Worthy
By Harley
(wayenken1@aol.com)
Often alone
in thought and place.
Overactive mind.
Nondescript face.
Survivor by birth.
Adapter by need.
A child in trouble -
crimes unseen.
Bitter youth -
guarded and wary.
Fearful and angry -
grown up in a hurry.
What do you see-
When you look at me?
Do you see a demon?
Do you see the need?
Do you know how I try
each and every day
to heal the wounds,
to be better in some
way?
Iıve made it this far
all on my own.
A shell of a human.
No place to call home.
Yet you look at me
as if I am more,
as if I am someone,
you look into my core.
I look away
for fear you will find
someone unworthy -
a waste of your time.
And yet your hand
caresses my cheek,
lifts my head up
so our eyes meet.
The love in your eyes
shatters my shell.
Exposed and raw
my heart swells.
I canıt stop the tears.
I canıt hold them in.
I canıt stop the pain
long held within.
Your arms hold me tight.
your voice soft and steady.
You say that you love
me.
You say I am worthy.
This canıt be real.
This is a dream.
I donıt deserve this
my mind screams.
And yet you are here
and you promise to stay.
Your lips seal the bargain.
You wonıt turn away.
© (JCE) 1/14/00
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