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Chapter Eight — Conclusion
Kim stood at the admit desk looking over the board. She was waiting for Jess to arrive. They’d separated after breakfast. Jess had left Thor the previous afternoon and needed to feed him before work. She’d been pleasantly surprised when Jess had given in so easily this morning. She laughed to herself; I wonder just how long it’s going to take before she tries to take control again? Kim knew Jess too well to think she’d just docilely go along no matter what she said.
She looked up as the ER bay doors opened and Jess strolled in. Her heart picked up speed as it always did when she saw Jess. Now if I can just keep myself from giving in to her and keep my hands off of her, Kim sighed to herself.
Jess smiled brightly when she saw Kim at the admit desk. Admit it McKenna, you’re so gone on this woman.
"Hey Kim. Good morning." Jess called.
"Morning Jess." Kim followed Jess down the hall to their office. Neither woman saw one of Jess’s residents watching them. He scowled as they walked away together. Once safely inside the office, Jess pushed the door shut while pulling Kim into her arms. As Jess’s lips met hers in a passionate kiss Kim thought to herself, That didn’t take long! When Jess’s hands began to roam Kim pulled out of the kiss, stepping out of Jess’s all too enticing embrace.
"Slow down there Tiger," Kim panted as she backed away. "Slow, we agreed on slow… remember?"
Jess stalked several steps closer to Kim almost touching her. "I can do slow," she purred.
"I mean it Jess. Please. You promised." Kim was having a hard time controlling her own libido. "This is really important."
Jess looked contrite. "I know. I promise. I’ll try to behave."
Kim stepped into Jess’s arms kissing her softly on the lips. "This means a lot to me Jess. I want us to be together always. We need to do this so that’s possible."
"I know," Jess sighed hugging Kim lightly. "I want that too. It’s just hard to give up my sense of always being in control. But, I know I need to do that to move on from my past. I’m trying."
"I know you are, but it’s not about me being in control it’s about sharing ourselves with each other and trusting each other. I know your head knows you can trust me but your heart needs to believe it too. We’ll get through this together. Just be patient. You did great this morning." Kim reassured.
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Kim lay in bed unable to sleep. She could feel the heat of Jess’s body pressed against her back. Jess had come around much quicker and easier than Kim had thought possible. Everything had changed the night Jess told her about her past. She’d let Kim into a place no one had ever been before. From there it had just taken patience on Kim’s part to help Jess lower that finally barrier between them. She laughed softly to herself remembering the other night when she’d offered Jess a massage.
"Come on Jess, it’ll feel good." Jess looked a little hesitant but approached the bed to lie down on her stomach.
"Wait Jess," Kim said stopping her. "Take your clothes off."
Jess’s eyes widened in surprised for just a second, and then she smirked at Kim, her eyes sparkling. "Sure," Jess said before beginning a slow striptease. Kim knew exactly what Jess was thinking. It’d already been over a week since they had made love. Kim fought her growing arousal but was determined to keep things under control. Things were going so well. If she allowed Jess to take control now it would put them right back where they started. Jess was reaching for her boxers when Kim stopped her again. "You can leave those on."
Jess started to protest but one look at Kim changed her mind. She meekly lay down on the bed on her stomach. Jess forced herself to breathe calmly when Kim straddled her hips. She knew Kim would never hurt her. The longer Kim massaged the more aroused Jess became. Kim moved down to massage her legs. Jess thought she was going to spontaneously combust when Kim’s hands slid up to knead the muscles of her thighs. Jess couldn’t believe she was so aroused while lying passively on her stomach. She spread her legs open slightly hoping Kim would take the hint but her hands never moved any higher. Kim moved again. This time she stretched out fully on Jess’s back pinning her to the bed. Jess was so aroused she never gave a thought to her position. She groaned when Kim’s lips brushed her ear. "Feels good doesn’t it?" Jess nodded her agreement. She was disappointed when Kim rolled off of her. "That’s enough for tonight. How about some dinner?" Kim asked as she headed for the door.
Kim laughed again remembering the pout on Jess’s face when she’d rolled off her. She snuggled into the warm body behind her finally drifting off to sleep.
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Jess sighed as she switched off the movie they’d been watching. Kim was asleep in her new favorite position on top of Jess. Jess leaned down softly kissing the crown of her head. The last three weeks had been both rewarding and incredibly frustrating. Kim had refused to escalate their intimacy no matter what Jess tried. At first she went along with it, working at not tensing up when Kim would slide on top of her. After the first week she had unconsciously tried to take control of the situation. Making sure she was the one to pull Kim on top. Kim had quickly realized what she was doing and put a stop to it. Just my luck to fall for a psychiatrist, Jess groused to herself. When Jess tried to take control Kim would just refuse to budge. Once Jess gave up then Kim would slide on top, wrapping her arms around Jess’s chest and snuggling with her. Jess admitted to herself she was finally to the point she didn’t automatically stiffen and actually enjoyed the feel of Kim’s body pressing down into hers. Kim had taken to giving Jess massages at night, it was heavenly and torture at the same time. Each day that unconscious reaction to being touched and being passive had lessened.
She was about to explode from the frustration though. It had been three weeks since they’d made love though they slept together every night. Jess did acknowledge that they’d gotten even closer by taking sex out of the equation. They hadn’t been dating long when they slept together that first time. Jess was honest enough with herself to admit she’d used sex to sidetrack Kim when the discussions turned to her past. She found herself opening up even more to Kim telling her about her experiences in high school and the feelings of isolation she’d experienced as a teenager and even later in life. Kim had also opened up to her telling her of her past relationships and admitting when anyone had become too serious she found a reason to break it off and run. Both of them had shared their greatest fears and worries and come away stronger as a couple.
Kim shifted position in her sleep and Jess groaned as Kim’s thigh slipped between her legs and pressed against her center. Jess couldn’t help it her hips began to rock trying to increase the contact. Jess’s hands slid down of their own accord cupping Kim’s butt and pressing her tighter into her. Kim’s eye’s fluttered open and it took her a minute to realize what was happening. She debated with herself as her own arousal rose whether she should stop Jess or not. Jess had always been unresponsive when Kim was on top. As much as she didn’t want to she knew she should stop them. She lifted up her head, Jess’s eyes were tightly closed her face plainly showing her arousal.
"Jess… Jess," Kim called softly. She reached up cupping Jess’s face in her hand as she shifted her leg from between Jess’s. Jess groaned in frustration refusing to open her eyes. Her hips had stopped moving but Kim could sense the coiled tension in her body.
"You’re killing me here," Jess complained.
Kim laughed softly. "It’s not like you’re the only one aroused here Jess. But, this isn’t how I want our first time together to be, with me asleep."
Jess finally opened passion filled eyes. "You’re awake now."
Kim lightly cupped Jess’s face while kissing her lightly. "Do you realize what just happened here?"
"Don’t you mean what almost happened?" Jess groused.
"Look at us Jess." Jess looked at their position. Kim was lying completely on top of her. "A few weeks ago you would’ve panicked if I was in this position now you almost climaxed with me on top of you."
"I would’ve too if you hadn’t stopped me." Jess grumped.
Kim hugged Jess tightly. "I’m so proud of you Jess, we’re almost there."
"I was almost there alright," Jess growled under her breath. "I swear Kim if we don’t make love soon I’m going to take matters into my own hands!" Jess had actually considered it but couldn’t bring herself to do it. She wanted to wait for Kim.
Kim laughed before leaning down to purr in Jess’s ear. "Can I watch?" Jess blushed hotly as images filled her brain. She hid her flushed face against Kim’s neck.
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Kim was thrilled as they made their way into Universal Studios. She hadn’t been there in years. Jess checked out the brochure for all the new shows.
"I haven’t been here since I was a kid," Jess exclaimed excitedly. Grabbing Kim by the hand she led her to all the different displays and shows.
It’s wonderful to see Jess so relaxed and playful, Kim thought as they stood outside one of the shows waiting to go in. Kim glanced over at Jess just in time to see her half smirk appear. Kim knew immediately something was up. She felt something brush against the back of her neck. She brushed it away then noticed that Jess was now openly grinning at something behind her. Kim turned around and screamed. She couldn’t help it. Standing directly behind her was a seven-foot tall very alive Frankenstein monster. When it raised its arms and attempted to grab her she jumped into Jess’s arms without thinking. Kim blushed as the crowd around them all laughed. "Don’t worry. I’ll protect you," Jess told her laughing. It didn’t dawn on her until later that Jess hadn’t even flinched or seemed the least bit uncomfortable holding her in front of all those people.
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The day had been wonderful. Jess had been incredibly playful and loving. Kim smiled to herself remembering her run-in with Frankenstein. Jess had gone out to pick up takeout and Kim was setting the table. She jumped slightly as two arms wrapped around her from behind. "Sorry, didn’t mean to scare you." Jess said as she began to trail kisses down Kim’s neck.
"I was just remembering my encounter with Frankenstein. You could’ve warned me you know."
Jess laughed, "What’s the fun in that? Besides then I wouldn’t have gotten to protect you."
Jess went back to kissing Kim’s neck, slowly working her way down to the buttons of her shirt. She turned Kim in her arms and began to kiss the exposed skin of her neck and upper chest. Her fingers went to the buttons of Kim’s shirt. Kim groaned lightly as her skin became flushed. Jess’s eye’s came up to meet Kim’s. Food forgotten, Kim read the message in her eyes; there would be no more waiting. Kim took Jess by the hand and led her back into the bedroom. She stopped next to the bed turning to face Jess.
"Are you sure?" she questioned softly.
Jess stared deeply into Kim’s eyes willing her to read the truth in them. "I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life."
Kim smiled as she stepped into the circle of Jess’s arms. "I love you Jess."
"I love you too Kim." That was the last thing either woman said as they began to undress each other. Once nude they lay down on the bed facing each other. Kim leaned in pressing her breasts lightly against Jess’s, kissing her softly. They kissed and caressed each other, neither attempting to escalate things. Finally Kim gently eased Jess onto her back. Kim remained at her side making eye contact before going any further. Jess met her gaze. Kim could see Jess was a little nervous but she also saw excitement and trust in Jess’s eyes. Keeping eye contact she slowly slid on top of Jess. As Jess’s eyes closed her body started to tense. "No Jess. Open your eyes. Look at me." Kim insisted.
As soon as Jess made eye contact again, all the tension drained from her body. This was Kim. She would never hurt her. Jess felt herself becoming more aroused as she enjoyed the sensation of Kim’s nude body on top of hers. She smiled at Kim, letting her know she was ok. Kim kept eye contact with Jess as she began caressing her. When Jess began to respond Kim slipped her leg gently between Jess’s thighs making contact with her center. Jess gasped at the touch. She couldn’t believe she was so aroused with Kim on top. She forced herself to stop thinking about it and just enjoy the feelings. Kim tried to keep Jess’s gaze on her as she moved down slightly and replaced her fingers with her mouth on Jess’s breast. Jess was in heaven, nothing had ever felt this good. It really felt like it was the first time she’d ever made love and all the sensations were new. Kim watched as the intense pleasure she was feeling showed on Jess’s face. Her own arousal soared knowing Jess was letting her make love to her fully for the first time. Jess’s hips began to buck against Kim’s thigh. Kim moved just enough to give herself access. Her hand moved down Jess’s abdomen and into the heat and wet that awaited her. Jess’s hips bucked hard at the first touch and she spread her legs open wider. Kim caressed the slick warm folds beneath her fingers. She knew Jess wasn’t going to last much longer. She slid her fingers down further poised just outside Jess’s entrance. She made contact with Jess’s passion glazed eyes. Her eyes questioned and Jess answered with a slight nod of her head. Kim watched as Jess struggled to keep her eyes open. She intensified her caresses rubbing the now throbbing nub harder. As Jess went over the edge Kim slipped inside her, the inner walls clutching at her fingers. Jess’s back arched as she cried out. "Oh God Kim!" Before the tremors of Jess’s climax stopped Kim began to slowly slide in and out of her. Jess gasped and her hips picked up the rhythm. When Kim brought her thumb into play Jess climaxed again stronger than the first time. Kim lay panting on top of Jess. She’d climaxed when Jess had the second time. She moved to Jess’s side and started to slowly remove her fingers. "Wait," Jess stopped her. "Please stay there for a minute." Kim gladly complied. She looked up at Jess seeing the tears on her face. "Are you Ok sweetheart? Did I hurt you?"
"No you didn’t hurt me… It felt so incredible… It’s never been like that before… I mean it always felt good but nothing like that. I think I left my body for a minute there." Jess said in amazement.
Kim beamed proudly. "I’m so glad. It makes me very happy to know I was your first." Jess blushed lightly. She moved closer to Jess. Jess gasped loudly when Kim’s fingers moved inside her. Kim slowly slipped her fingers out. Jess’s eyes sparked with renewed arousal.
They spent the rest of the night exploring each other and their newfound bond. For the first time in her life Jess actually understood what it meant to make love together, each sharing with the other.
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Kim and Jess strolled into the ER arm in arm. Both women were exhausted but deliriously happy. Many of the Staff gawked in amazement at the two women. Everyone smiled when Jess greeted them. One person was not happy seeing the two women together. He had become obsessed with Kim since she’d become the Psych Attending of the ER. Kim herself had told him she was gay after he repeatedly asked her out. He didn’t believe it. He had watched the blooming relationship between the two with growing anger. Two women just couldn’t be serious about each other. Only men and women belonged together. He was convinced Kim had just not met the right man… him. He had always been successful with the ladies. His blond good looks had always won them over. He knew if he could just get Kim to give him a chance she would dump Jess in a heartbeat. She’d been friendly with him when she first arrived in the ER but now she avoided him whenever possible. He knew it had to be McKenna’s fault. Everything will be fine, I just have to convince Kim to give me a chance, he thought to himself.
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Kim headed for the lounge hoping there was fresh coffee brewed. The day had been hectic and she was exhausted. Of course the fact that Jess and I made love all night and got very little sleep might have something to do with it, she chuckled to herself. As she made herself a cup of coffee her mind drifted back to the previous night. The night had turned out better than she’d ever imagined. Jess had been wonderful, opening herself to Kim for the first time giving herself freely. She was so engrossed in her memories she didn’t hear the lounge door open and someone slip in. She became aware of them when they lightly pressed her against the counter. She knew right away it wasn’t Jess. She moved away and turned to face Peter Blankenship.
"What do you want Peter?" she asked harshly. This guy just wasn’t taking no for an answer. Kim had tried being nice but he just didn’t seem to get it. She had repeatedly turned him down when he asked her out, telling him several times that she was a lesbian. Nothing seemed to dissuade him and she was getting angry. She had managed to avoid being alone with him for several weeks. Now she was trapped in the lounge with him. She tried to step around him to leave. He stepped in front of her blocking her path.
"Don’t be like that Kim." He pleaded. Kim again tried to step around him. He blocked her again stepping closer forcing her to step back to avoid contact with him. He kept coming until she was pressed back up against the counter.
"Get out of my way Peter!" Kim demanded.
Peter stepped forward pinning Kim against the counter. "Now don’t be like that… we could be so good together… just give me a chance." He whispered in a cajoling voice. Kim began to struggle in earnest trying to get his weight off of her.
"Get off me!" she yelled.
Peter’s weight was suddenly gone. He yelped as he was jerked across the room by the back of his lab coat. He struggled to get away but couldn’t free himself from the hand gripping the back of his neck and coat. He was spun around coming face to face with a raging Jess. She lifted him up until his toes were barely touching the ground.
"What the HELL do you think you’re doing?" Jess shouted. She was furious. She knew the resident had asked Kim out several times but never realized he was still pursuing her. She spun him back around until he was facing Kim across the room.
"See that woman?" Jess shook him angrily "She’s going to be my wife and if you ever touch her again I’ll break every bone in your body!" Jess snarled.
"Do you understand?" Jess shook him again. It was taking every bit of control she had not to rip him limb from limb. "Do you understand?" She demanded again. Peter’s toes were still barely touching the ground as Jess held him aloft.
"Yes," Peter finally managed to whisper around the tight hold Jess had on his neck.
"Good, now get out of here!" Jess shoved him toward the door and he bounced off it from the force of her push. He quickly righted himself and ran out the door.
Jess stood in the middle of the floor, her hands tightly clenched at her sides. When she’d stepped into the lounge and saw Kim pinned against the counter by Peter she had just seen red. She had wanted to beat the arrogant little bastard to a pulp.
Kim approached Jess hesitantly. She’d seen Jess angry but had never seen her so completely enraged. It scared her. She slowly reached out, stroking Jess’s arm trying to calm her. When her body started to relax slightly, Kim stepped into Jess’s personal space and wrapped her arms around her waist. Jess’s body was vibrating with tension.
When Jess felt Kim’s arms go around her, the anger drained from her body, replaced by concern. Her arms came up hugging Kim tightly to her chest. "He didn’t hurt you did he?" Jess asked her voice cracking with strain.
"No he didn’t hurt me; my hero showed up and rescued me." Kim said trying to lighten the mood.
Jess hugged Kim tighter. "I’ll file a formal complain against him and submit it to the Residency Review committee. I’m sorry but I don’t think it’ll be enough to have his residency terminated."
"No need to get that drastic Jess. I don’t think he’ll be bothering me again." Kim didn’t want Jess to have a resident disciplined on her account.
"No, I insist. What if I hadn’t come in when I did…how far would he have gone?"
"You’re right Jess, I’ll sign a complaint." Kim rested her head on Jess’s chest, neither woman speaking. It just felt good to feel safe. Suddenly Kim remembered what Jess had said to Peter. Her eye’s widened and she pulled back from Jess.
Jess looked down at Kim wondering what was wrong.
"Did you mean it?" Kim asked nervously, she prayed Jess meant it and hadn’t just said it in the heat of the moment.
Jess was totally lost. "Mean what Sweetheart?"
"That I was going to be your wife."
Jess gulped nervously. "I was hoping to ask you in a little more romantic setting but yes I meant it… If you’ll have me?"
Kim couldn’t believe it. Jess was asking her to marry her. She was speechless. Jess was starting to panic thinking she’d made a mistake. Kim wasn’t saying anything, just staring at her.
Kim noticed Jess was starting to look panicked and realized with a start she hadn’t answered her.
Kim jumped into Jess’s arms hugging her tight. "Yes. Yes I’ll marry you!"
Jess looked down into Kim’s eyes seeing the love shining there before taking her lips in a searing kiss.
Epilogue — Two Years Later
Jess sat in a conference room at the Hotel Del Coronado waiting for Kim’s lecture to begin. They were attending a CME meeting for Emergency Room Physicians in San Diego. Kim had been asked to present her findings on the effectiveness and overall cost saving of a permanent ER Psych Attending position. She’d been compiling data on the usefulness of the position for almost two years, proving the cost savings were worth the initial cost of adding the permanent position. Jess listened to the introduction and couldn’t help smiling as her wife walked across the stage. Kim had just started her lecture when a latecomer tried to move past Jess into the seat next to her. Jess pulled her long legs back as far as she could to let the woman pass. As the woman moved past Jess her leg brushed hard against Jess’s leg. The woman quietly apologized as she settled into the seat next to her. Jess met the woman’s brown eyes and smiled. "No problem." During the lecture Jess glanced over at her neighbor, the woman seemed mesmerized by Kim’s speech. When the lecture was over and Kim stepped out from behind the podium Jess heard the woman next to her gasp. "Oh My God!" Jess turned quickly seeing the stricken look on the woman’s face. Jess frowned, the woman seemed familiar but she couldn’t place from where. She glanced down at her nametag and managed to hold back her own gasp of surprise. Sharon Wilson… I’m sitting next to Sharon Wilson. Jess thought incredulously. She quickly pulled herself together realizing what had caused Sharon’s shocked gasp. She grinned spitefully to herself.
Sharon couldn’t believe her eyes. She had seen Kim’s name in the conference brochure and just had to attend. It’d been over two years since they’d seen each other. Sharon admitted in the back of her mind she’d hoped this would be a chance to renew her relationship with Kim. No one had ever touched her heart and soul like Kim had. Now she knew she should never have come here.
Jess stood up blocking Sharon in place. She spoke to the person next to her about the lecture. Sharon was drawn unwillingly into the discussion. They moved out into the hallway continuing their conversation. She didn’t want to be rude and the lecture had been interesting when she’d been able to drag her eyes away from Kim. If anything she was even more beautiful than Sharon remembered. In the course of the conversation Jess finally introduced herself to the two women. "I’m Jess McKenna. I head the ER at LA Metropolitan in Los Angeles." The other woman introduced herself. "I’m Carol Baker. I work in the ER at Temple University in Philadelphia." Both women turned to Sharon expectantly. "I’m Sharon Wilson. I head the ER at County Memorial in Detroit." Handshakes were exchanged.
The women continued to discuss the lecture until Carol excused herself saying she was supposed to meet her husband for lunch. Jess and Sharon spoke for several moments after she left. Jess felt a hand on her back and knew exactly who it was. She turned slightly putting her arm around Kim’s shoulders bringing her against her side. Sharon stuttered to a stop mid-sentence. Jess felt Kim tense when she recognized Sharon. Jess met Sharon’s shocked gaze. "I think you know my wife, Kim." Jess said by way of introduction. She knew she was being cruel but couldn’t help herself. She placed her hand on Kim’s bulging abdomen and felt the baby kick. "Active little thing isn’t she?" She asked Kim softly. Sharon watched enviously. Jess smiled at Kim as she lightly rubbed her stomach. Kim finally found her voice; she was shocked to come face to face with Sharon Wilson. She forced herself to smile politely. "How are you Sharon?"
Sharon’s mind was whirling, Kim had married an ER Chief and was now expecting. Her eyes went to the large hand slowly stroking Kim’s belly, seeing the wide platinum wedding band. It was all too much to take in.
"Good… I’m good," she stuttered." Her heart was breaking seeing a so obviously pregnant Kim with someone else.
Jess watched the two women awkwardly interact. Suddenly she felt bad. She shouldn’t be angry with Sharon Wilson. If not for Sharon’s fear and betrayal, Kim wouldn’t be here with her now.
As the uncomfortable conversation trailed off Jess stepped in. "Kim we should go, you need to rest."
"Goodbye Sharon. Nice to see you again." Kim knew if it wasn’t for Sharon’s actions in Detroit she wouldn’t be here now with Jess and about to give birth in a few short weeks. Her anger over Sharon’s betrayal had long since passed. She could see the pain in Sharon’s eyes but knew there was nothing she could do to ease it.
"Goodbye Sharon. Nice to meet you," Jess said before walking away with Kim, her arm firmly wrapped around her back.
Sharon watched with an aching heart. The tears slowly trailed down her cheeks as she realized all she’d truly lost.
THE END
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