The Road Back Home

Part 29- 30

by Lynne Norris

Disclaimers: See Part One

Chapter Twenty-Nine

Twenty seconds…ten minutes?

Alex couldn't remember how long they huddled together, desperately holding onto each other as they knelt on the broken asphalt. It wasn't until the wind changed direction and doused them in a cloud of cold water vapor from the fire hoses that Alex loosened her grip on Regina and looked at the inferno still raging in the building. Sweet Jesus. She closed her eyes to block out the images.

A pair of strong hands grasped them under their arms and lifted Alex and Regina to their feet.

“Come on, we have to get you out of here. It's not safe,” the gruff voice rumbled in Alex's ear.

Alex stared numbly at the firefighter. It took a moment for her to recognize that the person hidden behind the bulky turnout gear and soot stained face was Regina's friend, Todd.

“You both need to get checked out.” He splashed through water-filled potholes and guided them carefully through the rubble filled alley to the front of the building.

As they turned the corner onto the street, Alex shielded her eyes from the bright strobe lights that were flashing atop the emergency vehicles that lined both sides of the street. She watched two firemen work feverishly to drag a serpentine length of hose towards the front entrance of the warehouse.

“Where's TJ?” Regina shouted over the deafening noise of heavy equipment.

“The kid? He's being flown out by the chopper,” Todd replied, as the staccato noise of a helicopter engine worked into a crescendo as it lifted off the street a block away. He directed them to one of the waiting ambulances.

They all turned and stared at the building as another loud rumble shook the structure and thick black smoke billowed from one of the second floor windows.

“Todd, we need you inside,” one of the firefighters shouted from the front steps.

“Go on.” He nudged Alex toward the waiting paramedics.

Alex boosted Regina up into the ambulance and hoisted herself up behind her. She slumped down on the stretcher next to Regina and gathered the smaller woman into her arms.

Todd gave Alex a thumbs-up sign and shut the door after the paramedic climbed into the rig.

Behind her, the paramedic reached over and slipped an oxygen mask over Alex's face. Startled, she yanked it off as a flood of unbidden memories caught her off guard. “What the hell are you doing?”

“Lady, you've got smoke inhalation. Trust me, you need this.”

Regina's gentle touch on her face settled her pounding heart. “Alex, it's okay. Keep it on,” Regina soothed her as she replaced the mask over her friend's face.

Alex inhaled the oxygen greedily and met Regina's anxious gaze. “Thanks,” she managed to rasp and buried her head in her hands.

Regina accepted an oxygen mask from the man and held it up to her mouth. Overhead, the wail of the sirens blared and she swayed against Alex as the rig pulled away from the curb.

Slowly, the shock and horror of the evening's events sank into Alex's consciousness. More than once she buried her head against Regina's neck and battled the waves of raw emotion that threatened to overwhelm her. If I feel this way, god…we need to time together to talk. Later, after we get home.

She felt the tremulous clutch of Regina's hand around her bicep and the shuddered breath as her companion choked back a sob.

“We're going to be okay, Regina,” Alex said quietly, as she wrapped her arms around her companion.

A short ten-minute ride later the ambulance's sirens cut off as it rolled to a stop in front of Saint Xavier's Emergency Department. With effort, Alex lifted her head when the double doors to the rig were pulled opened.

“What've we got?” She heard Jon's voice from outside.

“A thirty-five year old female with smoke inhalation. She's alert and her vitals are stable.” He started to give Regina's information when he turned around and held his hand out. “Ma'am, wait. You can't get up.”

“The hell I can't. I work here.” Alex pulled off her oxygen mask and climbed stiffly out of the rig despite the paramedics protest.

“Alex! Jesus Christ, what the hell happened to you?” Jon's eyes widened as he stared at her soot smudged face and tattered clothes.

She ignored him as she reached up and helped Regina step down out of the rig. “Long story, Jon. Did they bring anybody else in yet?”

“We already got a young kid with smoke inhalation and two more are on the way.”

Alex nodded and braced herself with an arm against a wall as her legs threatened to give out on her. “Just get us inside.”

Jon trotted ahead of them and punched the keypad for the glass doors slide open. Alex slipped her arm around Regina's waist and guided her to the double doors.

He spotted one of the nurses coming out of a storage room as he entered the Emergency Department and called out to her. “Maggie, get me two blood gas kits and tell Sandy to get over here.” He led Alex and Regina down the hallway and into the first empty exam room.

“Jon, you've got patients in worse shape than us,” Alex protested as she helped Regina up onto the stretcher.

He pulled a stethoscope from his lab coat pocket as he whipped the curtain closed. “They're in route and the kid is awake and stabilized, so my concern is you two at the moment. Now sit down and let me take a look at the two of you.”

Alex complied and curled an around Regina's shoulder as the younger woman shivered. “You're cold.”

“Freezing,” Regina responded as her teeth chattered.

“Jon, get me a couple of blankets.” Alex held out her hand as Jon stepped away and pulled two out of a linen cart in the corner of the room.

He handed them to her and then listened to Regina's lungs. He looked up as Maggie entered the room. “Run a trauma panel and blood gas on both of them.”

“What happened to you two?” Maggie asked as she slid up Regina's sleeve and swabbed the doctor's arm with an alcohol wipe. After probing once for the vessel, she slipped a needle into an artery.

Regina flinched and tightened her grip around Alex while the nurse drew her blood for the test.

“Do you think Cassandra made it out?” Regina asked and buried her face against Alex's neck.

“I don't know, Reg.” She met Jon's probing eyes and shook her head when he opened his mouth to voice a question.


An hour later, after she endured being examined, Alex leaned back against the semi-reclined stretcher in the trauma room. Regina was medically cleared and took the opportunity to escape to the locker room for a well-deserved shower.

Alex frowned at Sandy while the nurse took her blood pressure again. “Are you trying to purposely cut off the circulation in my arm?”

Sandy glared at her from beneath furrowed eyebrows and adjusted the earpieces of the stethoscope. “Shh. I can't hear a damn thing with you talking.”

“I'm fine.”

“Bullshit. You're covered in soot. Have you looked at yourself?”

“Sandy,” Alex growled.

“What?” She ripped the blood pressure cuff off of Alex's upper arm.

Alex ran a hand through her hair and grimaced when she looked at the oily soot that stained her hand. “All I want to do is go wash this crap off me.”

“Well, here's the Ventolin. Make sure you do the whole respiratory treatment before you move one foot off that table.”

Alex sighed and flopped back against the hard mattress. “Give me that. The sooner I start the faster we're getting out of here tonight.”

The door to the room opened and Regina walked in towel drying her hair. “Here, I thought you might want these.” She set a pair of scrubs and several hospital towels down on the stretcher. She glanced back and forth at Sandy and Alex.

“You two okay?”

The nurse stepped back and nodded. “Just making sure the good doctor here does what she's supposed to do.”

Regina eyed the plastic oxygen mask that Alex was holding over her face. “Don't worry she will.” She stepped closer and lowered the mask. “Here let me clean your face. You'll feel better.”

That got a grin from Sandy. She turned and started washing her hands in the sink. “I'll be back in a little while. You'd better be resting, Alex.” When the nurse turned around, she felt a warm blush creep up her neck.

Regina was sitting on the stretcher tenderly wiping the away the streaks of soot and dirt from Alex's face with her damp towel. When she was done she leaned in and stroked the angular sweep of Alex's jaw line with gentle fingers.

Alex tilted her head and a smile played at the corners of her lips. They both moved toward each other and Alex brushed her lips against her partner's mouth, enjoying the sweet softness that welcomed her.

Sandy swallowed and tiptoed out the door, wishing fervently that neither of them realized she was still in the room.

Regina's eyes twinkled as she pulled away from Alex. “Poor Sandy.”

“She'll live. Besides you're the only one allowed to mother me like this.” Alex brushed her thumb over Regina's lips. “God, you're a beautiful sight.”

Regina blushed. “Just freshly scrubbed and clean, except I can't get the smell of the smoke out of my nose.”

Alex stopped her hand, and tangled her fingers in Regina's hair. She leaned closer and inhaled the scent left behind by the herbal shampoo she used in the shower. “I kept thinking about all the things I would miss if we didn't make it out of there.”

“What like sniffing my hair?” Regina quipped trying to make some of the tension between them drain away.

Alex snorted indignantly and wrapped Regina in her arms. She was quiet for a moment, acknowledging the nervous energy that still ran through her core from the affects of the adrenaline. She spoke softly into Regina's ear. “No, I'd miss our life together and all the things we still have yet to experience.”

Regina pulled back and stared at Alex. A wistful smile touched her lips and she tilted her head. “Are you getting all sentimental on me?”

“Never.” Alex rubbed her nose against Regina's and then smiled. “Only with you.”

Regina clasped one of Alex's hands and lifted it to her lips. She eyed the handcuff still locked around Alex's wrist and shuddered. “They're going to find someone to take these off.”

Alex glanced down at the angry bruise that discolored her wrist where the cuff dug into her skin. “Not much of a fashion statement I guess.”

“Hardly.” Regina met Alex's watchful eyes and looked away to hide the tears that welled up in her eyes.

It was Alex's hand that drew her back.

She cupped Regina's face and wiped away tears as they rolled down her fair-skinned cheeks. “Come here.”

“I was so scared.” Regina's lower lip quivered. “I thought we weren't going to make it.”

“I know.” Alex pressed her lips to Regina's head and held her close. She'd felt death closing in for one brief moment as the heat of the fire threatened to melt the soles of her shoes as she desperately struggled to reach the gun.

Regina took a calming breath and hugged Alex fiercely. “I knew you'd get us out of there.”

Alex kissed the top of her head. “I think you believed enough for both of us, love.”

Regina's face flushed and she lifted the oxygen mask up to Alex's mouth. “Here, you need to finish this. You'll feel a thousand times better.”

Alex nodded, inhaled the humidified air, and pulled it away again as another more urgent thought pressed to the forefront of her mind. “Have you seen Matthew around?”

Regina folded her arms and cleared her throat only relaxing after Alex replaced the instrument in her mouth. “He's got a nasty bruise on his chest and a flesh wound in his shoulder. Thank god he had a vest on.”

“Which room is he in?”

“Six.” Regina rested her head on Alex's shoulder and closed her eyes. A weary exhaustion seeped through her and it only took a few minutes before the blonde-haired woman was snoring lightly.

Alex closed her eyes, enjoying the warm pressure of Regina's body where it pressed against her length. She pressed her lips against Regina's head. I don't know who was looking out for us tonight…whoever it was, thank you.

Twenty minutes later, after she finished the respiratory treatment, Alex gently lowered Regina down to the stretcher and covered her with one of the blankets. She leaned over, nuzzled Regina's neck, and inhaled the warm, clean scent of her skin. “We'll get out of here as soon as we can. I promise.”

Alex walked out of the room and squeezed past two orderlies who were pushing a stretcher through the crowded hallway. On her right, an elderly woman argued with one of the nurses about her husband having to wait so long for a bed on one of the medical floors.

Halfway to the locker room, she heard her name and turned around to see Todd walking toward her. “You okay?”

He shrugged. “Too much smoke. After, I got you guys to the ambulance they found two more people inside. We got them out just as the roof started to come down.”

“Are you getting checked out?”

“Yeah,” he replied sheepishly. “I'm waiting for…” His voice trailed off as a medical student suddenly ran past him with an oxygen tank and darted into one of the storage closets.

Alex watched the door swing shut. A frown crossed her face and she glanced at Todd who ducked his head and coughed into his hand. Her eyes narrowed. “Why do I know I'm not going to like what I find inside that room?”

Todd trotted alongside her. “You won't, I mean…don't go in there.”

Alex skirted around him and opened the door despite his feeble protests.

Two pairs of eyes stared up at her and one tail thumped enthusiastically on the floor. The Shepard whined and twitched his ears as Alex groaned. After she recovered from seeing one of the medical students holding the oxygen mask over the German Shepard's snout, she quietly shut the door and pressed her forehead against the door. “Why am I not surprised?”

“He wasn't breathing when the guys found him. We worked on him the whole way over in the rig,” Todd stammered helplessly.

“I would have done the same thing,” Alex replied honestly. “Just don't let anyone see him when you take him out.”

“I won't,” he promised. “Here, this is why I was looking for you.” Todd held out what was left of her dinner jacket. “I found this outside the warehouse. It had your wallet it in it and this.” He handed her the black ring box.

Alex stared at the partially burned remains of her wallet. She blinked back tears as a wave of emotion she didn't have the strength to deal with hit her square in the chest. She reached out and took them from Todd. “Thanks,” she managed to get out.

“Don't mention it.” He waved his hand and let it drop back down to his side. “I'll get him out of here as soon as they're done.”

Alex walked backward a couple of steps and then quickly turned to escape into the quiet solitude of the locker room. She straddled one of the benches, sat down, and rested her elbows on her knees.

The hinges of the ring box creaked as she opened the lid. Inside, the diamonds gently twinkled back at her and the overwhelming certainty of how close she had come to losing everything swamped her. Alex hung her head as tears brimmed in her eyes. Her shoulders shook and she broke down crying.

Whose on the wrong team now Cassandra? You stupid idiot. What in the hell made you think you could get away with it in the first place? Alex arched her neck and wiped her eyes in irritation. Get up and take a shower. You're going to scare the crap out of Regina if she comes in here and sees you blubbering like a baby.

Alex placed her wallet and the ring into her locker and closed the door. She turned the water on in the shower and let it run as she stripped out of her filthy clothes. Steam filled the locker room as Alex pulled the curtain aside and stepped into the tiled shower.

Turning the hot water up as much as she could stand it, Alex stood beneath the pounding stream, letting it soothe some of the bone deep ache in her joints.

After she showered and scrubbed the soot and grime from her body, Alex dried off and changed into a pair of light green scrubs. She shifted her shoulders settling the fabric over her scraped and bruised skin.

Alex gathered her belongings and walked out into the hallway. She checked the admission board and found which room TJ was in. She walked over and stopped outside the door when she saw Regina sitting beside the boy's bed.

The doctor leaned against the door and smiled at Regina when their eyes met. She really does have some incredible instincts with kids, Alex mused as Regina leaned in and pulled the covers up around the boy's shoulders.

A moment later, Regina walked out of the room, balled up her isolation gown and threw it into the hamper outside the room.

“Hell of a night, huh?” Alex ran her hand through Regina's still damp hair and then wrapped an arm around her shoulder. She closed her eyes as a wave of lethargy swept over her.

“It's not over, yet,” Regina fumed, as she broke away from Alex's embrace and washed her hands in the sink.

“Whoa…what's wrong?” Alex followed Regina, her gut suddenly churning as she caught the waves of anger rolling off the younger woman.

Regina spun around, her eyes flashing intensely as she met Alex's concerned gaze. “He remembers what happened when he got attacked at the warehouse the first time.”

“And.” Alex's eyes darted anxiously over Regina's angry countenance as she waited for an answer.

“Someone chased him down and handcuffed him in the alleyway. After that he just remembers waking up in the hospital.”

“That's one lucky kid.” They both turned as Jon walked up behind them. He threw a paper towel into the wastebasket by the sink when he finished drying his hands. “What the hell happened in that warehouse?”

“You wouldn't believe me if I told you.” Alex rubbed the bridge of her nose and took a breath before she looked back at him. “Any word on Cassandra?”

“They found her collapsed by the front door of the warehouse. She's got serious burns on her hands and arms, probably trying to get the door open. She took in some smoke but she'll live.”

“There was a man with her,” Alex added dispassionately.

“They flew him in on the chopper.” Jon furrowed his brow and waggled his hand, a sign he tended to use when things didn't look particularly good for a patient. “It'll be a miracle if he makes it through the next seventy-two hours.”

“We got out just in time.” Regina closed her eyes and shuddered, remembering the ground-shaking explosion that rocked them to their knees. She met Alex's sober gaze and then leaned in against her.

Alex looked down the hallway and sighed as she saw Matthew walking toward them. On his left was a police officer and Alex cursed vehemently when she recognized him. Just when I thought tonight couldn't get any worse.

“Alex, Regina.” Matthew looked at both of the women. “This is officer will get you out of those things.”

Regina lifted her head from Alex's chest and eyed Derrick warily. “They couldn't send anybody else or you couldn't pass up the opportunity. Which was it?” she snapped, as she held her arm out.

Derrick glared at her as he undid Regina's handcuff. “Neither. I heard the call go out over the radio and I was the closest. They didn't say it was you,” he sniped testily.

“Listen, just shut up, and do what you need to do.” Alex looked in at TJ as she held out her arm, pointedly ignoring Derrick. “It's weird that he ended up at the warehouse again. Why there of all places?”

Regina furrowed her brow and looked up at Alex. “I wonder…do you remember that backpack you picked up from the warehouse several weeks ago?”

Alex nodded. “Sure, Sandy found it beneath a stretcher.”

“What about me?” The curly-headed nurse popped her head up and stopped writing notes in the medical chart she'd been engrossed in.

Alex shook her head and smirked. “We're talking about the backpack you found in the warehouse a few weeks back.”

“Oh.” Sandy shrugged and went back to writing.

“What backpack?” Derrick scowled at Alex as he unlocked her handcuff.

“Oh come on, you and your partner came in because we called the police. You couldn't pass up the opportunity to harass me,” Regina stated boldly in front of everyone.

“What about it?” Derrick's face flushed as he clipped his keys back on his belt.

“Do you still have it?”


“Because I think it belongs to this kid,” Regina explained.

“How the hell do you arrive at that conclusion?”

“This is the same kid who got admitted to the hospital because he was beat up so badly in the alley. Why would he go back to a place he got attacked by if he wasn't looking for something?”

“How should I know?” Derrick's eyes darted back and forth between them.

“I'm not asking you.” Regina rolled her eyes. “Do you still have the backpack in your cruiser?”

“Nobody claimed it after we filed a missing person's report. It might still be there.”

“Can you go check?”

Derrick stared at her incredulously. “You're kidding right?”

“Come on if it's his, think about how it'll make him feel to have it back. The poor kid doesn't have anything else,” Regina insisted.

Derrick stood with hands on his hips for a moment and then left them all standing in the hallway as he pivoted on his heel and stormed away.

“Is he always that way?” Matthew asked.

“He's probably wishing he was putting the cuffs on me and not taking them off,” Alex replied, as she stared after Derrick's retreating form.

Regina made a clucking noise with her tongue and swatted Alex in the stomach. “Don't you say that.”

“Hey.” Matthew stepped in front of Alex. “I want to thank you for saving my life back there. I wouldn't have made it out if you didn't haul my ass out of there.”

“We weren't going to leave you lying there.” Alex rubbed her wrist. “So, what happens now Matthew?”

“They'll be a grand jury investigation. I'll need you to be available for a deposition.” He walked away from the group and motioned Alex to follow. “You should get a lawyer to look out for your interests.”

Alex demeanor immediately hardened and she set her hands on her hips. I knew it was too good to be true. “Are you charging me with anything?”

Matthew shook his head. “No, I talked to the District Attorney. We're not bringing any charges against you. This case the government is developing against the hospital exists only because you brought it to my attention. The hospital will consider you a hostile witness. That's the only reason I'm suggesting it.”

Alex exhaled and let go of the sudden tension that built up inside her. “Are we done here tonight?”

“You're free to go. I'll call you tomorrow and let you know when I'll need you.”

“Fair enough.” Alex tilted her head back and squeezed her eyes shut. Fiery images morphed and crystallized in her memory. She hated the feeling that she had no control and never had it been so clear to her as when she stood shackled to pipe and watched the flames raging toward the ceiling.

She tucked it away in the far recesses of her memory and tried not to think about it. Alex looked at Regina who was standing alone, leaning against the wall outside TJ's room. I'll deal with that later, right now I need to get her home. She's operating on pure adrenaline and nothing else.

The double doors at the end of the hallway swung open and Derrick walked toward them.

Damn, Alex walked over, making it to Regina's side several seconds before Derrick arrived.

He dumped the backpack on the floor at Regina's feet. A well-worn stuffed tiger tumbled out on to the floor. “Satisfied?”

Regina ignored him as she picked up the stuffed animal and then snatched a gown from the linen cart next to the room. She shoved her arms into the sleeves and entered the room.

Alex watched as Regina raised the head of the hospital bed and then she reached in and yanked the curtain closed, blocking Derrick's view of the boy. “He doesn't need an audience.” She turned and stared him.

Derrick hooked his thumbs in his belt loops and assumed a bored looking stance as he looked around the bustling department. “Hey, I didn't know you all treated animals in here,” he announced loudly enough for everyone in the immediate area to hear.

Alex whirled around to see Todd, carrying an odd shaped lump draped in a sheet out of the supply closet. Four brindle colored paws poked out from underneath the white cloth and a pair of pointed ears flicked curiously beneath it, taking in all the strange noises.

“Oh, look. He's so cute,” one of the nurses exclaimed. Two other medical staff realized it was a dog and immediately left the nursing station to fawn over him.

Todd looked at Alex from over the dog's hulk and his face colored with embarrassment. “I tried.”

“What is that dog doing in here? Jon waved his arms excitedly. “Do you know how many infection control policies you've just broken? Get him out of here!”

“Do you have to make a grand announcement?” Alex clamped a hand over her eyes. “I told Todd not let anyone see him sneak that damn dog out of here.”

Jon turned and gaped at his colleague. “You knew about this?”

“Yes,” Alex admitted.

“Hey, doc. Don't take it out on her.” Todd squeezed between the two nurses to stand beside Jon. “I brought him in because he wasn't breathing when we found him.”

Lucky poked his head out from underneath the sheet, stretched his neck out to sniff Jon's ear and licked him.

Jon scratched his ear and tried to keep a smile from crossing his lips as he stepped back from the curious animal. “Just get him out of here,” he grumbled.

Alex folded her arms over her chest and stared accusingly at Jon. “You wouldn't have turned him away either, you old softie.”

“I think you inhaled too much smoke.”

“Quite possibly,” she remarked with a shrug.

“What's all the commotion about?” Regina pulled the curtain back and walked out of TJ's room, coming face to face with Derrick. “Aren't you finished here?”

Derrick looked over Regina's shoulder and made eye contact with the boy for one brief arrogant second. “Must be the kid's lucky day.”

Lucky's ears twitched and he struggled violently, fighting his way out of Todd's arms.

At the same time, the monitor in TJ's room shrilled and the boy cried out in fear. “No, no, no!”

Regina darted back inside the room as he scrambled higher in the hospital bed, putting as much distance between him and the police officer. “TJ, what's wrong?"

He curled up against the mattress and trembled violently despite Regina's reassuring touch. “It's him. I remember his voice!” TJ wailed.

“What did he say?” Alex whirled around and stared at the boy.

“Lucky, no!” Todd cried out as the dog kicked him in the chest and sprang to the ground. With his hackles raised and a low ominous growl, rumbling deep in his chest, he stalked toward Derrick.

Everyone scattered out of the dog's way. Matthew hopped up onto a counter and drew his legs up, while Jon plastered himself against a wall and yanked a code cart in front of him.

With a wide-eyed look of fear, Derrick scrambled backwards and tripped over his feet in his haste to get away. Lucky launched his body airborne and slammed into Derrick, pinning him to the floor with his bulk.

Derrick flung an arm up to fend off the gleaming fangs that snapped close enough to his face that he felt the dog's hot breath. Lucky clamped down on his arm and held tight. “Get him off me!” Derrick shrieked.

Todd ran forward and grabbed hold of the dog's collar. “Lucky, stop!” He grabbed the dog's snout and tried to pry his mouth open.

“Get him off me,” Derrick cried as he kicked and punched at the dog's body.

“Todd, get me a syringe.” Alex broke open a lock on one of the code carts. She quickly rummaged through one of the drawers and pulled out an ampoule of Valium.

“Do you know how much to give him?” Jon ripped open the plastic packaging and handed the syringe to Alex.

“How much do you think he weighs?” Alex flipped the plastic cap off the bottle and slipped the needle inside.

“Ninety pounds?”

“Good enough.” Alex drew the dose into the syringe and then knelt down beside the dog's hindquarters. “Todd, hold him tight.”

“Jesus Christ just shoot the damn dog,” Derrick cried out as he frantically tried to take his gun out of his holster with his other hand.

Todd released Lucky, lunged over the dog's body, and pinned Derrick's free arm to the floor. “Don't even think about it,” he snarled, as he clamped his hands around the officer's wrist.

With one last look at the tangle of bodies on the floor, Alex pinched a handful of furry skin and jabbed the needle into the furry haunch. “Sorry, boy.” She eased back and waited for the drug to take effect, hoping she hadn't given him too much.

Seconds later, Lucky relaxed his grip on Derrick's arm and settled down at Todd's feet. He rolled onto his side and pawed at Todd's arm as he panted nervously.

The fireman looked helplessly at Alex and ran his hands over the dog's massive shoulders. “Is he going to be all right?”

“I think so,” Alex replied and patted the dog's shoulder. “Should've used it on him.” She nodded at Derrick who rolled to his knees and clutched his arm.

“Fuck you, bitch. That dog's being put down,” Derrick sputtered as he climbed slowly to his feet. “He tried to kill me.”

“If he wanted to kill you he would have ripped your throat open and not just held onto your arm.” Alex discarded the needle and whirled around. “Don't you even think of laying a finger on him…and not if you were the last human being on earth.”

Regina stepped from the room and stood beside Alex in the hallway. “Derrick, he says he remembers you.”

“That kid? He was knocked out.” He waved his hand in the air. “What the hell can he remember?”

“You handcuffing him in the alley,” Regina shot back.

“That's bullshit!” Derrick's voice cracked. “He…” his voice trailed off and he hobbled over to a linen cart and grabbed a towel from a shelf.

Alex stormed after Derrick, her eyes glinting dangerously as she pointed an accusing finger at him. “He was what, Derrick – running from you just like Regina was the night you attacked her? Was that it? Did you beat the crap out of him just like you tried to do to Regina?”

Derrick's pupils dilated until all that she could see was a sliver of his brown irises around the inky black circles.

Alex advanced on him her lip curling into a feral snarl. “Go ahead, say it! He was what?”

Everyone around them fell silent, riveted on Alex as she gathered her fury and bore down on the police officer.

Derrick's nostrils flared and his eyes darted around as he looked hopelessly for a sympathetic party. “H…he ran.”

“He ran, so you chased him. You son of a bitch, you ran him down like some common criminal and beat him to within an inch of his life. Didn't you?”

Derrick flinched and cowered back against the counter.

Alex curled her hand into a fist and cocked her arm back, her whole body vibrating with the intensity of her anger. “Say it.”

Derrick swallowed audibly and nodded his head as the words slipped out in a hoarse whisper. “Yes.”

“You don't know how much I want to do this right now,” she growled, her whole body trembling with anger.

A hand touched her arm and she glanced down to see mist green eyes peering back up at her. “Alex, please don't.”

“Don't worry, I won't,” she snapped and immediately regretted the harshness of her voice when she saw the confused and hurt look in Regina's eyes. “Next time pick on someone your own size,” Alex snarled at Derrick.

Matthew lowered himself off the counter top and walked a wide path around the panting dog. He looked Derrick up and down, reached for his holster, and relieved him of his gun. “It seems to me you won't be needing this anymore, officer.”

“You're going to take her word over mine?” Derrick backed away from Alex. “What about the dog, it attacked me!”

Jon walked over, folded his arms, and brought his face close to Derrick's and snarled. “What dog? I didn't see any dog.” He glanced at his colleague.” Did you, Alex?

“Nope. How about you Matthew?”

“It's a hospital. There are no animals here. Sit down, officer,” Matthew ordered.

Alex yanked a chair out from behind the nurse's station. She spun it around and presented it to Derrick. “Sit.”

When he made no move to do so, Alex grabbed his jacket, spun him around, and then roughly shoved him into the chair.

Sandy walked out from behind the nurse's station and pulled a pair of latex gloves from her lab coat pocket. She shoved her hands into them. “Let me see that.” She unwrapped the towel from around his arm and yanked up his shirtsleeve. “You won't even need stitches. Too bad.”

“That hurts.” Derrick yanked his arm away from Sandy.

“Looks like you're going to have fun tonight,” Alex said to Sandy.

The nurse rolled her eyes and shook her head in exasperation. “What the hell are you still doing here?”

“Haven't a clue,” Alex remarked. She looked around the department and saw Regina enter the locker room. With a sigh, she walked after her partner.

She pushed the door to the locker room open. Regina was leaning against her locker, her head resting against the door as she undid the lock.

Their eyes met and Regina glanced away first as she opened the narrow door.

“Hey.” Alex dropped her arms down to her side and walked up behind her. “I'm sorry I snapped at you out there.”

Regina glanced up at her and gave her a sad smile. “You were angry at Derrick.”

“Don't make an excuse for me, Regina. I was pissed and I took it out on you.”

Regina nodded her head in silent acknowledgement. “I feel bad leaving TJ here.”

Alex rested a hand on Regina's shoulder and massaged her thumb over the tense muscles in her neck. “He's safe for now.”

Regina closed her eyes and tilted her head back against Alex's chest. “I wish there was something more we could do for him.”

“You saved his life,” Alex stated quietly.

“So why doesn't that feel good enough?” Regina turned to Alex with a completely forlorn expression on her face.

Alex scuffed her sneaker against the floor and chewed on her lip. “I think I know why.”

Regina studied the thoughtful look on Alex's face. “I think maybe it's because we get to go home tonight and he doesn't.”

Alex nodded in agreement as she gently traced a finger over Regina's eyebrow. “Well, maybe this time when he's better, there will be a family he can finally call his own.” She offered her hand to Regina. “Come on, I'll take you home.”

Regina gladly accepted the warm embrace of Alex's hand. “I can't think of any other place I'd like to be right now.”

Chapter Thirty

Alex crossed her legs at her ankles and sat back in one of the burgundy colored leather chairs that were arrayed in a loose semi-circle in the executive suite reception area. She massaged her temples, trying to stave off the headache that started earlier in the day, from blossoming into a full-blown migraine.

The hospital's attorneys were relentless in their questioning. They spent most of the time meticulously rephrasing questions in an attempt to confuse and muddle the facts as they were presented during the lengthy deposition.

A blonde-haired woman with horn-rimmed spectacles looked over the top of her mahogany desk at Alex. “I'm sorry, Dr. Margulies, Mr. Stedman will be out in just another minute. Can I get you anything?”

Alex swallowed down a wave of nausea and shook her head. “No thanks, Louisa.” The only thing I want to do is blink myself home.

The Chief Executive Officer's assistant gave a curt nod her head and returned to her typing.

Several minutes later, the door to the executive suite swung open and a tall, meticulously dressed man stepped out into the hall. Astute brown eyes focused on Alex and he extended his hand as he walked toward the medical director.

“Dr. Margulies, I'm so glad you could meet with me on such short notice.”

As if there was another choice. Alex rose and returned his firm handshake, meeting his steely-eyed gaze. “It was good timing. We just finished with the deposition when Louisa paged me, Mr. Stedman.”

There was a subtle tensing of his shoulders at the mention of the legal proceedings and he immediately released her hand. “Let's go inside.” He closed the door behind them and indicated a captain's chair at a round coffee table. “Have a seat doctor. Can I get you anything to drink?” He opened a small refrigerator and removed a bottle of water.

“No, I'm fine.” Just get to the point. Alex walked to the table and sat in the chair across from John Stedman.

“Very well.” He sat and folded his neatly manicured hands on the cluttered table. “May I call you Alex?” The velvety smooth quality of his voice seared through Alex's consciousness and she knew before it started that this meeting was not going to end well.

The doctor inclined her head, and relaxed back in her chair and waited in silence for the Mr. Stedman to continue.

They just stared at each other. Her silence unnerved him and for a moment he didn't seem to know what to do.

After clearing his throat and opening his water he finally spoke again. “Very well, Alex.” He pulled a file off the top of one of the piles on the table and flipped it open. “You've been with us for quite a number of years.”

Seeing her personnel file from human resources before him, Alex lifted her chin and looked him squarely in the eye. “Ten, to be exact.”

Mr. Stedman studied the top sheet for a moment and then closed the file. “I trust you've fully recovered from the gunshot wound you suffered last fall.”

“I have,” Alex replied, wondering where her CEO was going with this conversation.

Mr. Stedman waved his hand dismissively over her file. “All this aside, Dr. Margulies, I have a proposition for you.”

Known for his acumen in cunning business practices, alarm bells sounded in the doctor's head. “What kind of a proposition?”

“I'd like to offer you a compensation package.”

Alex forced her expression to remain neutral, while her heart leapt up into her chest. “For what?” My resignation?

Pleased with himself, Mr. Stedman chuckled and took a swallow from his water bottle. “Your troubles.”

“Really, and what would that be?” She kept an even tone to her voice despite the trepidation that she felt in her gut.

“Five hundred thousand dollars. That's more than double your annual salary,” he pointed out triumphantly.

Alex's mouth suddenly went dry and she ran her tongue over her lower lip. “Nobody gives away five hundred thousand dollars without wanting something in return. What do you want?”

“Very simple. I need your signature on a piece of paper that says you won't hold the hospital liable for any injuries you suffered at the warehouse. That should more than cover your medical expenses. It also relieves you of any further responsibility to testify in the upcoming grand jury investigation. I find it intolerable that we waste one of our top physician's energy and time being tied up in countless hours of tedious depositions.” He slid the paper across to the doctor.

Alex took her time reading the document. “Interesting choice of words, Mr. Stedman.”

“Why's that?” He folded his arms and regarded her intently.

“The last time I checked, a CEO didn't have the authority to overturn a subpoena. Why don't you just come out and say you want to buy my silence.” Alex watched as the CEO's nostrils flared and his cheeks flushed ever so slightly. Bull's eye.

“You are just as blunt and painfully honest as your colleagues make you out to be.” He tapped his fingers on the table while he studied the doctor. He wagered she wasn't someone he wanted as an enemy but as far as he was concerned he was holding all the cards. “That's a noble sentiment, but misplaced. It's in your best interest, Dr. Margulies.”

So I can be beholden to you? “I'm sure you think it is.”

His eyes narrowed as he sensed his prey slipping away. “These proceedings have a tendency to drag mundane details into the limelight.”

“I have nothing to hide.”

“The offer will only be on the table this one time, Dr. Margulies. I suggest you consider it carefully.”

Alex pushed her chair back and snatched the document from the table before he could reach for it. “I have and my answer is no.”

Mr. Stedman stood up from the chair and leaned on across the table. “That's an unfortunate decision, Dr. Margulies. You have your career to consider.”

“As do you, Mr. Stedman.” Alex refused to back down, despite knowing she was inviting the wrath of this powerful man. She walked out of the office without a backward glance.

Alex closed the door behind her and let out a sigh of relief. Her legs trembled and it took all her concentration to walk past Louisa's desk without stumbling on the plush carpet.

“Good bye, Dr. Margulies,” Louisa called out.

Alex managed a polite smile and quickly strode out of the office. Once in the elevator, she leaned back against the wall and closed her eyes. Suddenly, nervous laughter bubbled up from inside and she covered her face. I probably just black listed myself but damn that felt good.

The doors slid open and Alex strode out into the ground floor lobby. Several of the attorneys from the deposition were still milling about talking amongst themselves. IN the middle of the crowd she spotted Matthew and caught his attention.

“How did your meeting go?” he asked, as he walked up to her.

Alex shrugged and handed him the unsigned paper. “Here, you might find this interesting.”

Matthew set down his briefcase and studied the document. “I figured he would try something like this.” He lifted his eyes to Alex's and gave her a not so re-assuring smile. “He's afraid of what you know.”

“That's supposed to make me feel better?”

“Not really.” He folded the paper and tucked it into his coat pocket. “Just do your job, keep a low profile here, and let me know if he tries anything else. In the meantime, did you speak to a lawyer?”

“It's taken care of.”

“Then you've done all you can. We're going out for drinks. Do you want to come?” He jerked his thumb back at his cohorts.

“No thanks. I have some unfinished business to attend to.” Alex smiled and shook her head.


Regina closed another carton of charts and labeled it with a black marker. She sat back on her heels and looked around clinic. The walls and floor nearest the warehouse were blackened from smoke damage. Water had buckled the wallboard and warped the tiled floor. Structurally, the clinic was sound but would be closed for weeks until the repairs were completed.

The whole thing didn't seem real. It was hard for her to comprehend the cold, calculating, greed that consumed Cassandra to the point that she threw caution to the wind and sacrificed everything for money. Regina ran her fingers through her hair and then lifted the last box up onto the table.

She closed her eyes and her mind wandered back to earlier that morning. She smiled to herself, cherishing the brief, intimate interlude they shared before the responsibilities of the new day intruded on their peaceful respite.

Regina rolled over and watched as Alex pulled on a pair of black linen pants. “Don't let them keep you late again,” she whispered, her voice still rough with sleep.

In the darkness, she saw Alex's lips twitch into an impish smile. “Not a chance. I have plans for us later today.”

“Plans? What plans?” That sparked Regina's curiosity and she sat up in bed.

Alex winked as she cinched the leather belt around her waist. “Well, if I tell you now it will spoil the surprise.”

Regina groaned and flopped back down onto her pillow. “No fair,” she sulked and folded her arms over her chest.

The mattress dipped as Alex knelt over her and stroked the side of Regina's face. Without a word, she bent forward and kissed her lover.

Regina trailed her hand over Alex's cheek and ran her finger's through the silky black hair, getting lost in the sensual wave of their embrace as their kiss deepened. A groan escaped Alex's lips as Regina slid her thigh up between her legs and rubbed against her.

“That's…not…fair.” Alex bit her bottom lip and arched her back as she strained against Regina's insistent pressure. “Oh…god.”

“You started it,” Regina exhaled as she ran her fingertips over Alex's ribs and then angled her hands to caress her breasts through the fabric of her shirt.

Regina inhaled sharply as one of Alex's hands worked its way under her nightshirt and traced a meandering pattern over her belly before wandering higher.

A rich, deep chuckle tickled Regina's ear. “I do believe you're trying to make me late, Regina Kingston.” Alex lowered her mouth and nibbled Regina's earlobe.

Regina rubbed her palm over the outside of Alex's pants, feeling the heat and dampness of her lover's arousal. She tugged the belt buckle loose, undid the button, and then worked the zipper down on Alex's trousers.

“Whatever gave you that impression?” she teased as she slid her hand inside the bikini briefs and cupped Alex's hardened clitoris. “Besides, I can't let you leave like this. It…wouldn't…be…fair.”

Regina shook her head, still a little surprised at her emboldened advance. A smile played at her lips and heated blush crept up her neck, as her breathing grew ragged at the vivid memory of their lovemaking.

I wonder what she's got up her sleeve for this afternoon.


She whirled around, startled by the male voice. “Oh, Todd. I didn't hear you come in.”

He scratched his head. “I know. You were really out there for a minute.”

Regina looked away from him and fiddled needlessly with the lid of the box. “I guess this place is giving me the creeps. It's weird seeing the warehouse look the way it does and knowing we were in there when it happened.”

“You shouldn't be alone, Reg. We're cooking dinner at the firehouse and I thought maybe you'd like something to eat.”

Oh boy. “Thanks, but I'm waiting for Alex. We're going to pack up all this stuff and bring it back to the emergency department.”

“Well, bring her over. She's welcome too.”

Regina walked Todd to the door. “We'll see.” A car door slammed out in the street and Regina looked out the window to see Alex walking away from her Jeep.

Instantly, her heart rate accelerated as she studied her partner's confident stride and the somber look on her face, as she looked around her surroundings, unaware that Regina was watching her.

“Alex.” Regina stepped out of the building and waved to her from the steps.

Alex's hawk like gaze settled immediately on Regina and a smile graced the taller woman's lips.

“I couldn't wait to see you.” Regina laughed as Alex slipped her arm around her waist and kissed the top of her head.

“Me either. I thought about you all day.” Alex tilted her head and smiled down at her partner as she ruffled Regina's hair. “You look beautiful.”

“I look a mess,” she replied self-consciously.

“Not to my eyes.” Alex looked over at Todd and smiled at him. “You look a hell of a lot better than the last time I saw you.”

He snorted. “Ditto. I told Regina we're cooking dinner at the firehouse if you two want a bite to eat. It's good to get together with everyone after something like this happens, you know, put some closure on everything.”

Alex shrugged. “Why not.”

“Excellent.” Todd rubbed his hands together.

“Go get your jacket, Reg. We'll leave this stuff 'til later.”

“Okay, sure.” Regina gave Alex a curious look, surprised by her partner's acceptance and then disappeared back inside the clinic.

“Do you think she has any idea?” Todd waited until she was out of earshot.

“Not a clue. Matthew had a friend of his run a search on the kid and came up with nothing as far as family is concerned. It may just work out.”

Todd ran his fingers through his hair. “We'll hope for the best.”

Alex nudged him as Regina re-appeared around the corner, tugging her jacket over her shoulder. “We'll meet you over there in a minute.”

“Gotcha.” The fireman trotted down the steps and jogged across the street.

“You ready?” Alex flashed a smiled at her partner.

“Yeah.” Regina locked the door and followed Alex down the steps. “I'm really surprised you wanted to do this.”

“Why?” Alex slowed her steps so Regina could catch up with her.

“You weren't too fond of Todd when we first met him.”

“He grew on me.” The slightest hint of a smile played around her mouth. Alex ushered Regina ahead of her as they entered the firehouse.

They climbed the stairs, listening to loud, raucous voices emanating from the kitchen. Barking followed by a high-pitched squeal reached their ears.

“Good grief, what are they doing up here?” Regina reached the landing first and walked around the corner. She stopped and stared at the familiar faces. Sandy sat at the end of the table next to Terry who was sipping soda through a straw. Regina turned to Alex and poked her several times in the ribs. “You fink. You knew all along and you didn't say a word.”

Alex fended off the flurry of Regina's hands and turned her around. “Hey, Sandy where's the guest of honor?”

“Feeding Lucky table scraps.”

The end of the large wooden table rocked slightly as the Shepard stood up and backed out from underneath it. His ears twitched and he licked his chops as he rested his snout on the table beside Terry's elbow.

“I am not. Terry is,” came the protest from the back of the kitchen. TJ poked his head out from behind one of the firemen and stuck his tongue out at Sandy.

“How did you manage…I don't understand.” Regina stared up at Alex with an incredulous expression on her face.

“The state Welfare system placed TJ in a group home until they find something more permanent for him,” Alex explained. “We managed to convince Terry's parents that it would be good for her to see her friend before she starts her next round of chemo next week.”

Todd walked up to them and held out two sodas.

“Thanks.” Alex took them both and handed one to Regina. “Todd talked to social services and worked it out so TJ can come here after school everyday if he wants. It's not ideal but at least he's with people who care about him.” Alex glanced across the room and watched as TJ shoved a roll into his mouth and then offered one to the dog. “He's going to make your dog fat.”

“That beast? You should see how much he eats in a day and still doesn't put on one pound.” They all watched as TJ leaned over and said something to Terry that made the girl laugh. He plucked a piece of uneaten crust from the girl's plate and offered it to the dog. “Hey TJ, don't feed him pizza.”

“But he likes it.” The teenager grinned back.

“Good, then you get to walk him tonight.”

The boy thought about it for a moment and then shook his head vehemently. “No way.”

“Get over here and say hello to the docs.” Todd waved his arm at Alex and Regina. “I think at least one thank you would be proper.”

“Go ahead and embarrass the kid,” Alex grumbled in his ear as she squeezed past him.

Todd gave her a knowing sidelong glance and snorted. “Don't like the sensitive stuff, huh.”

Alex ignored his jibe while she grabbed a paper plate from the table and filled it with a pile of pasta and sauce. “I didn't think you were going to make it,” Alex said as she sat down next to Sandy.

The nurse rested her forearms on the table. “Tina's working late so I figured I would stop by. Besides you know I wouldn't miss a party.”

“Did you guys work things out?” Alex asked in between forkfuls of pasta.

“We're talking, which is more than we were doing a few days ago.”

Alex started to reply but one of the firefighters sat down next to Terry and started talking to her so she focused her attention on her food.


Regina sat down at the long table, watching as TJ straddled the chair next to her. He covered his mouth and coughed, still suffering the side effects of the smoke inhalation.

“Todd said you pulled me out of the warehouse.”

“I had some help.” Regina looked across the table to where Alex was sitting next to Sandy. Something fluttered inside when she caught Alex studying her and she found herself completely distracted by the thoughtful expression on the woman's face.

“That man who beat me up is going to jail.” TJ rubbed his hand over the stubble that was his hair growing back on his head.

Regina turned her attention back to TJ. “Yes, he is.” Five days had passed since Derrick's confession and she still had trouble acknowledging that someone she had let get so close to her was capable of such hateful actions.

“Todd said he thought I was someone else, but I told him he was wrong. Why did he beat me up?”

Regina pressed her lips together and tilted her head as she cupped the TJ's chin with her hand. “I don't know, TJ. It wasn't your fault.” Regina lowered her hand and sighed. “I was worried about you being out there all by yourself.”

TJ stared at Regina and he fiddled with a loose button on his shirt. “I didn't think anyone would miss me.”

Regina shook her head. “You were wrong about that. People do care about you.”

TJ brightened momentarily as he heard Todd's boisterous laugh in the corner of the room. “I like it here better than the place I'm staying.”

“I know but you won't be alone anymore, kiddo.” Regina blinked back tears and rose from the table. She stroked her hand over TJ's hair, bent, and placed a kiss on the top of his head.

“I'll be back to see you,” she whispered.

TJ held onto her arm. “Promise?”

“You bet. Now it's my turn to go thank someone.” Regina collected herself and walked over to where Alex was sitting. She sat down and helped herself to a forkful of the pasta on Alex's plate. “Was this your surprise?”

Alex's lips twitched as she tilted the soda up to her mouth. “Part of it.”

“Are you in on this too, Sandy?” She leaned on the table and peered at the nurse curiously.

“Nope, I'm just sitting here minding my own business.”

“As if…” Alex flinched as Sandy nudged her with an elbow. “You're capable of doing that.”

Regina leaned forward, her hands pressing on the edge of the chair and she whispered so only Alex could hear her. “I know I've told you that I love you before, but I want you to know that tonight, I fell in love with you all over again.”

Alex said nothing. Regina was aware of the seconds slipping by as they sat inches apart staring quietly into each other's eyes, the rest of the noise and people in the room seeming to fade away.

Alex cleared her throat. “I have to ask you something but I don't want do it here.” She stood up from the table. “Come on.”

“Where are we going?” Regina asked, wondering what all the secrecy was about.

“Bye kids. Don't stay out too late.” Sandy tried to hide her self-satisfied smile but failed miserably.

“You'll see.” Alex rolled her eyes at Sandy and then clasped Regina's hand. “Let's get of here.” Without another word, Alex led the way out of the fire station with Regina walking along beside her.

Her hands shook as she unlocked the Jeep and climbed in beside Regina.

“Are you okay, Alex?” Regina peered at her in the darkness.

Alex coughed and nodded her head at the burnt out warehouse. “I guess looking at that makes me realize that you just don't know what's going to happen; for us it was a matter of seconds that could have changed everything.” Alex's eyes took on a far away expression as she thought about all the things that brought them to this exact point in time. She swallowed a lump in her throat as Regina squeezed her hand.

“We made it.”

“I know.” Alex shook off the momentary melancholy that gripped her and started the engine.

What do you have to ask me?”

“I found something I think you'll like.”

“You're not going to tell me?” Regina turned in her seat and studied serious Alex's profile as she directed the vehicle out of the parking space.

“No, just wait a few minutes

Regina couldn't hold back the smile she felt pulling at the corners of her mouth when she looked into those ice blue eyes. “I guess I can wait,” she grumbled and pushed out her lower lip in a pout.

Alex leaned across the center console and kissed Regina on the cheek. “You look cute when you do that.”

Regina slumped lower into her seat as Alex tuned the key in the ignition. “I'm pouting, not trying to look cute.”

It took ten-minutes to drive to Hawke's Nest Reservation. Alex turned on her blinker and fifty feet later turned right into the park entrance. She guided the Jeep up the gravel drive and parked by a row of tall Maples that were just beginning to show a slight hew of red along their branches, signaling the approaching spring bloom.

“I thought you might enjoy this.”

“We haven't been here in a long time,” Regina remarked quietly as she stepped out of the Jeep and looked around.

Alex turned the engine off and hopped out. She retrieved the woolen blanket from the back seat and turned around, suddenly struck with a strong sense of deja vu.

Emotion stung her eyes as she watched Regina walk in front of the Jeep, stopping for a moment and lifting her face to soak in the warmth of the setting sun's rays. Alex brought a hand to her face and wiped away a tear sliding down her cheek.

A moment later, after she regained her composure, she joined Regina and slid an arm around her partner's shoulder. “Standing here with you makes everything else seem pretty insignificant.”

Regina shaded her eyes from the sun to look up at Alex. “It does.”

Not long after, they were walking hand in hand away from the parking lot, heading up a gently sloping hillside that led to a winter beaten dirt path.

As they crested the top and started down the other side, Regina let out a small gasp. Below them, unhidden by the sparse late winter foliage was the shimmering surface of the lake. A trail of deep, gold light from the sunset reflected off its surface, leading off to some potentially magical place beyond the horizon.

Regina leaned against her taller companion and savored the colorful hues of the sunset. “Thank you.”

“For what?” Alex draped the blanket over Regina's shoulders and wrapped her arms around her neck.

“For making the end of a really horrible week into something that feels peaceful and right.”

“I just thought you might want to come out here,” Alex replied matter-of-fact.

“It is kind of a special place for us.”

Alex studied the blonde for a long moment and then rested her head against Regina's. “Yeah, it is.” She felt the younger woman snuggle closer and wrap a hand around her arm with a contented sigh.

Alex closed her eyes and allowed herself a moment to bask in the warm, comforting feeling emanating between them. After the week they'd been through, it caught her totally off guard to feel this calm and grounded.

“We were lucky,” Alex murmured.

“It wasn't luck,” Regina assured her. “I knew deep down that no matter what happened in that warehouse as long as we were together we would make it out.”

Alex took Regina's hand and led her over to an old weathered cedar bench by the water's edge. They sat and Alex's arm automatically went around Regina's shoulder as the younger woman nestled her head against Alex's shoulder.

“I smell fish.” Regina wrinkled her nose.

“No you smell a dead fish,” Alex replied cheerfully and motioned to one floating in the shallow water.

“Gross. Thanks for pointing it out.” Regina playfully poked her in the ribs.

“Your welcome,” Alex said, deadpan. “Kiss me?”

“Not after that, you fink.”

Alex laughed and brushed a kiss against Regina's temple. They sat in silence for another few minutes, watching the sky turn brilliant shades of pink and burnt oranges.

“I used to think I could control what life threw at me,” Regina whispered softly, breaking the silence between them. “Isn't that naïve?”

“No.” Alex shook her head. “I thought if I buried myself in my work I could keep all the demons away. After I got shot, I tried to convince myself I didn't need anyone. The problem was that meant not having you in my life.” She spared a glance at Regina and looked down at the water, her voice taking on a distant tone. “I got so lost – I thought it would just be easier to let go.” The fear, the pride, and the hurt had all wedged between them at the time. “I'm sorry I hurt you.”

“We both had a part in that, Alex. You can't take all the blame for what happened. I'm sorry, too.”

The past month had been an ordeal but it had brought them closer. Of that Regina was sure. She'd fallen in love with Alex's confident, strong, magnetic personality and in the last several weeks she'd come to love her as much for her vulnerability.

It was only the trust built between them that allowed those particular walls to finally come down.

Regina kissed her cheek. Alex turned her face and their lips touched, warm, and soft, a perfect fit as they explored each other. The kiss was tender and gentle – a sharing of souls.

“We're a pair. Aren't we?” Regina murmured, breaking the kiss of first. She looked up into the pale blue eyes and swallowed nervously at the raw emotions she saw flash across her partner's face. “You come out of medical school thinking you can change the world and find out you're just kidding yourself.”

Alex shook her head. “Maybe we can't change the world, but if we can change it for just one person, then, we've made a difference.” She lifted Regina's face, realizing in a sad way that some of the youthful, innocence she'd seen in Regina when she first met her was fading but in it's place was a stronger more resilient woman. “You have made a difference, so don't you ever forget that.”

When Alex raised her head again, a question was there in her eyes, shining, dark and intense.

The words tumbled out of Regina's mouth unplanned. “You know I can't imagine my life without you.”

Alex looked out over the water and took a long breath. She turned to Regina on the bench and took the smaller hands in hers. “I'm glad you feel that way. I want us to make this official, Regina.” She looked at the shocked expression on Regina's face and plowed ahead before she lost her nerve. “I need you. I need us to be a family. Do you want that?”

Regina looked at her and raised a trembling hand to Alex's face. “Every day of my life, forever.”

Alex reached into her pocket and withdrew the ring she'd tucked safely away before she left the house hours earlier. It sparkled now as she turned it in her fingers. She swallowed and closed her eyes before she continued. “Reg, you've got my heart and soul. You've had it all this time.”

“Oh my god, I can't…” Regina stared at her in shock as she realized what Alex was holding. “It's beautiful.”

A relieved smile lit up Alex's face. She took Regina's hand and slid the ring on her finger. A sense of sweet peace invaded her heart, replacing the empty ache she'd become almost numb to. She'd spent too much time the last few years just existing day to day. It was time for them both to live.

Regina wrapped her arms around Alex and held her close. She imagined she could hear her heart beating through the thickness of her coat and smiled against Alex's chest. She inhaled and savored the rich, earthy scent of spring.

Warmth emanated through her as her thoughts turned to the cycle of the seasons and the hope that comes with the dawning of spring each year. Regina saw it in Alex's eyes as they locked with hers; the recognition that their journey through life was like the endless cycle of the seasons, one that is meant, in the end to guide them home.

The end for now…

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