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Hidden Desires, Part 31

©2002 -Vertigo-

The ride home for Cayden was quick and painless. She was in a sort of haze at from the whole evening... so much had taken place. First and foremost, finally making love with Brooke. Every time this came to mind, the tall woman took on a glazed expression, a goofy smile gracing her lips. Dinner was all but forgotten, and Harriet and Bert were slowly fading into the background too. She saw visions of Brooke, laying beneath her, eyelids heavy with passion, mouth half open, soft groans filling her ears. It was a daydream she didn't want to wake up from, and one she wanted to bring to life again as soon as she could.

Abruptly broken out of her fog by the cab driver, Cayden pouted. She paid the man and slipped out of the car. She stood on the front stoop for a moment, fingering her keys absently. She made love with Brooke. The goofy smile returned and a slow warmth spread through her belly. Anybody passing by would have thought her just another lunatic as she stood there grinning stupidly, playing with her keys. But not Wade. He flung open the door and shrieked.

"I've been waiting all night! Get in here and start talking!"

Cayden jumped out of her skin, dropped her keys and growled. "What is wrong with you? Do you have any idea what time it is and you're screaming like an animal in the street."

Wade wiped Cayden's bad attitude away with his hand, and then placed it firmly on his hip. "Did you think I could wait until YOU were ready to tell me about it? Honey, I must know now... and ambush is the best policy with you."

The tall woman pushed past him and entered the building, muttering under her breath about ruining a perfectly good evening.

"Pish-tosh. Go sit down and get comfy, I already have a fresh bag of Doritos waiting." He ran ahead of her and opened the apartment door.

"Pepsi too?" Cayden asked, her favorite drink and snack food.

"Of course." Wade sat cross legged on the couch and waited patiently for Cayden to give in.

The tall woman stood in front of the coffee table, eyeing the junk food longingly. "It's too late to eat that now, I'll get agita."

Wade reached into his robe pocket and pulled out a roll of Tums. "Covered. Now sit and tell me all about it, but you know the rules. Please omit tastes, smells and textures and all adjectival phrases."

"Wade, I can't talk about this with you." Cayden began blushing, swigging some soda to cover it.

"Honey, you know I'll only get all the dirt from Jodie tomorrow so you may as well eliminate the middle man. You do know how Jodie loves to exaggerate."

Cayden coughed nervously. He had a point, there was no way in hell she would get out of it tomorrow. Jodie would harass her until her head exploded. "So, if I tell you, then will you tell Jo?"

"Mmmm.... maybe. We'll see how good you weave a tale."

"Well, it was.... it was great." Cayden began haltingly. "It was romantic, and well... great."

Wade raised both eyebrows. "That's it? It was great? Was she nervous, were you nervous... was it awkward, how did you make the first move? Who went first or did you do it at the same time?"

"I can't talk about that!" The tall woman blushed again and stuffed her mouth with chips.

"Try."

"Yes, I was nervous... she was nervous. It was awkward in the beginning, but I let her know that we could stop any time. She liked that, and it went pretty smoothly from there. Can I go into my room now?"

Wade sighed in defeat. "Yeah. I'll just have to hear the second hand news... as always. " he pouted. "Will you at least tell me about the parents?"

"Oh, that. It was weird. Her dad is cool, I like him... quiet and unassuming, but he's no slouch. Brooke is his little girl, there's no mistaking that. The mother, well, she's a piece of work. Turns out, for all her nuttiness, she's just worried about Brooke. Can't really blame her, I just seemed to pop up out of nowhere under the craziest circumstances. Anyway, I think I did good. The father, Bert, was polite enough." Cayden stopped to eat some more chips, wiping the orange residue on her jeans. "We spent some uncomfortable moments in the kitchen while Brooke and her mom ironed things out, but after all, he's pretty nice. I didn't pit-sweat or anything. I wonder what they did after I left."

"Probably talked endlessly about your fashion sense. What the hell are you wearing?"

Cayden looked at herself and furrowed her brows. The T-shirt was all wrinkled and the jeans had a hole in the knee. "It was the first thing I grabbed. If you didn't approve, you shouldn't have let me leave in the first place." she countered.

"Honey, I was still all tingly from Brooke. Girl, she is totally besotted with you. I hope you're ready for this."

The brunette took a deep breath and let it out slowly. "Wade, I sure hope I am too. Can't say that I'm not besotted with her."

Wade beamed. "I knew it!" he jumped up and ran over to hug Cayden. "How did you know?"

The tall woman grimaced and ate chips in silence, while she tried to put it into words. "Tonight... it was different. Everything felt different.. touching, holding her hand... kissing ... the feeling of it all. I can't explain it, don't make me try. All I know is that I just left her and I wish I was there."

Wade smiled knowingly. "God, Cayden. You have it! Everyone wants it! I want that too. I'm so happy for you. Of all the people I know, you deserve this the most."

"Aww, you big sissy, don't get all weepy now." Cayden teased the teary-eyed man.

"No, I mean it. I'm so happy that Brooke came into your life. Okay, so it was in a highly unusual fashion, but still, she's here now. That's all that matters."

"Yeah, but.... I don't know what to do now. What happens next?" Cayden asked, her eyes wide.

"Oh sweetie, don't worry. It comes naturally now. Only the two of you can know what comes next. Go with it."

"Pretty scary thought." The tall woman stood up and stretched.

"No one said it would be easy."

"No, no one did." Cayden walked slowly away.

Wade watched as Cayden disappeared into her bedroom. He smiled to himself, knowing that from here on in, life would never be the same.

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Surprisingly enough, Brooke was left on her own after Cayden went home, and she quietly made her way into bed. She lay there, smiling, and every so often giggling uncontrollably. She wasn't just happy, she was giddy. Cayden was wonderful, not only in bed, but she said some very important things tonight that made the blonde beam. And speaking of bed... Brooke was awed. Cayden was super, understanding, gentle and sweet. Not to mention she knew all the right spots. Sex with Cayden was a complete 360 from sex with Grant. Sure Brooke was ultimately satisfied with Grant, she made sure of that, but with Cayden, she didn't have to give instrutions, and she never wanted it to end. Cayden was soft, and silky, smooth and sexy. She smelled so good Brooke wanted to bury her nose in Cayden neck and just breathe. Her fingers were gentle when they should be, and not so gentle when they shouldn't be. There was no clumsy pawing and god, what she did with her tongue. Brooke rolled over and sighed contentedly. She began replaying the night over and a smile so big appeared, the only thing you could see in the dark room was teeth.

She tried to sleep, but it was hard. She was pretty wired and her mind kept going back to Cayden. The tall woman was so sweet at dinner, and even though Brooke was trying her damndest to seduce her, Cayden kept a semi-cool head. The blonde grinned to herself. She was very bad at dinner, driving Cayden crazy at times, and in the meantime, herself, but that's what led them to bed after all. She wasn't so sure Cayden would have made that move so soon, and Brooke was more than ready.

Brooke groaned and flipped over onto her other side. She could still feel Cayden's hands, caressing her, her lips tasting. A thought occurred to her and she sat up in bed. They were lovers now, it was official. She could call Cayden her lover, her parter, her girlfriend. Was that what Cayden wanted? Of course it is, she said so much to mom... I wonder which she would prefer. While thinking about that, another thought occurred to her. She made love to me with her mouth! I'm going to be able to do that too! Oh god...tasting Cayden.... She flopped down face first into her pillow and groaned loudly. She didn't think she'd survive the first lick. She'd never done anything like that.... never even dreamed of it before Cayden came along, and now, she was supposed to do it. Not that she didn't want to, oh she wanted to, but she didn't know the first thing about it... Damn, but to taste Cayden, do to her what she did to me. GOD! She wanted to make Cayden feel as good as she did, and she wasn't sure she would be able to. Cayden slept with women before, she knew what it felt like, Brooke couldn't just wing it. The blonde began to panic, she suddenly felt inadequate. All sorts of sexual disasters began circling around in her head until she had enough. Brooke was not afraid of anything. Taking a deep breath and relaxing she felt a bit better. Okay Brooke, calm down, there's plenty of ways to find out about this. I could read a book, watch a movie... ask Jodie. I just have to do it right!

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Cayden tossed and turned for a while, flipped the channels on the television endlessly, then finally turned on her light. Brooke was a total distraction, not in a bad way, but in a lack of sleep way. Cayden didn't mind all the wonderful images bouncing around behind her closed lids, not at all, but it sure wasn't conducive to sleep. What it was conducive to was running back over to Brooke's house and jumping into her bed. Not even to make love either, but to feel her naked skin against her own, a thought that surprised Cayden, who's not particularly fond of snuggling. Knowing that snuggling or otherwise would not go over well at all with Harriet and Bert, she decided to retrieve the bag of chips and munch. It would give her something to do, and maybe the crunching would drown out the thoughts she had now about suddenly not wanting to be alone. Turning on the living room light, she was faced with La La's ass sticking out of the open bag of Doritos.

"WADE!"

Wade came running out of his room in his boxers in a panic. "What!?!"

Cayden pointed to the scene, and as she did, La La backed out of the bag, his face covered in orange cheese dust. "That cat just fouled up my Doritos! I'm sure there's tumbleweeds of fur rolling around in there now!"

"Oh please, he doesn't eat them, he just licks the flavor off. Find the wet ones and toss them."

"WADE! Remove him!"

"Yes dear." Wade hefted the cat off of the table, sifted through the bag and threw out three chips. He glanced at Cayden who was still glaring at him, so he blew into the bag for good measure. "There, no hair."

Cayden growled. Her plans shot. "Now what am I supposed to do? I can't sleep and my munchies not only have La la fur, and drool, but you just breathed sleep breath all over them."

"There's pretzels in the cupboard."

"I wanted the Doritos!"

Wade turned up his nose. "Ew, when did you start whining? It's so unbecoming."

Cayden pouted. Just when did she start whining? "Never mind." She went and got the pretzels and plopped onto the couch. "You can go to bed now." she said with a sigh.

"You gonna be alright? Can I trust you with La La?"

"I'll be fine. And La La lives as long as he keeps his nose out of my pretzels."

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It was early Saturday morning, and Jodie was fast asleep, when her cell phone began to ring. Opening one eye slightly, she reached for the phone and brought it into bed with her. "Mmm."

"Jo? Are you sleeping? It's Brooke."

Jodie's other eye opened and she yawned loudly. "Yeah, I was sleeping, but I'm awake now. Congratulations!" She said with a smile, sitting up and stretching.

"You heard?" Brooke asked, surprised.

Jodie giggled. "Nothing escapes me. So, how was it?" She asked, shuffling into the kitchen for coffee.

"It was spectacular! Cayden is such a wonderful lover." the blonde said dreamily.

Jodie knew this information already from Wade, but she just needed to know from Brooke exactly what Cayden did to be so fabulous. She couldn't imagine her Cayden being so perfect. "Hey, why don't you tell me exactly what happened?"

"Okay, well, dinner was great. I was a bad girl though, and seduced Cayden throughout dinner." she admitted with a grin.

Jodie laughed. "You did? Oh my god, Cayden must have died!"

"Just about, she choked a couple of times." Brooke snickered. "Yeah, I really did a number on her, especially with whipped cream. She was primed and ready for the rest of the night."

"I can only imagine." Jodie tried to picture Cayden under a sensual assault involving whipped cream. She laughed again, it must have been something to witness.

"Well, anyway, it was really sweet. Cayden was nervous, probably as nervous as me, but she covered it really well. It was slow at first, but things got going rather quickly. She was so amazing, letting me call the shots and making me as comfortable as I could be." Brooke remembered the experience well and her heart began to beat quicker.

Jodie was floored. "Wow. You mean to tell me she let you take control of the situation? Even though you never did it before?"

"Yep, and let me tell you honey, that was all the incentive I needed. Cayden naked under me.... a whole lot skin to discover. Mmm, mm Heaven."

"I just can't believe it." Jodie shook her head, awed at how understanding Cayden was. Knowing how the tall woman went into this with so much trepidation, something must have changed without her knowledge. Cayden was turning out to be a real charmer. "So, what did you do?"

"Well, here's the thing, it's what I didn't do." Brooke said with embarrassment.

"Huh?"

"See, I touched Cayden, and that was amazing... wow..." Brooke became distracted for a moment. "Okay, but Cayden, well, she um, she didn't only touch me...she..."

"Oooooh." Jodie smiled knowingly. "And... how was it? Was it what you dreamed of?"

"Oh my god... better that that! But the thing is, I didn't do that to her, and I'm not quite sure I can."

Jodie pondered that. "Do you want to, or does it turn you off?" she asked fearfully.

"Oh no! I definitely want to do that, but I don't know what to do!" Brooke whined.

"Oh" Jodie snickered. "That's perfectly alright. Nothing to worry about at all."

"Jodie, I don't want to look like I haven't got a clue! Help!"

"Brooke, just calm down. Here's the thing, everyone is different, and everyone likes different stuff. You just have to ask her what she likes."

"She knew exactly what I liked!"

"Honey, judging from the hours of foreplay I'm sure anything would have been sufficient." she joked. "But honestly, nothing really to worry about. Do what you want, and believe me, you'll know if she likes it." While before Brooke, Jodie couldn't ever picture Cayden in bed with someone giving instructions, now she had a feeling things had changed.

"What if she doesn't?" Brooke worried.

"Brooke, stop worrying. I'm sure it will be fine. Trust me."

"If you say so, but I'm not convinced. Maybe I should watch lesbian porn."

Jodie snickered. "The only thing you'll learn from that is what not to do. Just relax, why don't you start out doing to her what you like done to you?"

"I suppose I could, but I only ever had it done that once, I don't know if there's anything else I like besides what she did that time." Brooke obsessed.

"Brooke! Stop worrying! I swear it will be fine! Now, go get some coffee and sit in your room daydreaming about what you did last night."

"Oooh that is a great idea. Thanks Jo."

"Anytime."

"Are you going to visit Cayden today?"

"Yes I am." Jodie was near to bursting, dying to know Cayden's side of the whole thing.

"Tell her I think she's amazing." Brooke said with a sexy drawl.

Jodie laughed. "Honey, I do that and girlfriend would melt out of the chair and die."

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Cayden was a bit sleepy when she arrived at work, but not as cranky as she should have been. Usually, when she didn't get enough sleep, everyone around her on the subway suffered her narrow eyed looks, and menacing glares, but not today. Although yawning uncontrollably, and nearly toppling over a few times when the train stopped short, the tall woman was in a rather pleasant mood. She stopped to get her usual coffee at the corner vendor, and even sprung for a bagel too. Typically, not a morning eater, Cayden was surprised at her hunger, but didn't question it. If she began to question all the new and wierd things that had been happening to her she'd wind up going crazy. Settled comfortably in her chair behind the counter, she turned on the television and got ready for the day ahead.

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Brooke awoke in a great mood, and to Harriet and Bert's surprise, was up bright and early cooking breakfast. "Good morning everyone!" She said with a smile as her parents meandered towards the smell of bacon. "Who wants pancakes?"

Harriet and Bert shared raised eyebrows.

"Well, this is a change." Bert said, sitting at the table and accepting the cup of coffee Brooke put in front of him.

"Mom, tea?"

"Yes, honey, thank you." Mrs. Hewitt retied her robe and stood there for a long moment, eyeballing her daughter, who was crumbling up a few pieces of bacon for Fred.

Mr. Hewitt sipped his coffee peacefully. "This is a wonderful surprise, Sweetheart, thank you."

"You're welcome, daddy, here." Brooke placed a plate of pancakes in the middle of the table and gave her mom her tea. "There. Now dig in." she said, sitting down to eat too.

Harriet looked sideways at Brooke, then folded her arms across her chest. "You can't tell me you didn't have sex last night."

Bert dropped his fork with a loud clang. "Harriet!"

"Well, why else would she be this, this... look at her, she's glowing!"

"Just eat your pancakes and leave her be. Sheesh, must we talk about this over breakfast?"

Brooke winked at her father and poured a generous amount of syrup on her plate. "Yes mom, I had sex last night and it was fabulous."

"BROOKE!" Harriet was horrified.

Bert winced into his coffee.

"Well, you were just dying to know, so now you don't have to guess any more. We did it, it was great and we'll do it many times over."

"BERT!"

"You asked Harriet, you asked."

"That's enough of that talk!" Harriet covered her ears and squeezed her eyes closed.

Brooke smiled evilly. "Okay then, lets eat."

"I don't know that I can now."

"Try Harriet, try."

Brooke chewed cheerfully, Fred's little head poking just above the table as he sat in her lap. "MMm, this is sooo good." She made slightly lewd noises as she chewed, earning a disgusted look from Harriet, and a warning glare from Bert. She chuckled to herself and ate the rest of her breakfast in silence.

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Jodie arrived at the shop to find Cayden sweeping the floor, singing along loudly to a commercial. "Well! Aren't you in a good mood?" She took the broom away and ushered Cayden to her chair. "Talk to me! Come on, you know you're dying to tell me. You're about to explode aren't you? "

"I am not." The brunette shook her head.

"Oh, yes you are. I know you are." Jo insisted.

"Tell you what?" Cayden asked innocently.

Jodie jumped up and down excitedly. "Everything! Tell me! Hurry!"

"Are you sure YOU aren't about to explode?" The shop keeper snickered.

Jodie flung herself on Cayden's lap and bounced up and down. "ALRIGHT! I'm about to explode! Tell me!"

The tall woman sighed. "I don't kiss and tell. Besides, haven't you already heard from Wade?""

"That lame ass story? Pulleease. You can do so much better." She got up off of Cayden's lap and sat up on the counter. "I'm all ears."

"I know, your mother should have done something about that at birth."

"Cayden!" Jodie pouted, lower lip distended and eyes fluttering. "Please."

"Oh Christ! What do you want to know?"

"How was it? Was it everything you imagined? Was she as soft as you thought? Is she loud?"

Cayden blew out a breath, knowing she'd have no choice but to talk. "Yes, she's soft, very soft, but not mushy." She made a yuck face. "I don't like mushy. She's strong, yet soft, I like that."

"Ooooo, go on."

"What?" Cayden asked curiously.

"You're gushing, I like it."

"I am not gushing. I don't do that sort of thing." The tall woman said defensively.

"Okay then, you're not gushing, you're exuding." Jo said with a grin. "Anyway, go on... what else?"

Cayden narrowed her eyes, not quite sure she knew what she was exuding, but decided not to argue. "What else? We ate dinner, we went back to my place... and you know the rest." The shop keeper attempted to get up and walk away, knowing full well Jodie would have none of that.

"Oh no you don't! You come right back here and give me details." Jodie pulled Cayden back to the chair and stood in front of her.

"God, it's like the inquisition!" The brunette complained.

"Ve haf vays of makink you talk. The sooner you spill it, the sooner I let you go."

"What sort of details are we looking at here?" Cayden wondered nervously.

"Dinner, what ya eat? Clothes, what did she wear? Sex, what was it like?"

"I had swordfish, she had steak."

"Decadent... and..."

Cayden eyed Jodie, and continued. "She was wearing this hot little sun dress thing, with those adorable shoes she had on the other day, and the flower I got her? It matched her dress perfectly. It was so cool."

"You bought her a flower? Cayden? Bought a flower?"

The brunette harrumphed. "Yes, I did, a rose in fact." She replied smugly, neglecting to tell Jodie of her meltdown in the florist. "Brooke loved it."

"Scored big did you?" Jo smiled, smacking Cayden playfully on the arm.

Cayden smiled back. "I do believe I got a kiss. Anyway, speaking of kissing, I practically attacked her in the cab, couldn't control myself, but she got me back real good in the restaurant. Whoo! She played me like a fiddle." The tall woman began to blush while remembering.

Jodi clapped her hands with excitement. "She did? What happened?"

"She put her boobs on the table, not naked! Just laid them on top of the table for me to peruse... she did bad things with whipped cream too. She knew exactly what she was doing." She chuckled at her own reactions. "I fell for it hard."

"Honey, you haven't been thinking all that much with your head lately, it's only natural that you'd fall for her boobs. Like I always say, if ya got 'em, flaunt 'em, and she's got 'em."

"Sure does." Cayden nodded in agreement, her mind going straight to those boobs and how they feel. She groaned, and closed her fists as if those boobs were right there and she was avoiding touching them. "Jo, just thinking about her does strange things to me."

Jodie smiled knowingly. "Aw, Cayd, it's normal, you slept together last night for the first time, probably replaying it over and over all morning... I bet you didn't get a wink of sleep either."

Cayden grinned sheepishly. "It happens to everyone?"

"Yeah, you're not special kiddo. However, you will be telling me more about last night. Who was on top?"

"Jo!"

"No, really!"

Cayden groaned. "At first me, but then later her. She was really nervous and I figured if I just let her have at me, she'd feel better. Quick learner that Brooke." She grinned and crossed her legs.

Jodie pointed at Cayden's knees and laughed. "Memories huh?"

"Shut up."

"So, our little Brooke knew what she was doing?"

"Yeah, she did. I mean, it was nothing fancy, I could of did the same thing to myself, but I'd be damned if it would ever feel that good."

"So it was good?"

"Didn't I just say that?"

"Did you tell Brooke?"

Cayden rolled her eyes. "Of course I did, besides, she was there Jo, she knows it was good."

"I'm just saying that because I think she feels a little insecure about it."

Cayden looked Jodie up and down suspiciously. "You think, or you know."

"I know. Cayd, it was her first time, she was worried that it wasn't good enough. She's a nervous wreck that she won't know how to please you with her tongue."

Jodie just put Brooke, pleasing, and tongue in the same sentence and Cayden had to squeeze her legs together tighter. "She is?" The tall woman was surprised. "Really?"

"Yep. So, should this discussion come up, I'm sure you'll handle it swimmingly. But you didn't hear it from me."

Cayden nodded, thinking about how Brooke must feel. How could she be insecure? She had to know that I liked what she did, I came in a second! God, all she really has to do is look at me and I'm ready. She couldn't possibly do anything wrong with her tongue. Oh god... her tongue...

"You in there?" Jodie inquired of the dazed shop keeper.

Cayden swallowed hard. "Oh yeah, I'm here. You got it, I'm becoming a real pro at calming her down lately. You would have been proud of me last night."

"So I hear! Charming, special, wonderful, spectacular... all adjectives describing you, my cranky friend. Adjectives I never thought I'd hear attached to your noun."

"Spectacular?"

"Among other things, yes. You did good." Jo rubbed Cayden's shoulder. "Real good. I'm actually proud of you for being completely out of character and treating Brooke perfectly."

Cayden blushed darkly. "Quit it! Don't you have somewhere to go?"

"As a matter of fact, yes. I do." Jo gathered her things and started to leave. "Oh, and call her today, and don't be rude."

"I thought you were going?" Cayden said with half a smile.

"Ta Ta... She of the wonderful tongue."

Cayden looked for something to throw, but couldn't find anything. "She did NOT say that!"

Part 32

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