Disclaimers:  Yeah, yeah...    I don't own them.  I never  did.  If I had, there would be no need  for this story.  No copyright  infringement or profit intended. 
      
    Violence:  About average for a XWP installment. 
    Sex:  This story contains women in loving, sexual relationships.  If this is illegal where you live, well,  sorry...   If you're hiding the fact that  you're reading this from your mother, you should probably move on, although I'm  fairly certain you won't.  Kids these  days...  
    Timeline:  This is the only post-FIN story I've  written.  I anticipate it will be the  last. 
    Author's  note:  I really struggled with this  ending, so I wrote two different ones.  I  would be very interested to know what you think. 
    Love's Last Gift -  
      The Other Ending
    By 
  Mykel Taylor O'Connor 
  goesome@mindspring.com 
       
    Tyro  watched from a distance as her queen silently faced the sunset from the edge of  the village.  It was a sad ritual that  the petite blonde had observed daily since her return. 
    It  had be nearly two years since Gabrielle watched her beloved Xena fade with the  setting sun.  Five moons ago she had  returned to her Amazon sisters before the winter Solstice.  At first, the long winter nights were passed  with tales of her travels to the Land of the Pharaohs and  other fantastic places around the world.   But as the moons carried on, her evening vigil betrayed her otherwise  carefully hidden pain. 
    Cyane  wrapped her arms around Tyro's waist from behind and joined her in observing  their friend.  "Do you think her heart  will ever heal?" 
    "No.  I don't," Tyro replied in her typical matter  of fact tone.  "I don't think anyone gets  over a love like that.  Especially if  they don't want to... " 
     
    Cyane  leaned her chin on her lover's shoulder and looked up at her.  "What do you mean?" 
    "You've  heard the tales from her travels, the places she's been and the battles she  fought.  She's spent moon after moon  trying to get killed." 
    The  regent's face registered shock, then sighed deeply and kissed the shoulder  before her.  "That hadn't occurred to me,  but I suspect you're right.  The things  she's done since... "  Her voice trailed off  as she mentally replayed the exploits of Gabrielle's travels after she left  that isle across the sea from Chin. 
    "And  she still carries that jar with Xena's ashes in it.  She says that she wants to return them to  Amphipolis, but passed within a day's walk of there on her journey here."  Tyro looked over her shoulder at beautiful  hazel eyes clouded with concern.  "I  think she came here to wait for death.  The  death of Xena created such a fierce warrior that now she can't find anyone  skilled enough to kill her, so she came here to help protect the only thing she  still cares about." 
    "The  Amazon Nation... " Cyane deduced. 
    With  that they both turned in time to watch Gabrielle cross toward the queen's  hut.  The sun had abandoned her again. 
    ***** 
    The  spring season brought a flurry of activity.   .  The crops were planted in the  fields and the last remnants of winter were cleared away from the village.  The mood always seemed to lift as the days  grew longer and the women could spend most of their days in the sun. 
    Tyro  began the younger warriors' training again.   The physical exertion and rusty skills brought a steady stream of sore  or pulled muscles and minor injuries through the healer's hut.  Cyane observed that Gabrielle was often  helping the healer, but never went near the training fields.  She would watch her young warriors from a  distance, but never ventured close enough to be called into the fray.  Her only training was done at the end of the  day with Tyro; she never allowed an audience. 
    One  day a signal came from the border sentries that a stranger had requested an  audience with the queen.  The woman was  escorted into the village, her numerous weapons confiscated by the guards.  She was taken to the council hut where  Gabrielle, Cyane, and Tyro were waiting, along with several other members of  the council. 
    The  young warrior approached the long table and dropped to one knee; her head remained  bowed from the time she entered the hut. 
    "Who  are you?" asked Cyane. 
    "I  am Janae.  I am from the remnant that  remains of the Northern Amazons." 
    Gabrielle  took over the conversation.  "Rise Janae,  and welcome, Sister." 
    The  young woman stood slowly.  She was about Tyro's  height, with long auburn hair.  Her  shoulders were broad; her arms were powerfully muscular and her stomach was  chiseled with definition.  She stood on  thick, powerful legs.  After surveying  the room, she chanced a look at the fabled Queen Gabrielle with dark brown  eyes.  She knew the queen was studying  her, but it felt more like appreciation than observation as those eyes passed down,  then up her long legs, lingering just a heartbeat longer than was necessary.  The queen seemed to shake herself silently  from her stare to meet Janae's gaze. 
    The  eyes that awaited her were so intense that it made Gabrielle  uncomfortable.  The woman was extremely handsome.  The knowledge that she had been caught  admiring the young warrior's body caused a flush of heat to sweep across her  face.  Still, she maintained her  composure.  "What brings you to our  village, Janae?" 
    "I  come bearing a request from my regent."   She handed one of the guards a scroll, which was relayed to Gabrielle.  "I was to complete my training before the  Summer Solstice.  But now our weapons  master is with child." 
    Gabrielle  looked confused.  "Is there no one else  in your village to finish your training?" 
    "There  is no one strong enough to provide me with the appropriate challenge to test as  a master."  The statement should've  sounded arrogant, but didn't coming from her.   "And I have not completely finished my training with the sword or  staff." 
    Mention  of a staff caused Cyane to glance cautiously at her friend.  Gabrielle had not picked up her staff since  placing it in the corner of her hut upon her return. 
    Janae  continued, "My regent says that your village has the reputation of possessing  the finest weapons masters in the long history of our nation... " 
    Tyro's  chest immediately puffed out slightly, causing Cyane to grimace remorsefully.  She would be impossible to live with for  weeks. 
    "... and  it is said that the Queen of the Amazons is unmatched in her skill with a staff,  as well as other weapons."  She paused,  seeming to reconcile the tales she had heard with the small woman sitting  before her.  Her hair was short and she  wore traditional Amazon leathers beneath a soft leather jacket that hung open  in the front. This showcased defined abdominal muscles and beautiful, round  breasts.  Under the table she could see  the outline of muscular legs and shapely calves.  Identical weapons were visible from the top  of her boots.  There were scars on her  body that were not old and a look in her eyes that was sad and weary at the  same time.  It was a strange  combination...   "I have come, with your  permission, to finish my training." 
    Gabrielle  shifted slightly, uneasy under the intense scrutiny of her body by the young  warrior, however subtle it might be.   Setting old familiar stirrings aside, she raised her head regally and  announced, "You are welcome, Janae, to our village and our training.  What you have heard of our weapons master is  correct; there are few in the known world that could defend themselves and our  nation as lethally and effectively as Tyro.   She will finish your training." 
    "Tyro,  please get our guest settled.  I am sure  she is hungry and tired from her journey.   You may begin her training tomorrow."   Tyro gave Gabrielle a firm nod and then stood to escort her out of the  room, followed by the crowd as they moved to resume their daily activities.  Janae glanced back through the crowd once at  Gabrielle as she exited. 
    Gabrielle  and Cyane sat in silence for what felt like a long time.  "She looks to be a formidable warrior," Cyane  finally observed. 
    "Yes.  She looks to have that potential." 
    Cyane  decided to risk a further comment.  "She  is also very attractive, isn't she?"  She  unconsciously held her breathe waiting for a response. 
    "I'm  sure there will be a line of our young women to vie for her attentions." 
    "It  didn't seem to be their attentions that she was interested in," this was  dangerous territory and Cyane knew it, "although you certainly held her  interest." 
    Gabrielle  laughed out loud.  It was a sincere  laugh; one of the few she had heard from the queen since her return.  "Is this my future, my friend?  You plan to matchmake me with every new face  that ventures into our village?" 
    "Gabrielle... " 
    "It's  alright, Cyane.  But I have had my  love.  I am not interested in finding  another." 
    "You  could never replace Xena.  I know  that.  We all do.  But surely that doesn't mean that you have to  spend the rest of this life alone." 
    "Yes,  Cyane; it does... "  And with that Gabrielle  rose and returned to her hut, where she remained the rest of the evening. 
    ***** 
    After  dinner, Tyro unlaced her boots as she sat on a stool by their fireplace.  "Is Gabrielle feeling alright?" 
    "As  far as I know; why do you ask?" 
    "She  didn't come to dinner tonight.  It's  unusual for her to not dine with a guest on their first evening in the  village." 
    "Well,  I suspect she had her reasons."  Cyane replied  coyly. 
    "What  reasons?" 
    "It  could be anything.  I don't know." 
    Tyro  dropped a boot by its mate on the floor and turned squarely to face her  lover.  "Yes you do." 
    "How  should I know why she didn't come to dinner?"   She had stated that a little too defensively and she knew it.  "Maybe she wasn't hungry." 
    "Gabrielle?  Our Queen?   Not hungry?  When was the last  time that happened?"  Tyro paused and  then answered her own question.  "Never." 
    Cyane  stood to prepare herself for bed, trying to look busy as she moved around the  room. 
    "Cyane,  sit down." 
    She  turned on Tyro.  "Since when do I take my  orders from you?" 
    "Since  you know something about Gabrielle that you're not telling me...   Now what's going on?" 
    Her  plan executed perfectly, Cyane crossed the room and sat in the lap of her  partner.  "You didn't notice anything  after she proclaimed you one of the greatest weapons masters in our history,  did you?" 
    "Like  what?" 
    She  laughed at the defensive tone and kissed the closest cheek sweetly.  "Like the tension between Gabrielle and  Janae?" 
    "What  tension?" 
    Cyane  continued to chuckle as she ran the fingers of her right hand through Tyro's  hair.  "The sexual tension, Silly!" 
    "The...   Are you sure?" 
    "Oh,  I'm sure.  I talked to Gabrielle after  everyone else left." 
    "And  she's interested in Janae?" 
    "She  says she not... " 
    "But  you suspect she is.  Why?" 
    "Did  you notice the way Gabrielle examined Janae as she stood before her?  And the way Janae scanned every inch of  Gabrielle she could see?" 
    Now  Tyro was really confused.  "I didn't  think they were checking each other out; I thought they were just sizing each  other up." 
    "Oh,  they were sizing each other up alright.   Janae was sizing up Gabrielle's breasts and Gabrielle was extremely  interested in Janae's legs."  Cyane  laughed out loud and then kissed her partner on the lips.  "You really are clueless sometimes." 
    "Gabrielle  stared at Janae's legs?" 
    "Yes,  dear, and Janae more than returned the favor." 
    "She  did?" 
    "She  did...   None of us look at Gabrielle that  way because we all know her past.  But  Janae doesn't."  Cyane loving caressed Tyro's  face.  "It's been a long time since  someone looked at our friend that way." 
    "What  way?" 
    It's a good thing she's a weapons  master, because she has no skill in observing people she is not going to fight. "Janae looked at her like a woman." 
    "She  is a woman... " 
    "Oh,  honestly!  How did you ever get me to  fall in love with you?"  Cyane stood up  and stalked toward their bed.  "Janae  looked at Gabrielle like she is a beautiful woman with whom she might want to  have sex!" 
    "Oh!"  exclaimed Tyro as the pieces finally fell into place.  "Do you think Gabrielle will give her a  chance?" 
    "I  don't know."  Tyro could see her partner  thinking something through.   "But if I  get the chance, I'm certainly going to push our queen in that direction... "  With that Cyane smiled seductively at her  suddenly suspicious partner. 
    "Cyane...   Don't get started with your scheming, Woman!" 
    The  regent began to move toward her prey.   "Me?  Scheming?" 
    "Yes,  you!"  Tyro had started to say something  else, but it was about that time that Cyane dropped her top to the floor.  
    "You  want to see Gabrielle happy again, don't you?" she purred. 
    "Of  course I do, but... "  Tyro lost her train  of thought as Cyane dropped her skirt in front of the flustered warrior.  "You are an evil, manipulative woman... " 
    "Why  don't we take some of your clothes off and I'll show you how manipulative I can  be?" 
    Tyro  let out a sound that was somewhere between a squeak and a sigh as Cyane tugged  at the hem of her shirt. 
    ***** 
    Gabrielle  sat in front of the fireplace, lost in thought.   She closed her eyes and waited as her heart called out to Xena.  Soon a gentle draft slipped through the room,  stopping at Gabrielle's back. 
    "Hello, my love.  How are you?"  The words weren't audible, but  Gabrielle heard them clearly in her heart. 
    "I'm  lonely," the blonde replied bluntly. 
    "Well, let me sit here with you for a while.  You can catch me up on what happened in the  village today." 
    "You  would know what's going on in the village if you stopped by more often." 
    Gabrielle's  anger rolled off of her.  This was  new.  Xena's spirit proceeded  cautiously.  "Has it been that long?" 
    "Twelve  days." 
    "Really?   It didn't seem that long to me." 
    "Any  time you spent away from me used to be too long for you.  Now you disappear for days at a time and  don't even realize it.  I wait each  sunset for you, but so often I am still alone as the light dims."  Gabrielle turned to face her soul mate.  A shimmer of light was there, but no  more.  "I'm losing you, Xena." 
    "I promised you would never lose me,  Gabrielle." 
    "That  may be a promise you're not going to be able to keep."  Hesitantly she reached toward the light.  "You're fading.  I can hardly see you anymore.  And as your visits become farther and farther  apart, I fear that I am beginning to fade from your mind," she dropped her head  as the sadness overwhelmed her, "and heart." 
    Suddenly  Xena's image began to appear clearly.  Gabrielle  looked up to find long, dark hair, high cheek bones and strong jaw line, and  brilliant blue eyes that all seemed so real she dissolved into heaving  sobs.  Xena guided her into her  arms.  They still felt strong and safe  around her.  "I promised that I would never leave you and I meant it.  I'm sorry if I've been away too long.  Time feels different there.  It passes like water around a stone.  I guess I just didn't realize how quickly it  was flowing." 
    "It  is like water around a stone, Xena, because you're stuck there.  You're not really here.  You're trapped there forever." 
    "I am really here, Love".  Gently,  she lifted Gabrielle so she could look into her eyes.  "I am  here."  With that she leaned in and  kissed her lover.  It wasn't a tender  kiss.  It was passionate and emotional,  their tongues dancing feverishly with one another. 
    Gabrielle  gasped as she felt hands caressing her body.   Her skin shivered under the urgent touch.  She reached behind her and loosened the ties at  her neck.  Her top fell away, exposing  her breasts to the apparition in front of her.   Xena leaned down, pulling one nipple roughly into her mouth while a hand  worked on the other. 
    Gabrielle  wove her hands through Xena's hair, clenching the back of her head.  Her mind reeled.  It was all so confusing.  Xena was here, making love to her, and yet  she wasn't.  The soft hair flowed between  her fingers.  Teeth gripped and teased, marking  her breasts. 
    Suddenly  she was turned, facing the fire.  Leaning  back in Xena's arms, she pushed down her underwear only to feel long fingers  plunge into her wetness.  She gasped at  the sensation, writhing in her lover's embrace.   Marks appeared along her neck and shoulders as Xena bit and sucked  them.  Her nipples were quickly tender  and sensitive as two strong fingers kneaded them.  A thumb brushed across the bundle of nerves  between her legs once, twice, and then stayed, circling with insistent  pressure.  The fingers continued to stroke  inside her. 
    Gabrielle  bit her lip to keep from screaming Xena's name.   She had almost forgotten.  It had  been so long...  
    Her  climax crashed upon her like thunder.  It  rolled over her body leaving a glowing sweat and goose flesh in its wake.  Xena drew out the orgasm, bringing her down  slowly as she whispered sweet nonsense in her ear.  She held her as Gabrielle turned in her arms  to rest her head against Xena's chest. 
    Then  something happened.  Xena started to lose  her grip.  Gabrielle, who suddenly seemed  to be suspended in midair, slipped as if she were losing her footing on a  trail.  Xena began to fade again and her  touch was light and uncertain.  Gabrielle  stood and looked at her lover. 
    "You're  fading!  Xena, what's wrong?" 
    "Nothing's wrong.  I expended a great deal of energy making love  to you.  I'm having trouble harnessing  enough to stay visible and allow you to feel me at the same time." 
    Obviously  disappointed, Gabrielle hesitated to regain control of her emotions.  It was Xena's fault things were like  this.  It had been so many moons since  Xena had made her choice, had chosen strangers - and Akemi - over her.  Her rational mind constantly reminded her  that she should be over it by now, but...  
    I don't understand.  I should be able to do this.  I used to be able to make love to you all  night, even after Japa. 
    Gabrielle  knew why it was happening; at least she had her suspicions.  Sadly, she drew a deep breath and whispered,  "Then come to bed and hold me while I sleep.   I won't need to see you in the darkness and at least I'll be able to  feel your arms around me." 
    It  was a sad compromise, but compromise was all they had now.  Xena's energy glowed in the air as it  followed Gabrielle to her bedroom. 
    ***** 
    When  Tyro arrived at the practice field after her morning meal, Janae was already  waiting for her.  "Good Morning!  You're up early." 
    "Well,  Queen Gabrielle said we could start my training today." 
    "Sure,  but I figured you might at least sleep in a little." 
    "I  tend to be an early riser." 
    "You  traveled a great distance to get here.   We can wait another day if you'd like to catch up on your rest." 
    "No,  that's okay.  The queen expects me to  begin today.  I am anxious to meet her  expectations." 
    Tyro  smiled quietly to herself.  So she doesn't want to disappoint the queen,  huh?  "You know, Gabrielle isn't  really that strict." 
    "You  don't address her by her proper title?" 
    Laughing,  Tyro shook her head no.  "Not unless I  want to get punched in the arm!" 
    Janae  was totally confused.  "I don't  understand." 
    "I  just mean that there are times when it is appropriate and expected that her  title will be used.  But on a day to day  basis, she really prefers that everyone just call her by her first name." 
    Janae's  eyes were round with amazement.  "I don't  think I could ever do that!" 
    Tyro  began to stretch; "Well, it's your shoulder."   Janae just frowned. 
    Changing  the subject, Tyro began to discuss Janae's training.  They covered the weapons and skill training  that Janae had already received and what she felt were her strengths and weaknesses.  The weapon's master was impressed when she  discovered that she had studied the whip, as well as knives, hand to hand  combat, scouting and tracking, and was advanced in her instruction with the  sword and staff.  Xena, you would have liked this kid, she thought remorsefully.  Not  many people bother to study the whip anymore.   You would've been a good teacher for her. 
    "Tyro?  Are you okay?" 
    "Sure."  She looked self-consciously at the young  woman.  "I was just thinking of an old  friend that was Hades with a whip... " 
    "Will  I be able to meet her?" 
    "No.  I'm afraid not."  Tyro left it at that.  "So, what do you say we grab some knives and  a whip; you can show me what you can do before lunch.  Then we can work on some hand to hand and  finish off with a little fundamental sword skill work." 
    "Sounds  great," Janae agreed as she followed her new teacher to the weapons hut.  "By the way, my old teacher said that she  would decide when I was ready to test on a weapon.  Is that what you will do?" 
    "Oh,  no," Tyro replied as they entered the neatly ordered weapons room.  She walked over to a rack with several rows  of beautifully crafted knives as she continued.   "I believe a warrior has to have confidence in her skills.  You will declare your Rite of Challenge when  you think you're ready.  Then you can  either leave it up to me how you are tested or you can choose your  opponent.  As long as she is a worthy  choice, I will allow the contest.   However, you must then allow your opponent to decide whether or not you  have passed." 
    Janae  was very quiet as she chose her knives.   Then she turned and announced, "In that case, I declare my Rite of  Challenge with knives." 
    Tyro  was shocked.  "Now?" 
    She  just nodded as she replied, "Yes." 
    Two  hours later, Janae was making her way through an intricate course of  targets.  Tyro had made the course  particularly difficult, thinking to discourage any overconfidence the young  woman possessed.  Instead, she stood in  front of a group of younger women, most cheering with growing respect. 
    As  Janae rounded the last turn, she grabbed two knives from a previous target and  moved to set them in a target almost 20 paces out of bounds.  As she pulled them back over her shoulders to  send both flying at once, Tyro launched the blunt end of a knife at her.  Janae sensed the movement toward her, rolled  to her right, came up in a crouched position and buried both knives in the  center of the target. 
    The  crowd roared.  Even Tyro had to clap. 
    ***** 
    The  mob entered the dining hall with a clamor.   There was great competition among the young women to sit at the new  warrior's table. 
    Meanwhile,  Tyro crossed the room to sit with Cyane and Gabrielle. 
    "What's  that all about?" Cyane asked. 
    "Janae  declared her Rite of Challenge with knives this morning." 
    Gabrielle  was shocked.  "She did not!" 
    Tyro  smiled ruefully.  "Oh, yes she did." 
    Gabrielle  tried to wait for Cyane to ask, but finally gave in to her curiosity.  "How'd she do?" 
    "She  passed easily.  And it was one Hades of a  course, too." 
    The  blonde glanced across the room.  "That's  good... "  She tried to sound casual, but  she was very impressed. 
    Cyane  paused for a moment and then decided to call her on it.  "That's all you have to say?  That's good?" 
    Gabrielle  was immediately defensive.  "What do you  want me to say?" 
    "It  wouldn't surprise me if she declared with the whip this afternoon or tomorrow,"  Tyro announced, intervening in the awkward moment. 
    Both  women turned to look at Tyro.  "Is she that good?" asked Gabrielle. 
    "I  watched her warming up while I was setting up her course.  And the truth is I've only known two people  better with a knife than she is," Tyro hesitated, looking from her wife to her  queen, "and only one warrior better with a whip."  
    Gabrielle  paled slightly at the comparison and then looked away from Tyro to the woman  sitting across the room.  In spite of the  throng of young women surrounding her, Janae was already staring at  Gabrielle.  They stared at each other for  a long moment; long enough that other women in the room began to notice.  To cover her true motive, Gabrielle lifted  her mug in a salute to the warrior's accomplishment.  Janae smiled faintly and nodded in reply. 
    After  draining her mug, Gabrielle stood and exited without another word to her  friends. 
    Janae  declared her Rite of Challenge with the whip that afternoon and passed. 
    ***** 
    After  her sunset vigil that evening, Gabrielle grabbed a blanket on the way to the  small clearing behind her hut.  She lay  down and watched the stars as they began to glow in the growing darkness.  Her thoughts were scattered, but the new  warrior in her village was a recurring theme.   She was so preoccupied she failed to notice the warm breeze that settled  behind her. 
    "I'll never understand why you think it  looks like a bear."   
    The  voice startled her.  "Xena!" she gasped  as she sat up to stare at the woman beside her. 
    "I'm sorry my love.  I didn't mean to startle you." 
    "That's  okay; I'm really glad to see you." 
    "Why?   Is something wrong?" 
    "No." 
    Xena  thought for a moment and then decided on a different approach.  "What's  been going on with your Amazons?" 
    "Not  much.  The usual for this time of year;  we're getting the crops in the fields and the gardens are all turned and  they're planting vegetables.  And of  course, Tyro has everyone on rotation in the training field." 
    Xena  laughed.  "I'll bet she does!  Spring training was always Pony's favorite  time of year, too." 
    Gabrielle  remained silent. 
    "What else is going on?" 
    "We  had a warrior from the Northern Amazons arrive the other day." 
    "Is everything okay at their village?" 
    "Yes,  but their weapons master is pregnant and this young woman is ready to test as a  master." 
    "So they sent her down her to test under  Tyro?  Poor kid... " 
    "Not  really." 
    "How's that?"   
    "She  challenged with knives and the whip on her first day and passed both." 
    "Both in one day?"  It sounded as  if the wind whistled.  "She must be pretty good." 
    "Tyro  said you're the only one she's every seen that was better with a whip." 
    Xena  clasped her hands behind her head; she had that cocky smile on her face that  Gabrielle always found so adorable.  "I may have to drop by and watch her in  action...   What's she going to tomorrow?" 
    "I  suspect she's working on hand to hand.   She'll probably test in that next.   She said she needed more work with the sword and staff." 
    "Are you going to train her with the  staff?" 
    "No.  Why would I?" 
    "Because you're better than Tyro with a  staff." 
    "I  am not... " 
    "Oh, please.  Gabrielle, I doubt there's anyone anywhere  that you couldn't match with that staff of yours." 
    Gabrielle  rolled over and smiled shyly.  "You big  sweet talker, you." 
    "I'm serious, Gabrielle."  Xena smiled  sincerely, "I am so proud of the skills  you have with your weapons.  I know it  wasn't really the knowledge you started out to gain, but now you're every bit  the warrior I was." 
    "Xena,  I could never... " 
    "Yes, you are.  The moment you were recognized by my chakram  you were my equal." 
    "Recognized  by it?" 
    "Of course.  Callisto had possession of it, but she could  never control it.  That's why she  crippled me that day instead of killing me.   You can do everything with it that I could do; you've learned that in  your travels since Japa.  It yields to  your skill as a warrior.  That's what it  was designed to do." 
    Gabrielle  thought about that for a moment and then shook her head as if in  disbelief.  "I never knew... " 
    "That's why I think you should train  this young warrior with the staff.  If  you really want her to have the best training, she should be trained by  you.  As a matter of fact, I'm surprised Tyro  hasn't already brought it up to you." 
    "I  think Tyro has had her hands full so far." 
    "Well, I'm sure she'll think of it.  When she comes to you, I think... " 
    "Xena,"  Gabrielle interrupted, "I don't want to talk about them anymore." 
    She  was surprised, but agreed.  "Okay, what do you want to talk about?" 
    "What  do you do when you're not with me?" 
    Xena  faltered a little bit; she hadn't been expecting this question.  "Well,  it's a beautiful place.  No one hurries  there.  Time is so different.  There is plenty of time for singing and  painting; I've even tried by hand at poetry, if you can believe that." 
    "Poetry?  Really?   I would love to hear something you've written!"  She rolled on to her side and began tracing  lazy patterns with the fingers on what would've been the warrior's stomach. 
    "Right...    I don't think so.  You're still  the only bard in this family." 
    Hearing  the word "family" tapped a well of tears.   "Are we still a family, Xena?" 
    "We are as far as I'm concerned."  Xena  looked puzzled, "Why do you think I would  feel differently?" 
    "Well,  you're there so much of the time.  And  Akemi's there with you."  Gabrielle bowed  her head as if ashamed.  "I've wondered  if you and she - well, how you've passed the time together." 
    Suddenly,  Xena understood.  "There is only one woman for me." 
    "You  don't get lonely there?" 
    "No, but there is such a sense of peace  there that I don't suppose there's room for feelings like that." 
    "So  you don't miss me when we're apart?"  The  tears were flowing freely now. 
    "Oh, Gabrielle!  It's not that at all!"  She cupped her  soulmate's face and gently wiped away the tears.  "I just  don't feel like we're ever apart.  You're  with me every moment, in my heart." 
    The  blonde fell into her arms, resting her head upon a chest that did not have a  heart beating within it.  "I'm so sorry, my love.  I didn't realize how bad things were for  you." 
    "You're  gone; how could it not be bad?" 
    Xena  was dismayed at her own ignorance.  "I guess I just assumed now that you're back  with your sisters, things were okay.   You're among women who love you and need you... " 
    "But  they're not you."  Gabrielle shifted so  her body was completely on Xena's form.   The warrior tried to speak, but was interrupted.  "I don't want what happened last time to  happen again.  I don't need to see you; I  know every curve, every line, every scar...    If I close my eyes I can see you perfectly."  She began to move seductively against the  energy below her.  "I need to feel  you.  Just concentrate on staying solid  for me."  Urgency washed over her as she  began to fight against the clothing she wore.   "I just need to feel you." 
    Below  her, all shadows of Xena's image faded.   All that remained was a shimmer of light.  But the body firmed into strong arms and  taught nipples.  It seems that clothing is  optional when you're a ghost.   Immediately the soft fur between Xena's legs began to tickle Gabrielle's  thigh.  The queen let out a groan that prompted  wetness to flow from between long, still muscular legs. 
    Gabrielle  kept her eyes closed.  Her lips explored  Xena's jaw line and neck.  Her thigh  pressed between Xena's legs; her knees spread wide to accommodate the motion,  using her hands to part swollen lips so Gabrielle could ride the very core of  her. 
    There  was no tenderness here.  It was need and  lust and desperation.  The queen rode her  beloved to climax very quickly, then shifted her position to straddle one of  Xena's thighs.  As first it seemed her  climax would follow quickly, but then she slowed her pace torturously.  In one swift move she placed herself below  Xena.  "Mark me," she rasped  breathlessly.  "Leave your marks on  me." 
    Happy  to oblige, Xena descended on Gabrielle's neck and shoulders.  She moved her hand between hungry thighs and  matched their rhythm as she worked three fingers into her bard's vagina.  "More... "   It wasn't a request. 
    Xena's  mind worked at a fevered pitch.  Her  lover had never preferred rough sex; what was different now?  She lifted her lips from a bruised neck and  whispered, "Gabrielle?" in to the  closest ear. 
    But  the blonde didn't want to talk; she didn't want to negotiate or explain.  "More!" she commanded through clenched  teeth.  Then she took Xena's head in both  hands and forced it down to her breasts. 
    As  the warrior worked her hand to make room for a fourth finger she took a  hardened nipple in her mouth and began to suckle.  "Harder," was the immediate command.  "Use your teeth." 
    There  was a fleeting worry that Gabrielle would regret this later, but Xena pushed  that thought aside as she released her aggressive nature on the body below  her.  She wouldn't bring her to climax  until her nipples would be too sore to touch tomorrow; wearing the halter top  would be excruciating and erotic at the same time.  It wasn't long until Gabrielle was writhing  below her, lower lip between her teeth, gasping in pleasure and pain.  It was at that moment that Xena thrust her  hand into the bard's body.  Gabrielle gasped  and grabbed two handfuls of hair.  Xena  slowly drew the hand back and then plunged it in again. 
    It  lasted longer than she imagined it would.   Gabrielle stubbornly held on to her release until Xena left her hand  inside, twisting and massaging, while changing her position to grasp the nerve  bundle between her teeth to suck it viciously.   There was no escape from the avalanche of sensation.  She writhed and cried out, moaned, and then,  as Xena carefully removed her hand, she wept. 
    Xena's  regret was immediate.  "I'm sorry.   I'm sorry, Baby," she soothed and she moved to take her lover in her  arms.  "I should've known it was too much.   I'm sorry." 
    "It's  not your fault.  Shhhhh, it's not your  fault," Gabrielle insisted in a raspy voice.   "It's what I wanted." 
    They  were still for a long time as Gabrielle regained her senses.  Finally, Xena broke the silence.  "Why?" 
    There  was no answer, so Xena asked her again, "Gabrielle,  why did you want this to be so rough?   You never enjoyed anything that aggressive in our lovemaking; why now?" 
    Gabrielle  waited several long moments before she responded.  "It doesn't last." 
    "What doesn't last?" 
    "What  you do to me; the marks, the pain.   Soreness I know should linger into tomorrow will be gone.  I'll wake up in the morning and it will be as  if you were never here." 
    Xena  was stunned.  "How long has this been happening?" 
    Gabrielle  knew what she was about to say would hurt her lover, but she had to  explain.  "Two seasons, at least." 
    "So tomorrow... ?" 
    "None  of these marks will be here and my body won't be sore." 
    Xena  sat up, confused.  "Is that why you think you're losing me?" 
    "I  don't think I'm losing you; I am  losing you. Your visits have become more infrequent and you have to expend more  and more energy to stay for shorter periods of time.  I know you promised I'd never really lose  you, but I'm not sure that you're going to be able to keep that promise." 
    "Gabrielle, I'm so sorry.  There has to be something I can do.  I'll talk to Akemi when I get back and... " 
    "Akemi?  Please!   Like she's going to help you stay with me!" 
    "She's not like that.  I really believe... " 
    "Don't  you dare defend her to me!  She's the  reason you're not with me in the first place!   She's a lying, manipulative... " 
    "Okay, okay!  I'll ask Harukata.  Maybe he knows something that can help us." 
    Gabrielle  took a deep breath to calm down.  "I'll tell you what.  I'll come back tomorrow.  We can discuss anything Harukata has to say  and I want to watch this new warrior of yours. 
    The  blonde nodded wordlessly.  "I have to go now, Sweetheart.  My energy is gone." 
    She  turned for a kiss goodbye, but Xena was already gone.  Gabrielle curled up in the blanket and cried  beneath the stars. 
    ***** 
    The  following morning Janae declared her Rite of Challenge in hand to hand  combat.  Tyro prepared a series of  challenges that included multiple opponents and physical restrictions that  ranged from the use of only one arm to attaching weights to one leg to simulate  injuries.  It was a long, arduous  day.  The test lasted well into the afternoon  without a break for lunch. 
    As  the day wore on, the crowd grew larger and larger, until finally even Gabrielle  gave in to her curiosity and wandered over to the training grounds.  As she arrived, she felt a familiar presence  behind her. 
    "I wondered if you were going to come  down and watch." 
    "It  seems like everyone else in the village is down here.  I figured I must be missing something good,"  Gabrielle replied as she leaned toward Xena's energy.  "How long have you been watching?" 
    "I don't really know; most of the day." 
    "How  does she look?" 
    "She's very skilled.  She does an excellent job of reading her  opponent's body to anticipate the next move without giving her counter  away.  She's strong and she's quick." 
    "If  she's that good, why is Tyro making this last so long?" 
    "I suspect is has something to do with Tyro's  ego.  You said she passed two tests  yesterday and then turned right around and challenged for the third today.  If Tyro is anything like Pony, she's trying  to make a point." 
    Saving  the best for last, Tyro entered the fray as Janae dispatched the last of three  opponents she had faced concurrently.   She immediately landed a blow to the chest that knocked the exhausted  young warrior to the ground.  Janae  glared up at the weapons master, angered by the unexpected attack.  
    
      Part 2 
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