't your cup of tea, I suggest you move along and look for something else to occupy your free time.
Violence:
There are some scenes that contain pretty graphic violence but I don't consider them to be much. But if you're of the fainter heart, I'd suggest you don't read 'em. They're really not bad though...Not worse than any regular Xena episode..
Thanks:
To my beta-reader Cindy AKA "ForevaXena" for everything. Starting with beta reading my stories and finishing with posting my stories and giving them a chance in the first place.
To all the readers that took the time to write to me and telling me what they thought, you encouraged me to keep on writing.
And to all the great bards around and their amazing stories that I loved reading and gave me the inspiration to start writing my own.
Author's comments and Feedback: This is the first story I've written of this length. I hope you'll like it. Everything in this story is meant purely for fun and I hope you find it funny (in places it was meant to be funny), dramatic (the same) and so on. I would really appreciate knowing what you think of my stories. Tell me if I'm doin' alright or if I royally suck. Some plot ideas would be very much appreciated also. Actually, come to think of it, any comment would be very much appreciated :) mailto:Dimples_2000_fr@yahoo.com
© Dimples 2001
Part One
Ch. 1
*BIP* *BIP* *BIP* the alarm clock went off at such frequency that it could quite possibly raise the dead, however it still wasn't enough to wake the slumbering figure. Several seconds passed and another alarm clock in the room went off. This time the slumbering figure could not ignore it nor could she turn it off. She started squirming on the bed, making tiny grumbling sounds at the rude awakening. "Ugh, stupid alarm clock..." said the figure as she scrambled out of bed. Her blond hair sleep tousled and her green eyes, usually sparkling with delight, now droopy from exhaustion.
Audry hasn't been able to get a decent night's sleep for...she couldn't remember for how long. These dreams....flashbacks maybe, have been occurring quite frequently lately and there wasn't anything she could do about it. They have been invading her unconsciousness on a regular basis and now even her waking moments have been plagued by these undetermined flashes. Being a reporter, she couldn't afford herself dozing off or it's her hide, so to speak. If she couldn't bring in the newest, hottest scoops then her employers would find someone that could.
Brushing the cobwebs from her eyes, Audry dragged her tired body into the shower, dropping behind her her long sleeping shirt.
After a refreshing shower, she still couldn't quite fully open her eyes, she needed her dose of caffeine. Taking yesterday's paper and browsing through it, she sipped her coffee. Finished with her coffee, she put it in the dishwasher, picked up her portfolio bag and went out of the door towards another day of grueling work.
***
"Good morning Audry" greeted Jaime Anderson, a fellow reporter at the paper, sometimes companion. "Mornin' Jaime" replied Audry as she went over to her desk and sat down. She started going through possible articles for the next addition, not seeing anything interesting in particular she decided to ask her boss for any new assignments. She trotted towards her boss' office and knocked on the door. "Come in" could be heard through the closed door and Audry entered the office. There wasn't anything special about this office, it was big and it was roomy and that was about it, it was scarcely decorated and it held a feeling of distance, of coldness that quite possibly reflected her boss' personality. John Richmond was distant, had a sense of authority to him that made almost everyone cower in his presence and a no nonsense attitude but Audry was one of the few that wasn't treated this way, she was always greeted with a smile and an almost caring attitude...as caring as the man could get.
"Audry, what can I do for you?" asked John with a small smile on his lips, appearing upon seeing his favorite reporter.
"Good morning John, I was just going through some articles I've written theses past few weeks and I just couldn't find anything that could possibly be front page material...so I figured I'd come over and ask you if you might have any other assignments that I could possibly review."
"Well....I might have something but I don't know....you haven't been feeling quite like yourself lately so maybe you should just take it easy for awhile..."
"John, I'm fine....really. I wouldn't be asking if I felt it would stress me out too much....I think maybe this would do me some good actually."
"Well....if you're sure Audry.....but just so you know, I'm still reluctant to do this....."
A smile now beaming on her face at her success "Thank you John...I really appreciate it..."
Not finished with her sentence and she falters on her feet, a flash hitting her full force "It'll be alright, just hang in there.....please.....I need you...." said the redheaded woman that resembles Audry to a dying figure of a woman held tightly in her arms. The woman smiles slightly and raises her hand to caress the other woman's cheek softly.
The flash recedes and Audry which is still in shock from the intensity of the flash is now picked up from the floor by John and seated on his sofa.
"Audry....Oh my god.....are you okay?!"
"Yes...I..I'm just a little shaken....I'm okay now though"
"Well I don't care how okay you think you may be, I want you to take the day off and make an appointment with your doctor. Audry...you can't go on like this.....please promise me you'll do as I say.."
"John, I'm fine......I guess I'm just tired..."
"Tired! well no wander you're tired...with these flashes or whatever they are coming at you all day and then I'm sure at night too....how can a person keep his sanity in check?! "
"Look....I didn't want to tell you this but the past few weeks you've been coming to work looking like a zombie...with these bloodshot eyes and black circles around 'em....you can barely function much less work...I'm telling you this as your friend, as someone who cares for your well being but apparently this approach doesn't work with you so I'll do things as your boss....if you don't get your act together, go see a doctor and fix things up.....I'm gonna have to let you go....."
Surprised at this outburst from her usually quiet boss, Audry was left speechless, which almost never happens, but upon hearing his threat about letting her off, she immediately composed herself and got on her now steady feet.
"Alright John, I'll go to the doctor and I will "fix" things up as you said because I myself am tired of these flashbacks and I need some rest both physically and mentally.."
Interrupting her midsentence John smiled briefly and said "Good....good, I'm glad you'll listen and take care of yourself...."
This time the interruption came from Audry who was growing more frustrated and angrier with the man."Like I started saying John when you interrupted me....I will seek help but I will not assure you of my coming back here....now now John....you said it yourself....you gave me an ultimatum and conveyed your point quite clearly.....I don't like being put an ultimatum so even if I do get better and find out what the hell these flashes mean....I'm not sure if I'll be back to work for this paper again. Good day John."
With that Audry pulled the door open and walked out of John's office, quite possibly for the last time.
John looked like a fish out of water with his mouth gaping open trying to form words but failing miserably. He was just trying to be a friend....wasn't he? He tried to care for her when she wouldn't.....didn't he? He quite possibly just lost his best reporter in....ever.
Audry went over to her desk to pick up the few things she had there, she almost cleared the table when Jaime came over to her.
"Hey...what's wrong, why are you clearing your desk?" asked Jaime.
"Well...I'm taking a few days leave but I'm not sure if this situation won't be permanent."
"What?! Why?!"
"I had a conversation with John and we reached an understanding...I'll be going to set a check up with the doctor and then if and when I feel better, I might not be going back to work here."
"Did he say something? Did he fire you or something? What happened?"
"No he didn't fire me but let's say I just didn't like the way he talked to me and leave it at that ok?"
"But Audry..you know how he is.....he sometimes says stupid things or just doesn't treat you right but he doesn't mean to do that...it's just his way to show he cares I guess...I don't know..."
"Yeah well maybe you're right.....I'll think about it and we'll see.....so...umm...I'll see ya ok?"
"Yeah sure....I'll sure miss ya though....take care of yourself huh Audry?"
"Yeah I will....thanx Jaime...you too."
Audry picked up her things and walked to the door. With one final glance towards the office she's been working in for the past three years which could possibly be the last, she turned around and left the building.
***
Half an hour later, the clock read 12:00 PM she stopped at a coffee shop for a nice long lunch to clear her head. She ordered her usual chef salad and a tuna sandwich and sat to eat it while pondering over the last few hours. She couldn't believe she had actually said those things to her boss and actually threatened to walk....he can't give me an ultimatum...I'm his best damn reporter...how dare he?......well, maybe Jaime was right and he was just trying to show me he cared and I blew it out of proportion.....I don't know...maybe he did maybe he didn't.....I'm tired and I may be sick and it just wasn't the best time to tell me such a thing.
Well.....gotta hand it to him though....he actually let me talk and then walk out on him like that...the face he made was priceless....A small grin appearing on her face When I get home I'll make that appointment....hopefully he'll take me first thing tomorrow morning, I hate waiting for a doctor's appointment.
With these thoughts Audry paid her bill, left a nice tip and went to her car. As she was getting into her car another flash appeared in front of her mind's eye She could see two figures looking at each other, one of them, in the bluest eyes she had ever seen, both were wearing very strange outfits, she couldn't quite see her face, It was darkened by shadows but she could see the figure's hand caressing the woman's cheek and pulling her towards her mouth.
Audry snapped out of it and found herself feeling as though those lips were kissing hers, her heart was fluttering wildly and her breath was coming in gasps. She couldn't even start to explain how this flash could cause her to feel these things when in her reality she never felt anything that came close to these feelings, now remembering the feelings that flooded her after the flash she saw in John's office, she couldn't remember ever feeling such pain as she felt when she saw that woman die in the other woman's arms. Were the flashes connected? Was the blue eyed figure one and the same with woman from the earlier flashback? She didn't know but she had to find out.....I think that if I find the connection between those two people and the other figures I remember from my dreams than I might be on to solving these things and maybe finally putting a stop to them.
***
Audry arrived home forty minutes later, she dropped her things next to the door and went to make the appointment for the doctor.
"Dr. Johnson's office, how may I help you?" asked the secretary.
"Hello, this is Audry Haven and I'd like to make an appointment for a complete check up."
"Yes Ms. Haven, one moment please..."
After several minutes the secretary got back on line "Yes....how about Tuesday Ms. Haven?"
"Umm....I'd rather have the appointment scheduled for tomorrow....It's rather urgent..."
"Well....I'll have to check with the doctor....one moment please.."
"Ok...." damn secretaries and doctor's office's....
"Ms. Haven?"
"Yes..."
"I can fit you in tomorrow at 10:00 am, how is that?"
"That'll be fine, thank you.."
"Ok, have a good day..."
"You too..."
Audry hung up the phone and threw herself on the bed, expelling an exhausted breath. Not used to be at home at such hour, she didn't know what to do with herself so she decided to watch a little TV. Flipping through the 60 channels, she couldn't find anything worth watching so she switched it off. Maybe some exercise would do me some good.... Deciding on that, she quickly changed her clothes into a loose pair of jogging shorts and tank top, picked up her keys and left for the gym. Spending a couple of hours on the machines, she took out her pent-up up frustration that has been building steadily for about a month now until exhaustion took over.
When she got home, it was already 4:00 PM so she decided to just lay around the house for the rest of the evening and maybe take a nice long needed nap.
Ch. 2
The next morning came too quickly in Audry's opinion, trying to shut the light out, she pulled the covers over her head and dozed off once again. Five minutes later, the alarm clock was ringing in her ears once more and this time she couldn't just ignore it so sleepily and slowly she got out of bed and went to take a quick shower. She had the doctor's appointment in an hour and only the drive took around 40 minutes, so she dressed quickly grabbed a bagel for the road and she was ready to go.
Thirty five minutes later, she was at the doctor's office, waiting patiently in the waiting room after registering her name at the reception desk. Another ten minutes passed and she was called in. "The doctor will be with you in a minute Ms. Haven, put this on please" said the nurse, giving Audry the hideously colored hospital gown.
The doctor entered the room, barely looking in Audry's way, his skinny bearded face buried in her file. He didn't look more than thirty, his features young but dull, a face you wouldn't distinguish in a crowd, skinny looking and weary. He greeted Audry off handedly and went to talk with the nurse for a few more minutes.
"Yes....Ms. Haven.......what seems to be the problem? You said it was urgent?"
"Yes....I've been having these....flashes I think......for about a month now.....they appear sometimes in my dreams and sometimes when I'm awake...."
"Flashes you say? What do you mean?"
"Well I don't actually know how to explain them....I see things.....something like memories maybe but I know they're not.....because of them I can't sleep well, I can't function....I'm just so tired..."
"Well....I can't say anything without running some tests so first of all I think a blood test and a CAT scan are in order....that'll give me some idea of the situation....so I'm gonna check you up now and afterwards you'll get the other tests done and by tomorrow we'll have some answers, ok?"
"Yeah ok.."
The doctor checked her up, took her pulse, took her temperature.... the usual and when he finished he sent her to the other tests. Spending almost the whole day at the doctor's office and going from the hospital and back with the tests results, Audry got home absolutely bone weary and after fixing herself a small quick dinner, she tucked herself in bed.
The next morning, Audry was well rested, not experiencing any dream the other night and she was anxiously awaiting the results of her tests.
She reached the doctor's office at the time that they set the day prior and waited patiently to be asked in by the doctor.
"Well Ms. Haven....the tests show that there is absolutely nothing wrong with you.....physically wise anyhow......I'd recommend to you to go and see a psychiatrist......maybe that'll help you because Physically there is nothing I can do for you...."
"But.....Are you sure?"
"Yes Ma'am, very sure.....I can give you the name of a great Psychiatrist if you want..."
"Well if you think that's going to help..."
"I do...I really do..."
"Ok....I suppose..."
"Here you go....her name is Dr. Alexandra Hopkins...she is one of the best, call her and tell her I sent you.."
"Thank you, I will....good bye"
"Bye, take care Ms. Haven"
As she walked out of the doctor's office her mind was ajumble with thoughts A psychiatrist? never thought I'd see the day.....well.....maybe she could help me...worth trying anyhow...
The next day Audry picked up the phone and made an appointment with this Dr. Hopkins, explaining to her briefly on the phone her problem and the course of action she'd taken up until now. The doctor listened and scheduled the appointment bright and early the next day....feeling something interesting in this case.
"Hello....you must be Audry, I'm Dr. Alexandra Hopkins but please call me Alex."
"Hi Alex."
Shaking hands with the doctor, Audry took her seat on the leather couch in front of the leather chair that was the doctor's, she assumed. The office was very nice, decorated in a very good taste. The leather couch was pressed to the wall on the far side of the room, facing the doctor's chair. Next to the couch was a large window covering almost half the wall. A little further in the room stood a large wooden hand-crafted desk with a large executive's chair behind it. The room had a few plants scattered around strategically and the floor was covered with a soft wall to wall carpet. The office basically screamed out livin' large, rich and classy, just like the woman now sitting in front of her with her Armani suit and Gucci shoes.
"Now....as you told me on the phone, I received somewhat of an impression on what your problem might be but I'd like to hear you describe it to me again please..."
Audry told the doc the same story she told the other doc once again and waited for a response.
"Hmmm.....there isn't a chance maybe that these....flashes as you call them....might be memories or things you've suppressed?"
"No....these are definitely not memories, like I told you.....I keep seeing other figures, like stories playing out in my head but they're not.....It's just that.....I feel something when I experience them....."
"Something? What exactly do you feel?" inquired the Doctor with a typical psychiatrist's expression on her face.
"I feel something.....I don't know.....like I'm a part of them.....like whatever they feel I feel too....." said Audry in an increasing exasperated tone.
"Hmmmm....interesting......" said the doctor while scribbling something down on her notepad.
"What? what is it?..."
"Oh nothing.....just some notes.....tell me more please....how was your childhood Audry?"
"What?! What does my childhood have to do with anything?!"
"Well...I'm trying to trace this disorder you have to an earlier stage in your life...."
"Disorder?! What the hell are you talking about?"
"Now Audry.....don't get upset..."
"I'm not upset, I just don't understand what my childhood has to do with these flashes I've been having as of lately? Look, I don't think this is going to work out...Maybe you're just not the person I need to help me with...whatever it is that I have..."
"But why Audry? I can help you....If you just let me in, I'm quite sure I'll be able to help you.."
"No thanx....I'll figure this out by myself from here....I'm sorry I wasted both of our times..."
"No...It's alright." Said the Doctor ruefully. "Well then.....good luck and feel better.....I'm sorry I couldn't do more for you..."
"It's fine...I'm sorry too. Have a good day."
"You too."
Upset from how things went with the psychiatrist, Audry felt helpless. She knew she isn't the type for therapy....too probing questions, about things that are not even remotely connected. She'll just have to figure this out by herself or, for that matter, find someone that could help her.
Home at last, she left a trail of clothes after herself all the way to the bathroom. A hot shower was exactly what she needed to relax her. She got into the tub and ducked under the spray of hot water. As she was washing her hair a flash hit her sleek bodies were sliding over each other, the scents of sweat and sex filled her nostrils....she heard someone moan and realized it came from her. A figure was hunching over someone's prone body and grinding into them, the scene in front of her and the sounds escaping the bodies were making the fire that was between her legs blaze hotter and stronger. Audry snapped out of it, her heart was in her throat and juices were now flowing from between her legs, sleeking her already water damp thighs. She couldn't ignore the ache that was left deep in her groin so she took matters into her own hands. She buried her hand in her wet folds and massaged her clit slowly and languidly. The spray of the water massaging her scalp as she was still under the spray, drops of water falling on her face and on her slightly parted lips, gliding over her already hard nipples. One hand still massaging her clit, the other went to knead her breast, squeezing the nipple firmly between thumb and forefinger, pinching and pulling on it then rolling it softly and slowly. Suddenly plunging two fingers deep inside herself, she let a long guttural moan escape her mouth. Her breath was coming faster and in short painful gasps. She was nearing the edge and before jumping over the precipice she added a third digit and plunged as deep as she could. A loud groan escaped her throat as she came, her whole body convulsed and trembled as her back arched and her juices now filled her hand. Stepping from under the spray she took a seat on the side of the tub to collect herself. That was one of her most intense orgasms she had ever had...not that she had much experience to begin with. She never felt so alive and so filled with lust before....she just couldn't understand what was happening to her.
Getting out of the tub and taking her time to dry herself off, she went into her bedroom to rest and to try and come up with a solution to these flashes....somehow she had to make them stop though she had to admit that she didn't mind ones like this last one...