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Hidden Desires, Part 38

©2002 -Vertigo-

Work was a breeze for Cayden. After visiting Brooke's office and seeing how the other half toils, she was very grateful to have her big comfy chair and Tv. Currently utilizing both, the shop keeper thought about what comes next. She supposed after they both admitted they love each other, that all sorts of stuff happens. While a mature adult, Cayden felt like a babe in the woods in this situation. It was a bad feeling, not knowing what to do. The only good thing about all of it was that Brooke loved her too. The tall woman frowned and sighed. Brooke was in love before, she must know what comes next. Okay, we're in a relationship, that much I know, but honestly, what now?

The bell over the door tinkled and Cayden looked up.

"Ooo, forehead wrinkles." Jodie observed. "What's cookin'?"

Cayden watched as her friend aligned some boxes on a shelf as she passed. She could talk to Jodie, so far, Jo hadn't given her any bad advice. Then again, just where was Jo getting all of this information? Jo was a run around, commitment phobic.

"Cayd? Really, what's wrong? You stay like that too long and you'll need botox."

Cayden sighed and shrugged. "I'm not so sure what's wrong."

"Well, you had to be thinking about something." Jo leaned over the counter and smoothed Cayden's forehead. "Was it dinner? Was it the parents? Did the dog pee on you?"

Cayden bit her lip.

"Come on! You know you can talk to me of all people." Jo was really intrigued.

Cayden smiled despite her shyness. "Actually everything went pretty good. Surprisingly good, even though I choked on a pea."

"Then why the forehead?'

"We said I love you last night."

Jodie wanted to jump up and down and scream, but something about this was eating at Cayden. "And, you're upset why?"

"Oh, I'm not upset, just ... confused a little."

Jodie pretended to wipe her forehead in relief. "Wow! So you both said it? Who said it first? Was it an after orgasm blurt? Did you have I love you sex?" she reached across the counter and pointed to Cayden's neck. "When did she piss on you?"

The shop keeper chuckled. "Jo, why does everyone say she pissed on me? It was a passionate thing... not property."

Jodie gave Cayden a skeptical look. "Alright, I'll buy that for now. So? Who said it first?"

"She did. At first I was a little stunned, I didn't know it was coming, but it's all cool. I didn't freak, and yes, we made love after." she said with a grin.

"Oh Cayd, this is fabulous! I'm so happy for you! Does Wade know?'

"Yeah, he knows and he pretty much said the same thing. You guys are really happy for me?"

"Fuck yeah! Honey, we're your friends, and friends only want each other to be happy. Don't you feel that way about us?"

"I guess. Thing is, I know I"m such a prick sometimes, and you guys are always there.. and now, with Brooke and all, you're still there, and you both care the same."

"Stop babbling, we'll always love you. Sure, it's a plus that we like Brooke too, but even if we didn't, i she made you happy we'd have to deal."

Cayden smiled. "Shut up, before I get mushy."

"So, tell me, what's bothering you."

"I don't know what happens now. Is something expected of me? Doesn't everything change?"

Jodie grinned. "Things only change if you want them to. The best thing for you right now is to actually talk to Brooke. Both of you need to decide what is next in the relationship. Commitment, monogamy, phone calls, dates, you both have to set boundaries... or not." Jodie snickered.

Cayden looked confused again.

"Hon, it will all fall into place. Hasn't it done just that so far?"

"I suppose."

"Don't worry so much. The most important thing is that you both have each other. Both of you are learning together, and as long as you trust each other, it should all work out."

Cayden seemed to relax. She leaned back into her chair and began to swivel a little from side to side. I walked her to work this morning."

"You did?"

"I met her outside her building and took her to work. Got breakfast too."

"You did that all on your own?" Jodie's eyes were wide open.

"Yeah." Cayden said proudly.

"See? You have nothing to worry about at all. You're doing just fine." Jodie smiled warmly at her friend.

Cayden pursed her lips in thought before speaking. "I feel like it wasn't enough. I want to be with her right now. And I mean be with her."

"Of course you do. I bet Brooke is feeling the same way right now. It'll subside after a while. Bask in it for now. It'll be something to reflect on when you're old and grey and can't get it up any more."

"Gee thanks, Jo." Cayden chuckled.

The phone rang and Jodie picked it up. "Fuzzy Belly Deli. Oh, hello there Brooke, we were just talking about you. All good. Hold a sec and I'll hand you over to blue eyed and horny."

"JO!" Cayden swatted at her before taking the phone. "Hi." She said sheepishly.

"Horny, huh?" Brooke asked with a giggle. "Just what were you two talking about?"

"Don't listen to her, she's an ass." Cayden narrowed her eyes at Jodie who stuck her tongue out. "We weren't talking about that."

"Hmm. That's too bad, because I'm just sitting here thinking about how horny I am right now."

Cayden's eyebrows shot up and she cleared her throat. "Really? Cuz, if you really want to know, me too."

"I think I may be addicted to you Cayden Riley." Brooke said in a sexy voice. "All of you."

Cayden shivered and turned her back on Jodie. "Oh really?" She purred.

"Uh huh. Especially that really tasty spot just below your..."

"Okay!" Cayden interrupted, feeling her body reacting strongly to Brooke's voice. "Uhm, so, when am I going to see you?"

"Personally, I'd like to be attached to you permanently, but since we'd never fit in my computer chair, I'll settle for tonight."

Cayden grinned like an idiot. She feels the same way! "Why don't you come to my place. Wade will be there, but I think it will be less dramatic than your place."

Brooke agreed and did some quick calculating in her head. Subway, dinner, shower, walk Fred..."How's 8:30?"

"Perfect." Cayden agreed. She scanned over her shoulder for Jodie, who was attempting to look innocent. "Can you uh, wear that... you know... from yesterday?"

Brooke laughed. "Absolutely."

"Yum. I'll see you later." Cayden closed her eyes and smiled happily.

"Wait a second here. If I wear that, you have to wear something for me too."

Blue eyes popped open in fear. "I do? What?"

"Let me think..."

Cayden squirmed. What could Brooke ask her to wear? The possibilities were endless.

"I know! You know that tank top that you wore... "

Cayden blew out a relieved breath. "That? Sure." she grinned. "You got it."

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Brooke rearranged herself on the side of Bev's desk. "And then, I see her look at me sideways, and before I knew it she was choking!" The blonde laughed.

"Priceless!" Bev giggled along with her. "Did she tell you what she saw?"

"Oh yeah, and it was amazing. I had the exact same outfit sitting in a drawer... it was a gift from Grant, a long time ago, and I never could bring myself to put it on. It just sat there. I guess it was just waiting for her. Boy, you should have seen her face when she turned around and I was wearing it."

Bev grinned knowingly. "So, I take it the rest of the evening went very well."

"Oh yeah." Brooke couldn't hide the heat in her face. "She liked it, alot." She leaned over closer to Bev. "And she wants me to wear it tonight."

Bev laughed happily. "Ah, young love. I remember it well."

"Love." Brooke repeated dreamily. "I never thought it could feel like this."

"Sweetie, are you sure Cayden is it? No regrets? No second thoughts?"

"None." Brooke replied adamantly. "None at all. I told her I love her, and she told me she loves me too. I never felt more complete in my life. It was like when she said it, I could breathe again."

Bev smiled warmly. "That's beautiful, Brooke."

"I couldn't agree more. So, I want to get out of here early today. I have so much to do before 8 and now I have to wash that thong and I don't know how I'll get it dry!"

"Blow dry it. I've done that with more pantyhose than you can imagine." Bev offered. "It works.

"Good idea! I'll do that. I gotta run. Thank you for taking care of my shit." Brooke hugged Bev and smiled. "You're the best."

"Well, when I find a hot young stud to sweep me off my feet, I know you'll do the same for me."

Brooke hugged her again, "You know I will."

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Cayden was eager to close the shop, she wanted to hurry home, and couldn't wait to see Brooke. She hurriedly counted out her register and shut the gates.

As Cayden sat on the subway, her eyes closed behind her shades, all she could think about was this talk she was supposed to have with Brooke. Did she really have to have it? Couldn't they just go on as they were? Was it really so important to do this? Now?

The tall woman made her way towards the doors as the train rolled into her station. Putting the talk in the back of her mind, she began to think about what to do with Wade. I could send him out again, but he won't go. He almost killed me after the Butch night... Hmmm. I'll feel really wierd with him in the house. Or will I? I mean, we did it with her parents right in the other room... it wasn't so bad. Then again, I hated to have to keep quiet, even more, I hated that I couldn't hear Brooke. With that thought fresh in her mind, Cayden entered her apartment, sounds of Brooke's pleasure filling her head.

Wade gave his friend an odd look as she made a beeline for the shower, not even stopping to say hello. He tapped on the bathroom door. "What happened? Did something pee on you?"

Cayden stripped down and jumped under the spray. "No, Brooke will be here soon and I want to be ready. Ah! Fuck!"

"Burn yourself?"

"No, just the opposite, I need to cool off. Now go away and let me shower."

Wade chuckled to himself. "Had to cool off? Already?" He squatted down and hefted up La La "Guess it'll be you and me bud while auntie Cayden entertains tonight." La La struggled to get away and when Wade dropped him, he ran to Cayden's room. Wade grabbed him just as he was about to lay down in her underwear drawer. After detaching a pair of panties from the cat's claw, he reprimanded him. "This is a no no. Don't you recall an Epilady threat? Trust me, with your gut, you won't look good bald."

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Still damp from the shower, Cayden struggled into the tighter than tight tank top. It rolled and twisted and pissed her off, but she finally got it on. Now it was deciding what to wear with the tank top. While searching through the drawers, Wade poppped his head into the room.

"Ooo, that's the innie tank top."

Cayden raised an eyebrow. "Innie?"

"Yeah, it's so tight, your nipples become innies."

The tall woman laughed. "I got news for ya, one kiss from Brooke, and I guarantee they'll prove you wrong."

Wade poked Cayden in the nipple. "What are they cast iron?"

Cayden just stood there, staring at Wade's finger.

"No need to get all huffy, it didn't do a thing for me." He explained.

"My nipples are off limits to you bud. How'd you like it if I poked you in the nut?"

Wade grimaced. "Okay! I got it. No more ninnie poking. So, what's the plan Stan?"

"The plan is, I have to find something to wear, other than this shirt, feed myself, and be ready in half an hour."

"Half an hour! I'll thrw together a sandwich for you, and you find pants. Oh, and don't wear the blue panties." He shook his head.

Cayden fished in her drawer and pulled out the blue panties. "What's wrong with them?" she asked, examining them. Her eyes narrowed. "Wade? Why are there several little holes in these panties?"

Wade shrugged and backed out of the room. "One ham sandwich coming up!" he announced as he fled.

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Brooke finished everything she had to do early, leaving work when she did paid off, and now she had time to kill. She sat on her bed, looking down at her clothes, a plain T shirt and shorts and giggled. It looked so normal, no one would ever guess what she was wearing underneath. Oh, but Cayden knows. I wonder how long I can sit there, with her knowing what's underneath, before she tears off my clothes? She giggled again then turned serious. Is this normal? Just wanting her naked all the time? Shouldn't we talk, or go to a movie, or something? Brooke thought about it a while, and decided to ask Jodie or Wade. Cayden wouldn't know, she was as new to this as Brooke was. Wade, speaking of him, he's there. I should spend some time with him too. Can't just run off into the bedroom. Glancing at the clock, she still had some time to waste and had an idea.

Harriet stopped Brooke from leaving. "If you're not coming home tonight, I expect a call young lady!"

"Yes, mother." Brooke rolled her eyes.

"You have work tomorrow, you can't be out until all hours. And what were you blow drying in your room for all that time?"

Brooke sighed. "My thong."

"Thong? You wear a thong? I'll never understand how anyone could wear that thing. Doesn't it chafe?"

Brooke ignored the questions. "I'll be home tonight, and I won't be out until all hours."

"Good. Now have a good time, and be careful walking the streets."

"Love you. Love you too daddy."

"What your mother said, and not the thong part."

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Cayden waved the punctured panties in Wade's face. "This new development of that hairy beast in my underwear drawer has got to stop."

"Face it Cayd, he likes you and wants to be near you. And stop waving them around, something may fall out onto your sandwich."

Blue eyes narrowed. "The only thing that will fall out of these is cat hair."

"Then it's a good thing you didn't wear them. How would you explain that to Brooke?"

"ARHG!" Cayden snatched the sandwich and stomped off to her room. "I need to put pants on."

Just as Wade popped open a beer for Cayden, there was a knock on the door. he opened it and grinned. "Hiya sexy.' They kissed and Brooke walked inside. "She'll be right out, here, have a beer." He handed her Cayden's beer.

"Thanks! It sure is humid out." she drank gratefully and sat down. "Is she in the shower?"

"No, she's shoving food down her throat and putting on pants. So! Tell me, what's it feels like to be in love with that one." he pointed to the bedroom.

Brooke giggled. "She has her moments, but I guess it's good. I know I don't want to be away from her for any length of time, and when I am with her, I cant get close enough. I want to be in her skin, but I don't want to smother her so some definite restraint is involved."

Wade opened is mouth to speak when Cayden bellowed from the other room.

"Plain ham on bread? I'm gagging in here? Where the hell is my beer?"

Wade looked sheepish and Brooke's eyes widened.

"Oh, you bad boy." The blonde got up and hurried towards Cayden's voice. She tapped on the door as she pushed it open and was pleasantly surprised to see Cayden standing there in her panties. Her back was turned and Brooke couldn't stop the wolfish grin from stealing her lips.

"Good grief Wade, I'm choking to death in here, my back is sweating and Brooke will be here any second! I need to find pants!"

"I think you look fine just like that."

Cayden spun around and blushed. "Oh, hi." she said her face turning dark red.

"It's just my opinion, but I have no complaints." Brooke handed over the beer and stood back to admire her lover.

Cayden drank, never taking her eyes from Brooke. "You're staring at me, my... it."

Brooke nodded. "I happen to be very fond of it."

Cayden chuckled. "Well, either you strip down to your panties, or stop gawping, cuz it's no fair."

Brooke made like she was going to open her pants, when Wade interrupted.

"Hey, do I have to take the hose to you two? How's about some socializing?"

Brooke frowned momentarily. "He's right you know. We should..."

"Yeah." Cayden agreed. "We'll be right out!" she yelled.

"Trust me?" Brooke asked.

The tall woman nodded, a little puzzled.

Brooke reached into the open drawer and pulled out some shorts. "Here, decision final."

Cayden grinned and put on the shorts. "Hey, do you trust me?"

"Of course."

Cayden fidgeted a little and pursed her lips. "Do you think we have to talk?"

"About what?" Brooke wondered.

"I don't know. Us?"

"What about us? Is something wrong?" Brooke began to panic.

"No!" Cayden hugged Brooke for reassurance. "Nothing like that. It's just I thought maybe, well, I don't really know.... this is like the first time... I spoke to Jo and Wade...."

Brooke cut her off. "Cayd, it's alright. Do you love me?" The brunette nodded. "Do you trust me?" another nod. "Well the same here. I think that as long as we agree on that, we can work anything through."

Cayden nodded mutely, still uncertain.

"Okay, well, what did Jo and Wade say?'

"Jo said what you said."

"Great minds and all that." Brooke grinned. "What pearl of wisdom did Wade give you?"

"Wade told me to chill out, put my big girl panties on and deal with it."

Brooke laughed. "I have a question for you. Do you think it's normal to want you every second of the day?"

Cayden's eyes widened. "God I hope so. That's how I feel."

Brooke felt instant relief. "It doesn't scare you?"

"Sure... this whole thing scares me a little, but knowing I'm not alone, makes a big difference."

Brooke stepped into Cayden's arms and rested her cheek against the tall woman's chest. Cayden's heart beat soothed her like it would a nervous puppy. She looked up into loving blue eyes and smiled happily. "You'll never be alone."

"Promise?" Cayden bent her head to meet Brooke's lips.

"Promise." Brooke whispered before her lips were claimed in a kiss filled with love, honesty and hope.

THE END

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