Chapter 8

Cory stared at the mail; she read it over and over again. Had JJ really felt her pain? It was hard to believe but then why else would JJ be mailing. Did she feel a connection? Well there was certainly something there, maybe that would explain the feelings she had when she thought of JJ. She had no idea and she was at the brink of an emotional meltdown, she needed to take her mind off her problems. She reopened the first mail and looked at the questions, well it was a start and she wouldn’t have to deal with Sam.

She hit the reply button and soon became engrossed in the topics.

Cory Williams Re: It’s me

Hi JJ,

I’m fine, but thanks for worrying! I think there definitely must be a connection as Sam and I have just had a row, nothing major but we seem to be having more lately than usual. I’m not really in the mood to go into details but I will later. You haven’t freaked me out – and it’s nice to know you care!! I’m going onto the lighthearted stuff my head feels like mush as I’ve cried myself out. I promise to tell you later!

So here are the answers to your survey!!

Favorite snack –

Has to be crisps, I think you call these chips!! I’m a sucker for anything savory, chocolates are okay but gets a bit sickly after a while!!

Football or rugby –

Well it has to be rugby! I just love watching England play. I have watched them play Wales live and the atmosphere is ace, there isn’t the violence in rugby spectating as there is in football.

Mariah or Whitney –

I can’t say I’m overly fussed although I like both their music.

Backstreet Boys or N Sync -

These haven’t really arrived in the UK – we have our own testosterone boys in the UK – Boyzone and Westlife!! Lots of pretty boys all standing simpering at the camera!!

Reebok or Nike –

Well being from the UK I have to opt for the British company so Reebok!!

Pepsi or Coke –

I’m not really a pop person – I kind of like banana milkshake but other than that I guess a good cup of tea.

Favorite Spice Girl –

A dead one!! vbg They kind of give us Brits a bad name!! No they’re okay in small doses!

Favorite body part (male or female)

Eyes, i love eyes, you can tell a lot about a person’s personality from their eyes. Mine are green but I’m partial to blue eyed people. People can disguise all their emotions but their eyes give them away.

What do you look at first in a person?

I look for what kind of person they are, they’re personality and if they can make me laugh. The eyes, which I’ve said before and their presence in a room.

Sleep with or without pajamas –

I don’t wear any pyjamas (notice I use the correct spelling <g>) - I like the feel of fresh linen on my skin and the unrestricted movement – I am a wriggler in my sleep so I just get tangled in the clothing when I do wear it.

Do you like jeans (or pants) tight on the butt or loose?

I’m definitely a Levis girls fit; they fit the bottom very nicely! Plenty of room for the childbearing hips!

Do you think Ricky Martin is just one album hit wonder or here to stay????

Oh over here definitely a one hit wonder – he’s too suave for my liking!

Wine or Beer (ale) –

If it’s got an alcohol content I’ll drink it! Not that I have a drink problem – I just like to relax occasionally! Give me a few glasses of wine and I’m anybody’s!

Cher or Bette Midler –

Ooh a hard one, both great singers, wouldn’t mind seeing Cher naked myself – not sure about Bette! They are my divas I think they’re wonderful!

Can you whistle with your fingers in your mouth?? I can't but I am learning (see how tough my day is????) Hey I just learned to whistle and now I am light headed. Vbg

Hey remember to breath!! Yes I can whistle sort of using my fingers! You definitely need a more exciting social life if this is what you get up to!

What is your favorite type of movie?

I like comedy but give me a night in with a romance or weepy film, a box of tissues and a bottle of wine and I’ll be a very happy woman. Plus if I have the love of my life by my side – what more could I ask for!

Do you like sneakers, boots or shoes? I wrote mine in order of preference!

I have no shoes!! I have about 10 pairs of trainers and 2 pairs of kickers (boots) - i live in them.

Shower or bath- I like a shower!

Shower definitely - every morning - I have my own - Sam doesn't use the ensuite much he uses the bathroom one. But I'm about to go and have a bath as i can practically plait the hairs on my legs!!!

Favorite undies--- cotton or silk (if too personal pass)

Cotton - if I'm wearing trousers i always wear a g-string as i can't stand pant lines and it's just comfier - when I'm wearing track bottoms your everyday briefs - but definitely cotton - i have a few lace no silk.

Okay my questions: I’ll try not to bore you too much!!

Any phobias?

I can't stand being alone in the house all night scares the shit out of me. I hate Daddy Long Legs (crane flies) i move out of a room if they're in one. I can only go to the toilet (if it's a solid one - blushing like hell) in my own loo!! But I am learning! It’s an expensive hobby. Sam and I went camping the other year with friends and after 3 days we had to book into a hotel just so I could go to the toilet in private! I’m just warning you should we ever meet and I send you on a long morning walk!! Which you may well do as I am quite a moody person in the mornings!

Favourite animals? I love dolphins; I’d love to go swimming with dolphins one day, a dream come true.

Any habits? I bite my nails and chatter incessantly when nervous!! Wait till we ever talk on the phone I’ll either ramble on and on about nothing in particular or go very quiet and just um and ah!!

What side of the bed do you sleep on?

Mine's the left side if you're standing looking at the bed from the bottom or the right side if you're lying in it. If I’m really honest I like the whole bed to myself – I don’t think I’m a cuddler but then I’m asleep at the time!! vbg

Does your handwriting slant?

I have a slant to the left but i hold my pen dead weird - goes back to being a lefty trapped in a right-handed body.

Favourite perfume?

CK One as it’s subtle!!

Well I'm going for a bath and to think some things over in my mind. Sam and I had a row over being affectionate. Sam and I are having difficulties when it comes to romance and intimate relations. Basically I’d like it and he won’t give me any, now I’m paranoid that he’s having an affair and going crazy! Any advice??

Take care

Cory

Cory read the mail through and sent it, she checked her watch, realised that the evening was nearly over and felt a pang of regret when she realised that Sam wasn’t going to hold out the olive branch to her. Well she’d be darned if she was going to be the first to apologise, she didn’t feel like she had any reason to apologise.

She went heavy hearted into the bathroom and poured herself a hot, bubbly bath, the aroma of the bath oil, instantly relaxed her raw nerves and she sank into the foam. Her eyelids were heavy but she resisted the temptation to sleep. Her mind was racing, but on the same track, what were her feelings for JJ. She had to admit that what she felt wasn’t just friendship, there was more but what. It was ridiculous, they’d never met, they’d never spoken but in a month she’d become an integral part to Cory’s life.

Cory spent about 30 minutes in the bath and when the water went tepid she begrudgingly got out, she’d sorted a few things out in her mind. She needed to talk to Sam but not before she talked to Angela about her feelings and last but not least she needed to talk to JJ, but what would she say?

She went down stairs, it was getting late and work was in the morning she needed to clear the air with Sam. She hated going to bed not speaking, she’d been given some advice once from a work colleague about never going to sleep with an argument lying between you and a loved one. She pushed the door open; Sam was sitting on the sofa he looked up as she entered the room.

“Fancy a cup of tea or a glass of milk?” Cory asked quietly, it wasn’t the best conversation opener but it would have to do.

“Glass of milk, but I’d rather not if you’re going to pour it over my head!” Sam grinned sheepishly at his wife.

“You might deserve it at times but think of the cost of carpet cleaning!” she ruffled his hair and smiled. Well he seemed responsive, did she risk another fight or just let sleeping dogs lie. She decided on the latter, no need starting something this close to bedtime.

She went into the kitchen, Holly followed unsure of what was happening between her two owners. Cory grabbed a glass of milk and stroked Holly as she returned to the lounge.

“I’m off to bed, I’m knackered. Are you coming or staying here?”

“I’m coming up, I’m pretty tired myself. Cor I’m sorry about earlier, i..um..I didn’t mean for you to take it the wrong way, I’m just tired and I’m sorry I upset you. I should have come up to check on you but well…. I’m not good at this emotional stuff.”

Cory looked at Sam he was struggling to find the words, apologies were hard for him to give and although she wanted to talk to him now wasn’t the time.

They both undressed in silence and slid under the covers; Sam lent over and pecked Cory on the forehead, “Night love.”

“Night Sam,” Cory sighed inwardly, but for some reason she didn’t feel empty, one sentence kept replaying over and over in her head, ‘do you feel a connection?’ and as she drifted off to sleep all she could hear was her mind saying yes, yes, yes.

Part 9

Mail Jules

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